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NaughtyRob · 12-22-2009, 07:09 PM

50 apologies. Hang in there! Things always get better.

WonderWoman · 12-22-2009, 07:12 PM

Just ride the wave Lori. You will make it to the other side.

Sending love.

Raja · 12-22-2009, 07:12 PM

Hey Lori,
From the bottom of our hearts Laurel and I wish you all the best. You are one of the most tenacious people we've ever met and we know you'll bounce back bigger and better.
If you need anything please hit us up.
Raja & Laurel

GTS Mark · 12-22-2009, 07:17 PM

Lori, sorry to hear you're having such a hard time. If there is anything I can do for you please give me a call.

You're a remarkable person that has created a niche within the business! We all go thru hard times so keep your chin up!

Mark

TheSenator · 12-22-2009, 07:28 PM

"Many of life's failures are people who did not realize how close they were to success when they gave up." Thomas A. Edison

Learn from your past mistakes and keep moving forward.

Exit-chat · 12-22-2009, 07:34 PM

Lori,
Stay strong and your head up. If there is anything i can do to assist and help please let me know... i will see if there is anything i can do.... your a great person!!!
Rick

Phoenix · 12-22-2009, 07:34 PM

keep your chin up Lori

you will deal with it all in time

lets hope 2010 is better for all around.

if there is anything i can do let me know

HighSociety · 12-22-2009, 07:50 PM

Hang in there....one day at a time

digitaldivas · 12-22-2009, 07:50 PM

sending good energy your way

davecummings · 12-22-2009, 08:31 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by fmltube

Our character is defined in how we deal with adversity and seeing how you have weathered the worst part of the storm, its only up from here. Keep your chin up, love your kid, and know that better times are ahead. Be proud knowing that you are doing your best to be a great Mom and that karma will pay dividends in both of your futures.

Well said, thanks!

I agree, and wish Lori the very very best of everything.

Hang in there,

Dave

Dan · 12-22-2009, 09:50 PM

Lori,

Throughout the year you have been great and I am amazed at hearing of how much you were dealing with and juggling during this period. You have always busted your ass for CamZ and have been an asset to be working with. I am sure that as we move into the new year you are going to be on top of things as usual. You have a nack for the deal making and putting synergy to deals with companies. You bring energy and a spark to get deals done and have made a lot of people money in this business It is shamfull that those same people would turn around and not reward you for your hard work and or cheat you out of what is yours to the point that it puts you into the position you found yourself in.

As one of the many companies you have helped over the years I too am there for you. If there is anything you need please do not hesitate to contact me.

I can also offer the services of my bother Antonio to act as your collection guy

He has a passport and love cold weather.

As a former single parent with 100% custody and no family support I can empathize with you and your struggles and juggles.

You love the deal and have the enthusiasm to make them happen. Hang in there I know you will land on your feet.

See you soon.

BAKO · 12-22-2009, 09:56 PM

Good luck with everything Lori Z, If there is anything I can do for you don't hesitate to ask

Iron Fist · 12-22-2009, 10:06 PM

Good luck in your endeavors.

EscortBiz · 12-22-2009, 10:09 PM

many are going thru allot, the same way bad things can happen quick so can positive things

all the best

pornlaw · 12-22-2009, 10:12 PM

We dont know each other -- but if you need some free legal advice or help during this time please feel free to contact me.

Good luck to you and your daughter....

Elli · 12-22-2009, 10:23 PM

Lori, that post shows incredible strength. I'm sure it took a while to get it all out on paper, so to speak. Take your time to rebuild yourself and your life with your daughter. And remember, your health is one of the most important things you can have.

*hugs* to you and your girl!

spazlabz · 12-22-2009, 10:33 PM

Hi Lori,
I have never had the opportunity to work with you in the past and from the quality of your post, the baring of your soul, your honesty and such a heartfelt apology to those who may have been affected I can clearly see it has been my loss.

Your post, I read every word, touched me personally. At 42 I can only imagine such a tremendous impact all those things must have had on you. If there is a bright side you have found it by holding on to the fact that nothing this monumental can leave you unchanged and that from it you have found both strength and peace.

It is almost insultingly cliche to say that there is nowhere to go but up but in this case there is truth in it. It is my sincerest hope that you have the power and the friends to overcome any hurdles you may face in putting the pieces back into place.

It would be naive for me to think that I could offer you an arm to hold or a shoulder to lean on. I hope you to see as you move forward and rebuild and I also hope you keep us all updated on your progress.

spaz

Va2k · 12-22-2009, 10:33 PM

Wow, I don't really know you ma'am but I have been where you are at! With me it was 98% my fault, the pain pills, the drinking.. I went from a father of two a paramedic firefighter owing a house car etc to living in a 8 by ten garage without running water or a bathroom. It was only me and my two boys at the time and the shit I was going through was the toughest time of my life..

I tried very very hard to do the right things and ended up screwing up really bad. I have done things that I am not proud of and things that will haunt me for the rest of my life. Hell I even wanted to die, didn't want to do nothing but feel sorry for myself. I then had some help from people I didn't know from strangers and I pulled myself out of the gutter and got cleaned up!

I will tell you it was the hardest thing I have ever done.. My kids are my life my kids are the main reason I am alive my kids are everything to me. What I am trying to say is stay strong take help when given, go out ask for help take care of yourself so you can take care of your child. I have been clean and sober now for 5 year going on the 6th in June ;) It has been a real struggle to get where I am at. But well worth it. If I can do it then anyone really can! If I can be of help please let me know. Good luck and Have a Merry Christmas.

The Adult Broker · 12-22-2009, 10:39 PM

I just came back online since writing my post and I am overwhelmed with appreciation for all these kind words of support and encouragement.

Thank you all so very much for writing back-your words of strength are already helping me feel stronger to face the next mountain for me to climb. And that is all the outstanding paperwork and accounting of months my assistant left behind.

It will take me time I know, but I thank G-d I have gotten to the point of being able to take this first step forward. I feel like...I am slowly feeling life again.

My sincere gratitude for all these posts and the encouragement - they truly mean the world to me and your words truly give me strength.

I am thankful,

Lori Z.

The Adult Broker · 12-22-2009, 11:50 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by JayAllan

Simply writing what you just wrote, and sharing it with the world like that, shows that you do have the strength to move forward, and that you are willing to make the life changes that you must make. We all put on a brave face on try to be one the bros in this industry but the truth is we are all just real people with very real problems.

We are all going through massive changes right now, and I believe, at least for myself, that while it is difficult times, the change is what makes us grow, and for many of us will drive us to be better businessmen/women and hopefully better people.

Best of luck to you and your family. And thanks for sharing your experiences

and thank you for sharing much needed positive affirmation. I sincerely wish you all the best.

The Adult Broker · 12-22-2009, 11:53 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by jay23

Hay Lori, you are one of the very few people in the biz I love and trust. Clients not paying their bills this year has been one the biggest issues for me to, hope things will work out soon.

If you want to attend Internext let me know, I will put the hotel bill on my company.

Jay
objectcube.com

wow, what a truly kind gesture Jay. We have known each other for almost 8 years I think by now and your offer of assistance I am so grateful for. I have not even had a moment to think about Internext but should I be more on my feet by then, I would humbly let you know for sure.

wishing you all the best in this new year and hope it is as wonderful as you are. thank you for reaching out. xo

The Adult Broker · 12-23-2009, 12:07 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by notime

Lori,
You always kept your word to me. You brought me deals for commissions like agreed. You honered them and so did I.
Let me know your personal epass (by email) so you and your 9'r have a little Xmas help.
May others share a little Xmas spirit for a hard working single mom too, that is my Xmas wish for you,
Jaques

Jacque, my heartfelt thank you for this post and offer. I really appreciate your acknowledgment and your offer for my daughter.

sept00 is epass.

I am grateful for any help and I also humbly ask the industry if there are deals out there that closed and were not invoiced for to please let me know. I have lost months of deals and income from losing my assistant and book keeper during this and no accounting had been done in months I am finding out.

I am going to try my best to recover what I can but accept that may not happen fully.

This is a start to stopping the daily compounding financial losses as much as I can.

Jacques, a world of thanks for your thoughts and offer. I am so grateful.

many many thank you's to all of you.

wdsguy · 12-23-2009, 12:10 AM

all i can say is whoa

The Adult Broker · 12-23-2009, 12:11 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by Benny

Hang in there Lori... You're one of the strongest and coolest women I know... You'll land on your feet, and feel free to let me know how I can help....

Your friend Bruce...

Bruce...you are one of the dearest people I know and I truly value your friendship of so many years. thank you for your kind words. I hope to connect soon and begin anew. xo, Lori

The Adult Broker · 12-23-2009, 12:29 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by SweetT

Lori....

I am SO sorry to hear about your troubles. As Jay said, this was not the year to be in the B2B side of the adult internet but you gave it your all and you have nothing to be ashamed of. What matters now is that you evaluate your life...not your business....not your board "persona"....but your LIFE. Decide what is important (I think we both know what that is) and dedicate yourself to concentrating on just that and nobody else. Take care of yourself and your daughter and everything else will fall into place.

Please let me know if there is anything that I can do for you to make the holidays a little easier for the two of you. If you just want to email me a shipping address I will make sure that your little one has a great Christmas. It's the least that I can do for all of the help you have given my company over the years.

I hope I hear from you, Lori....It would be my honor to make her Christmas special.

--T

Tony,

It took me a bit to reply to your post because I could not find the words in the dictionary that adequately convey what I felt when I read your words.

You have been a true measure of a person that is as real in business as in heart. I have always respected that in you and it has been my sincere pleasure to work with you over the years.

I am grateful for your understanding and I am truly doing what you advise... word for word and step by step because you are right. I've been processing and evaluating all and I know it will take time to get back my strength in mind, body and spirit but I know it is a must if I am to build a strong foundation to begin again and create a conscious and good life for me and my daughter. A healthy one to keep my illness in remission.

I will email you because your beautiful gesture means so much. And because I took the step in my life to finally reach out for help, it has helped me to graciously accept help and kind gestures when they are presented.

Thank you Tony. And I wish for you in this New Year all that you wish for.

With true appreciation...thank you for your words and for your kindness.

Lori Z.

selena · 12-23-2009, 12:48 AM

I don't know you outside of seeing you post, but like you, I have a child that I have the total responsibility for.

I also have the total joy, as do you in your daughter.

Your post struck a chord with me, as I have been on the downside of up before. It truly is a scary place to be. But it can also be a very freeing one.

You sound like a smart lady, so just keep your focus on your daughter and that which is real. To quote Alexander Graham Bell:

When one door closes, another opens; but we often look so long and so regretfully upon the closed door that we do not see the one which has opened for us

Don't let what is lost blind you to what is not, Miss Lori.

Best of luck to you.

Marie · 12-23-2009, 12:51 AM

Lori, I wish you all the best. As a single mother you already deserve all the respect in the world... a loving, hardworking person can only take so much. Don't be afraid to ask the people around you for help, you deserve it!
I am sorry for your loss and I hope the love you received and will continue to receive will help you get through this.
Best of strength and luck to you.

fryer · 12-23-2009, 12:54 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by area51

I didn't read any of that shit you wrote because who really gives a fuck? no one.

Wow you don't have a soul...

TheAmericanCannibal · 12-23-2009, 12:55 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by Benny

You've gotta be kidding me, what a miserable piece of shit you are!!!!!!! Go find another thread cocksucker...

Benny good for you! That was way uncalled for.
Lori- you and I may have had some go 'rounds in this business, but it was and only is just business.

This is a personal issue and I am feeling for you right now. I know what a great single mom you are, having seen you and your daughter at many functions over the years. Stay strong, and know that there is sunshine through those dark clouds. You are stronger than you think.

fryer · 12-23-2009, 12:56 AM

You sound like a strong woman. Keep your head up! Hope all works out for you.

Rangermoore · 12-23-2009, 01:02 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by area51

I didn't read any of that shit you wrote because who really gives a fuck? no one.

I do not know Lori, but after reading her story I wish her all the luck in the world...She is a true winner! But you area 51 are a true piece of shit and should do the human race a favor and just die....So we can piss on your grave!

Roald · 12-23-2009, 01:07 AM

Lori, hang in there!

Sincerely,
Your Ducth Oven

PersianKitty · 12-23-2009, 01:27 AM

Lori,

Glad to see you post and from one single mother to another.... sometimes it is so easy to get so caught up in the stresses of the day to day, hour to hour, minute to minute that we lose sight of the long term which boils down for me at least to family and friends. I have been reminded numerous times over the years that my boys pretty much always know when something unnerving is going on in my life and luckily for me, even when they were young (the age of your daughter) they knew they could ask questions and get a valid explanation. It also served to ground me in the fact that I was first here for myself and in turn for them and if things were getting to me they were obviously going to effect them.

(pun intended) you'll come out like a cat ..on your feet... and the tigress I have seen in action in definitely there laying in wait to pounce on the opportunities. You'll be stronger, more knowledgeable, and utterly surprised at the fact that you can handle all of it. In the scope of things.. it's one year... it was a very sucky year... but one that you will take things from for the rest of your life.

Trixxxia · 12-23-2009, 01:51 AM

Lori, you're an exceptional businesswoman, however, the dedicated mother that we've seen you be is what has always shined through first and foremost. Sometimes, life throws us curveballs with such force that we can neither predict nor prepare for what is to come.

I know you will resurge with acquired knowledge, strength and a determination to change life as it is now, for yourself and your daughter.

My positive thoughts are with you both & may the Holidays be bright for both of you!

Patrizia

SexMyWife · 12-23-2009, 03:02 AM

As many have mentioned here already Lori, hang in there, as things WILL get better for you.

Wishing you a wonderful 2010.

Jman · 12-23-2009, 07:58 AM

You are a stand up women and should not have to apologies... Lori hit me up if you need anything.

Quagmire · 12-23-2009, 09:08 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by area51

I didn't read any of that shit you wrote because who really gives a fuck? no one.

You didn't read any of what she wrote because you're a fucking tard with 1800+ posts since August 09, not because nobody gives a fuck.

The Adult Broker · 12-23-2009, 09:26 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by Chris

Nope get back to the cellar

Chris-you and Theresa have been amazing through all this. Thank you both for holding the fort down as much as you could through this. And I'm very appreciative to Julie for fielding and helping. I'm blessed to have you guys!

The Adult Broker · 12-23-2009, 09:37 AM

wow, so many posts - to reply to each is an overwhelming thought so I just like to extend my gratitude to each of you for taking the time to write and for your support. (well area51 was one that stung but maybe they learned this community and industry is about more than they realized.)

most appreciative, Lori

Wizzo · 12-23-2009, 09:46 AM

Hang in there Lori and hope 2010 brings sunnier skies!

dirtybaker1331 · 12-23-2009, 10:00 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by The Adult Broker

wow, so many posts - to reply to each is an overwhelming thought so I just like to extend my gratitude to each of you for taking the time to write and for your support. (well area51 was one that stung but maybe they learned this community and industry is about more than they realized.)

most appreciative, Lori

Forget about that jerkoff. I looked at his previous posts and they all seem to be irrelevant. Just some forum troll who doesn't know shit. Hope to see you at internext in Jan.

INDY500DRIVER · 12-23-2009, 10:18 AM

All the best Lori... In time.. you will realize that you are a Superwoman and nothing will be able to stop you. Some people never get challeges liek that thrown at them .... the fact that you are on here says marvel things about your strength.. I remeber when Dwayne Somers first introduced us.. I was impressed and still am..

All the best from me and the folks here at GTBilll... Dom

ravo · 12-23-2009, 10:26 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by The Adult Broker

sept00 is epass.

I am grateful for any help and I also humbly ask the industry if there are deals out there that closed and were not invoiced for to please let me know. I have lost months of deals and income from losing my assistant and book keeper during this and no accounting had been done in months I am finding out.

I am going to try my best to recover what I can but accept that may not happen fully.

Lori: Wow, this comes as a complete shock to me; you are the most 'together' person I have ever met in this industry; that speaks volumes about what you are going through.

I sincerely hope you do not leave this industry; you've touched many with your deal-making abilities, and a true desire to make to affect a win-win situation.

I've just sent you an epass for a pending deal that will close next week, plus a a bit extra for some Christmas cheer.

Candybear · 12-23-2009, 10:36 AM

Good luck to you Lori and keep your head up girl!

Bryan G · 12-23-2009, 10:40 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by area51

I didn't read any of that shit you wrote because who really gives a fuck? no one.

Speak for yourself asshole, you are a pathetic human being.

Lori,

Hit me up anytime if you need anything or feel like talking. Take care of yourself and all the best

Honez · 12-23-2009, 10:47 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by SweetT

.....Take care of yourself and your daughter and everything else will fall into place.....

--T

I have to agree with T here. Although I am glad you have put some of those rumors to rest, the task ahead of you now is to focus on you and your girl. Lori, my heart goes out to you. The strength of those shoulders have definitely been tested and if I know you even a little bit, I know that you will somehow find a way to turn all of this heartache into something so positive that you may even surprise yourself.

You are in my prayers. As my mom always says, until things get better, tie another knot in the end of your rope and hang on.

mvee · 12-23-2009, 11:14 AM

Character - the willingness to accept responsibility for one's own life - is the source from which self respect springs.

Lori - Survive and heal we will see you soon.

Connor · 12-23-2009, 11:23 AM

Hey Lori -

What a terrible year it has been for so many people... I know it's just a ceremonial change, but I hope the coming of 2010 will mean better things for you and your daughter. I am also a single parent of a 9 year old, and I totally get that responsibility; my only advice is to use it, use it to find the strength you need to get to wherever you need to be in life. My best wishes go with you.

leedsfan · 12-23-2009, 12:20 PM

Lori,

2010 will be a banner year for TAB and you personally. It takes great courage to admit tough times, and more to deal with them. Clearly you are handling both with your usual fire and determination.

I look forward to doing business with you next year and know that you are reliable and hardworking as anyone in this industry when motivated by adversity.

Keep your chin up and have some deserved rest over the holidays.

Hit me up if you need anything.

Tom_PM · 12-23-2009, 12:35 PM

Read it yesterday but really what is there to say that couldnt be said by those who really know you better?

But I want to chime in now with well wishes for you. Hope things work our better and it snowballs for you towards the good! I can only hope for 1/4 the support when I need to come through crisis. You must be doing something right!

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12-22-2009, 07:12 PM	#53
Raja Confirmed User Industry Role: Join Date: Jul 2004 Location: Santa Margarita Posts: 1,094	Hey Lori, From the bottom of our hearts Laurel and I wish you all the best. You are one of the most tenacious people we've ever met and we know you'll bounce back bigger and better. If you need anything please hit us up. Raja & Laurel __________________ Skype: hollywoodraja

12-22-2009, 07:28 PM	#55
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12-22-2009, 07:17 PM	#54
GTS Mark Vrume Mark Industry Role: Join Date: Jan 2001 Location: Toronto, Canada Posts: 20,912	Lori, sorry to hear you're having such a hard time. If there is anything I can do for you please give me a call. You're a remarkable person that has created a niche within the business! We all go thru hard times so keep your chin up! Mark

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12-22-2009, 09:50 PM	#61
Dan Confirmed User Industry Role: Join Date: Jan 2003 Location: Las Vegas, NV Posts: 1,087	Lori, Throughout the year you have been great and I am amazed at hearing of how much you were dealing with and juggling during this period. You have always busted your ass for CamZ and have been an asset to be working with. I am sure that as we move into the new year you are going to be on top of things as usual. You have a nack for the deal making and putting synergy to deals with companies. You bring energy and a spark to get deals done and have made a lot of people money in this business It is shamfull that those same people would turn around and not reward you for your hard work and or cheat you out of what is yours to the point that it puts you into the position you found yourself in. As one of the many companies you have helped over the years I too am there for you. If there is anything you need please do not hesitate to contact me. I can also offer the services of my bother Antonio to act as your collection guy He has a passport and love cold weather. As a former single parent with 100% custody and no family support I can empathize with you and your struggles and juggles. You love the deal and have the enthusiasm to make them happen. Hang in there I know you will land on your feet. See you soon. __________________ RazorEdgeTalent.com Magazine.xxx payoutmag.com

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12-22-2009, 10:23 PM	#66
Elli Reach for those stars! Industry Role: Join Date: Apr 2003 Location: Vancouver, BC Posts: 17,991	Lori, that post shows incredible strength. I'm sure it took a while to get it all out on paper, so to speak. Take your time to rebuild yourself and your life with your daughter. And remember, your health is one of the most important things you can have. hugs to you and your girl! __________________ Make More Money with Cams and Dating at FFN.com! email: [email protected]

12-22-2009, 10:33 PM	#67
spazlabz Confirmed User Industry Role: Join Date: Jul 2003 Location: Kentucky Posts: 6,548	Hi Lori, I have never had the opportunity to work with you in the past and from the quality of your post, the baring of your soul, your honesty and such a heartfelt apology to those who may have been affected I can clearly see it has been my loss. Your post, I read every word, touched me personally. At 42 I can only imagine such a tremendous impact all those things must have had on you. If there is a bright side you have found it by holding on to the fact that nothing this monumental can leave you unchanged and that from it you have found both strength and peace. It is almost insultingly cliche to say that there is nowhere to go but up but in this case there is truth in it. It is my sincerest hope that you have the power and the friends to overcome any hurdles you may face in putting the pieces back into place. It would be naive for me to think that I could offer you an arm to hold or a shoulder to lean on. I hope you to see as you move forward and rebuild and I also hope you keep us all updated on your progress. spaz

12-22-2009, 10:33 PM	#68
Va2k I’m still alive barley. Industry Role: Join Date: Oct 2001 Location: Va Posts: 10,060	Wow, I don't really know you ma'am but I have been where you are at! With me it was 98% my fault, the pain pills, the drinking.. I went from a father of two a paramedic firefighter owing a house car etc to living in a 8 by ten garage without running water or a bathroom. It was only me and my two boys at the time and the shit I was going through was the toughest time of my life.. I tried very very hard to do the right things and ended up screwing up really bad. I have done things that I am not proud of and things that will haunt me for the rest of my life. Hell I even wanted to die, didn't want to do nothing but feel sorry for myself. I then had some help from people I didn't know from strangers and I pulled myself out of the gutter and got cleaned up! I will tell you it was the hardest thing I have ever done.. My kids are my life my kids are the main reason I am alive my kids are everything to me. What I am trying to say is stay strong take help when given, go out ask for help take care of yourself so you can take care of your child. I have been clean and sober now for 5 year going on the 6th in June ;) It has been a real struggle to get where I am at. But well worth it. If I can do it then anyone really can! If I can be of help please let me know. Good luck and Have a Merry Christmas. __________________

12-22-2009, 10:39 PM	#69
The Adult Broker Confirmed User Join Date: Dec 2004 Location: The World Posts: 5,265	I just came back online since writing my post and I am overwhelmed with appreciation for all these kind words of support and encouragement. Thank you all so very much for writing back-your words of strength are already helping me feel stronger to face the next mountain for me to climb. And that is all the outstanding paperwork and accounting of months my assistant left behind. It will take me time I know, but I thank G-d I have gotten to the point of being able to take this first step forward. I feel like...I am slowly feeling life again. My sincere gratitude for all these posts and the encouragement - they truly mean the world to me and your words truly give me strength. I am thankful, Lori Z. __________________ Gamma Entertainment \| \| Camz \| Fleshbot\| TheMobileBroker AdultShowsOnly Lori Z., The Adult Broker \| theadultbroker.com \| [email protected] \| The Mobile Broker \| themobilebroker.com \| [email protected] \|-Adult's ONE stop MOBILE shop ICQ: 289567792

12-23-2009, 12:10 AM	#73
wdsguy Ryde or Die Industry Role: Join Date: Dec 2002 Location: California-Shanghai Posts: 19,568	all i can say is whoa

12-23-2009, 12:48 AM	#76
selena Confirmed User Join Date: Aug 2004 Location: On The Edge Posts: 7,992	I don't know you outside of seeing you post, but like you, I have a child that I have the total responsibility for. I also have the total joy, as do you in your daughter. Your post struck a chord with me, as I have been on the downside of up before. It truly is a scary place to be. But it can also be a very freeing one. You sound like a smart lady, so just keep your focus on your daughter and that which is real. To quote Alexander Graham Bell: When one door closes, another opens; but we often look so long and so regretfully upon the closed door that we do not see the one which has opened for us Don't let what is lost blind you to what is not, Miss Lori. Best of luck to you. __________________ ~ Doer of Things at MetArtMoney Where Flawless Beauty Meets Art ~The MetArt Network ~ selena.delgado9

12-23-2009, 12:51 AM	#77
Marie Confirmed User Industry Role: Join Date: May 2003 Location: Netherlands Posts: 3,024	Lori, I wish you all the best. As a single mother you already deserve all the respect in the world... a loving, hardworking person can only take so much. Don't be afraid to ask the people around you for help, you deserve it! I am sorry for your loss and I hope the love you received and will continue to receive will help you get through this. Best of strength and luck to you. __________________ Maria - maria at photorama.nl - Photorama International CONTENT LOADS of content in various niches - many photo/video combinations! CONTENT

12-23-2009, 12:56 AM	#80
fryer Confirmed User Join Date: Oct 2005 Location: California Posts: 395	You sound like a strong woman. Keep your head up! Hope all works out for you. __________________ fryer WebCamClub/TextNDate Product Manager icq: 576955851

12-23-2009, 01:07 AM	#82
Roald SecretFriends.com Industry Role: Join Date: May 2001 Location: IMC Headquarters Posts: 27,882	Lori, hang in there! Sincerely, Your Ducth Oven __________________ WE ARE BUYING PAY SITES! CONTACT ME ClubSweethearts \| ManUpFilms \| SinfulXXX \| HOT * AdultPrime * HOT Paying webmasters since 1996! Contact: r.riepen @ sansylgroup.com \| telegram: roaldr

12-23-2009, 01:27 AM	#83
PersianKitty Meow Media Inc. Industry Role: Join Date: Jul 2001 Location: In the valley of the sun, cactus, tacos, tequila, and nod Posts: 7,785	Lori, Glad to see you post and from one single mother to another.... sometimes it is so easy to get so caught up in the stresses of the day to day, hour to hour, minute to minute that we lose sight of the long term which boils down for me at least to family and friends. I have been reminded numerous times over the years that my boys pretty much always know when something unnerving is going on in my life and luckily for me, even when they were young (the age of your daughter) they knew they could ask questions and get a valid explanation. It also served to ground me in the fact that I was first here for myself and in turn for them and if things were getting to me they were obviously going to effect them. (pun intended) you'll come out like a cat ..on your feet... and the tigress I have seen in action in definitely there laying in wait to pounce on the opportunities. You'll be stronger, more knowledgeable, and utterly surprised at the fact that you can handle all of it. In the scope of things.. it's one year... it was a very sucky year... but one that you will take things from for the rest of your life. __________________ Wondering what webmaster programs PK uses? Check them out here!

12-23-2009, 01:51 AM	#84
Trixxxia Confirmed User Industry Role: Join Date: Aug 2004 Location: Montreal, Canada Posts: 5,600	Lori, you're an exceptional businesswoman, however, the dedicated mother that we've seen you be is what has always shined through first and foremost. Sometimes, life throws us curveballs with such force that we can neither predict nor prepare for what is to come. I know you will resurge with acquired knowledge, strength and a determination to change life as it is now, for yourself and your daughter. My positive thoughts are with you both & may the Holidays be bright for both of you! Patrizia

12-23-2009, 03:02 AM	#85
SexMyWife Confirmed User Join Date: Jun 2008 Posts: 151	As many have mentioned here already Lori, hang in there, as things WILL get better for you. Wishing you a wonderful 2010. __________________ Make Money With Mandy - 100% Real Amateur - Online Over 14 Years Affiliate Program: MandyCa$h - http://mandycash.com My Website: SexMyWife.com - http://sexmywife.com/tour1a.php

12-23-2009, 07:58 AM	#86
Jman Too lazy to set a custom title Industry Role: Join Date: Sep 2003 Location: Canuckstikan Posts: 22,719	You are a stand up women and should not have to apologies... Lori hit me up if you need anything. __________________ Wowify AI API Porn.AI Affiliates Porn AI email: [email protected] Teams: jean.francois.laverdiere TG: @jman1216

12-23-2009, 09:37 AM	#89
The Adult Broker Confirmed User Join Date: Dec 2004 Location: The World Posts: 5,265	wow, so many posts - to reply to each is an overwhelming thought so I just like to extend my gratitude to each of you for taking the time to write and for your support. (well area51 was one that stung but maybe they learned this community and industry is about more than they realized.) most appreciative, Lori __________________ Gamma Entertainment \| \| Camz \| Fleshbot\| TheMobileBroker AdultShowsOnly Lori Z., The Adult Broker \| theadultbroker.com \| [email protected] \| The Mobile Broker \| themobilebroker.com \| [email protected] \|-Adult's ONE stop MOBILE shop ICQ: 289567792

12-23-2009, 09:46 AM	#90
Wizzo 2011 GFY Hall of Fame! Industry Role: Join Date: Nov 2000 Location: Back in Texas! Posts: 15,224	Hang in there Lori and hope 2010 brings sunnier skies! __________________ Looking for Opportunity!

12-23-2009, 10:18 AM	#92
INDY500DRIVER Confirmed User Join Date: Apr 2008 Location: Always "Travelin Light" Posts: 622	All the best Lori... In time.. you will realize that you are a Superwoman and nothing will be able to stop you. Some people never get challeges liek that thrown at them .... the fact that you are on here says marvel things about your strength.. I remeber when Dwayne Somers first introduced us.. I was impressed and still am.. All the best from me and the folks here at GTBilll... Dom __________________ http://mega.co.nz

12-23-2009, 10:36 AM	#94
Candybear Confirmed User Join Date: Dec 2005 Location: in your dreams! Posts: 116	Good luck to you Lori and keep your head up girl! __________________ Silvercash!

12-23-2009, 11:14 AM	#97
mvee Confirmed User Industry Role: Join Date: Jan 2007 Location: sf Posts: 938	Character - the willingness to accept responsibility for one's own life - is the source from which self respect springs. Lori - Survive and heal we will see you soon.

12-23-2009, 11:23 AM	#98
Connor Confirmed User Join Date: Feb 2003 Posts: 1,294	Hey Lori - What a terrible year it has been for so many people... I know it's just a ceremonial change, but I hope the coming of 2010 will mean better things for you and your daughter. I am also a single parent of a 9 year old, and I totally get that responsibility; my only advice is to use it, use it to find the strength you need to get to wherever you need to be in life. My best wishes go with you. __________________ YNOT v5 IS NOW LIVE! \| SEEN YNOT MAIL YET?

12-23-2009, 12:20 PM	#99
leedsfan leedsfan Industry Role: Join Date: Jul 2002 Location: purgatory Posts: 2,564	Lori, 2010 will be a banner year for TAB and you personally. It takes great courage to admit tough times, and more to deal with them. Clearly you are handling both with your usual fire and determination. I look forward to doing business with you next year and know that you are reliable and hardworking as anyone in this industry when motivated by adversity. Keep your chin up and have some deserved rest over the holidays. Hit me up if you need anything. __________________ Advertise on Sex2ube.com New Tube Content Packages Save $10K +

12-23-2009, 12:35 PM	#100
Tom_PM Porn Meister Industry Role: Join Date: Feb 2005 Posts: 16,443	Read it yesterday but really what is there to say that couldnt be said by those who really know you better? But I want to chime in now with well wishes for you. Hope things work our better and it snowballs for you towards the good! I can only hope for 1/4 the support when I need to come through crisis. You must be doing something right! __________________ 43-922-863 Shut up and play your guitar.