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Deej · 07-19-2006, 07:30 PM

As I sit here and type, I cry. For I have lost a friend. Though he was So FUCKING selfish, I still cry. He was a friend I see every other day.

We laugh and drink and carry on in the best of times. Him, his wife and I. Though I was more close to her. She confided in me to talk and vent on a regular basis.

Recently she opened up to me about their problems and I seen issues. No flags to be flown but issues between them. She grew un happy to his growing numbness to consideration and compassion.

3 days ago shit hit the fan. She said she was unhappy and wanted some trial seperation. this wasnt an excuse to leave she really thoguht they needed time aprt....living, still see each other but let him get a feel of how it is living alone, the heart grows fonder shit right..

Yesterday he came over all day...hung with me and talked to me. about everything. Mostly about her but still everything, He was sane, lovesick rational, no crying. Nothing out of the ordinary.

He told me how he can't live without her. I stood there watering my lawn while he smoked on my porch saying man, she just needs some time, And I think you need it too. He told me no no no. if she leaves its over. I can't live without her.

I knew what he was getting at. I told him no, that is the most selfish thing to do, not only to her but your whole family, ME even! He wasnt like.Im gonna kill myself. but the was minor hinting ya know. so I reassured him, time will tell, They have been together 5 years. married for 7 months. Married the day after christmas. He is an accountant for A great company. Hes 9 months from graduating with a degree in accounting. He has worked hard for them both.

I called her last night and said bring your gun to me, they have one for a few months now since someone tryed to break into their house while she was home alone. I said bring it to me. This morning she called and said she was bringing it over. She went to get it, was gone. She called him at work. He said it was in his truck. She IMed me said she was going to get it from his truck...

10 minutes later I got a blood curdling screaming phone cqll from her....

He killed himself today.

She found him

Selfishness should be a one of the sins.... what correlates with selfishness...

MaddCaz · 07-19-2006, 07:32 PM

shit im sorry dude

galleryseek · 07-19-2006, 07:36 PM

the harsh realities of life.

betabomb · 07-19-2006, 07:37 PM

sorry can't relate. i have zero pity for that shit

Trixxxia · 07-19-2006, 07:39 PM

My condoleances to his wife, his family and his friends. Sometimes desperation feeds fear, anxiety and causes drastic decisions.

Spunky · 07-19-2006, 07:41 PM

Damn..my condolences..that's terrible

_Lush_ · 07-19-2006, 07:44 PM

Sorry to here about the loss of a close friend!

I wonder what would have become of the situation if you hadnt called her for the gun and she hadnt in turn called him at work asking for the gun?

tical · 07-19-2006, 08:00 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by lushy

Sorry to here about the loss of a close friend!

I wonder what would have become of the situation if you hadnt called her for the gun and she hadnt in turn called him at work asking for the gun?

yeah, weird... would he have done it?

reynold · 07-19-2006, 08:10 PM

Tragic... Sorry for that man.

Deej · 07-19-2006, 08:12 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by tical

yeah, weird... would he have done it?

We pondered that and believe that if not then he would have tonight when she left. She was going to go to her moms or a friends. Just like he told me yesterday, When she leaves its over.

Not sure though

dave_w · 07-19-2006, 08:46 PM

Sorry to hear that man

Mrs. Lenny2 · 07-19-2006, 08:51 PM

My sincere condolences to his wife and his family. They are the ones that truly suffer in this situation.

JD · 07-19-2006, 08:51 PM

fuck man...that's horrible.

Trixxxia · 07-19-2006, 08:51 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by Deej

We pondered that and believe that if not then he would have tonight when she left. She was going to go to her moms or a friends. Just like he told me yesterday, When she leaves its over.

Not sure though

Deej, from what I've heard/learned, no matter what you do - if they have their headset on doing it, they will try and continue trying until they succeed even if they make it out alive.

anne · 07-19-2006, 08:55 PM

Sorry to hear about that. Try to be there for the wife its gonna be really hard on her for a long time.

spacedog · 07-19-2006, 08:55 PM

holy fuck, that is so sad..

My condolences...

p1mpdogg · 07-19-2006, 08:56 PM

that sucks... is she hot? how old is she? kids?

maybe she needs 'modeling' work?

just trying to help

Cyndalie · 07-19-2006, 09:00 PM

so many suicides in my own life...I feel for you man. Be there for them, and yourself. It's all you can do.

madawgz · 07-19-2006, 09:02 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by p1mpdogg

that sucks... is she hot? how old is she? kids?

maybe she needs 'modeling' work?

just trying to help

wow, your an asshole....

sorry to head about that deej

E$_manager · 07-19-2006, 09:21 PM

that is an awful story!

E$_manager · 07-19-2006, 09:25 PM

some people are tired of living but are afraid to suicide because of religious fear or going to hell.

E$_manager · 07-19-2006, 09:26 PM

and some are not. My neighbour jumped from the 5th floor. That was her 6th attenpt.

Doctor Dre · 07-19-2006, 09:33 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by betabomb

sorry can't relate. i have zero pity for that shit

Your friend is killing himself dude... at least try to feel sorry for the guy who was friend with him.

betabomb · 07-19-2006, 09:35 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by Doctor Dre

Your friend is killing himself dude... at least try to feel sorry for the guy who was friend with him.

i do. so sorry, did that not come thru

MyNameIsNobody · 07-19-2006, 09:41 PM

damn, that's harsh.. sorry for your loss man..

khs · 07-19-2006, 09:46 PM

yikes, thats no good indeed, sorry for your loss

TurboAngel · 07-19-2006, 09:49 PM

Aww hun I'm so sorry to hear that.

CaptainHowdy · 07-19-2006, 09:50 PM

Sorry to hear that

...

E$_manager · 07-19-2006, 09:51 PM

betabomb, may be you never had such a story close to you.

p1mpdogg · 07-19-2006, 09:52 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by madawgz

wow, your an asshole....

sorry to head about that deej

damned if you damned if you dont.

you are nothing.... atleast i have a title.

georgeyw · 07-19-2006, 09:53 PM

wow - sorry for your loss. Couldn't agree more with you, that is the most selfish acts a person could perform. It's sad that he couldn't see any other way of dealing with the problem.

betabomb · 07-19-2006, 09:54 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by Cristie

betabomb, may be you never had such a story close to you.

the opposite is true. my father put a gun in his mouth since you asked.

Belinda · 07-19-2006, 10:11 PM

That is sad. sorry to hear that. U can come visit if you need a vacation.

E$_manager · 07-19-2006, 10:19 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by betabomb

the opposite is true. my father put a gun in his mouth since you asked.

Sorry, i guess that mede you tough.

Niko Bimini · 07-19-2006, 10:25 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by Deej

As I sit here and type, I cry. For I have lost a friend. Though he was So FUCKING selfish, I still cry. He was a friend I see every other day.

We laugh and drink and carry on in the best of times. Him, his wife and I. Though I was more close to her. She confided in me to talk and vent on a regular basis.

Recently she opened up to me about their problems and I seen issues. No flags to be flown but issues between them. She grew un happy to his growing numbness to consideration and compassion.

3 days ago shit hit the fan. She said she was unhappy and wanted some trial seperation. this wasnt an excuse to leave she really thoguht they needed time aprt....living, still see each other but let him get a feel of how it is living alone, the heart grows fonder shit right..

Yesterday he came over all day...hung with me and talked to me. about everything. Mostly about her but still everything, He was sane, lovesick rational, no crying. Nothing out of the ordinary.

He told me how he can't live without her. I stood there watering my lawn while he smoked on my porch saying man, she just needs some time, And I think you need it too. He told me no no no. if she leaves its over. I can't live without her.

I knew what he was getting at. I told him no, that is the most selfish thing to do, not only to her but your whole family, ME even! He wasnt like.Im gonna kill myself. but the was minor hinting ya know. so I reassured him, time will tell, They have been together 5 years. married for 7 months. Married the day after christmas. He is an accountant for A great company. Hes 9 months from graduating with a degree in accounting. He has worked hard for them both.

I called her last night and said bring your gun to me, they have one for a few months now since someone tryed to break into their house while she was home alone. I said bring it to me. This morning she called and said she was bringing it over. She went to get it, was gone. She called him at work. He said it was in his truck. She IMed me said she was going to get it from his truck...

10 minutes later I got a blood curdling screaming phone cqll from her....

He killed himself today.

She found him

Selfishness should be a one of the sins.... what correlates with selfishness...

Deej your a good man and a good friend for doing what needs to be done.

Take as much time as you need, and let me know if there is anything I can do to help.

Ice · 07-19-2006, 10:26 PM

Sorry to hear

Syl · 07-19-2006, 10:30 PM

Deej all I can say is I am truly sorry for your loss of your friend. My thoughts are with you.

LiveDose · 07-19-2006, 10:33 PM

Wow, man that is a sad story. You tried to do all things a good friend would do.

RIP

IamShaider · 07-19-2006, 10:41 PM

awwww... sorry for your loss

E$_manager · 07-19-2006, 10:44 PM

i am sorry, too. Hold on, you will live it through.

Kimo · 07-19-2006, 10:51 PM

i really dont like it when people kill themselves, it creeps me out

ProducerCashDave · 07-19-2006, 10:53 PM

Wow, sorry that happen

gooddomains · 07-19-2006, 10:55 PM

a sad story to read

MrIzzz · 07-19-2006, 10:59 PM

my heart goes out to you bro, life catches up to some people sometimes

Deej · 07-20-2006, 12:34 AM

Thank you to all.... and although some may see Pimpdoggs questions harsh, They might help in the future when she bucks up, It is something she wanted to try ....I dont know how her vision of life will be now

Vitasoy · 07-20-2006, 12:40 AM

So sorry to hear that

mikie mike · 07-20-2006, 10:53 PM

sorry to hear Deej

if you need anything at all...just ask
or
come on up to Portland for a few days...if you need

kristin · 07-21-2006, 12:00 PM

I have never dealt with suicide real well knowing three people that have taken their own life.

My deepest sympathy in your loss of a friend.

majorbitch · 07-21-2006, 03:47 PM

That's sad =\ .. sorry to her about that

DaddyHalbucks · 07-21-2006, 03:50 PM

Wow, that's awful. Sorry to hear that.

07-19-2006, 07:30 PM	#1
Deej I make pixels work Industry Role: Join Date: Jun 2005 Location: I live here... Posts: 24,386	Today I weep, for I have lost a friend As I sit here and type, I cry. For I have lost a friend. Though he was So FUCKING selfish, I still cry. He was a friend I see every other day. We laugh and drink and carry on in the best of times. Him, his wife and I. Though I was more close to her. She confided in me to talk and vent on a regular basis. Recently she opened up to me about their problems and I seen issues. No flags to be flown but issues between them. She grew un happy to his growing numbness to consideration and compassion. 3 days ago shit hit the fan. She said she was unhappy and wanted some trial seperation. this wasnt an excuse to leave she really thoguht they needed time aprt....living, still see each other but let him get a feel of how it is living alone, the heart grows fonder shit right.. Yesterday he came over all day...hung with me and talked to me. about everything. Mostly about her but still everything, He was sane, lovesick rational, no crying. Nothing out of the ordinary. He told me how he can't live without her. I stood there watering my lawn while he smoked on my porch saying man, she just needs some time, And I think you need it too. He told me no no no. if she leaves its over. I can't live without her. I knew what he was getting at. I told him no, that is the most selfish thing to do, not only to her but your whole family, ME even! He wasnt like.Im gonna kill myself. but the was minor hinting ya know. so I reassured him, time will tell, They have been together 5 years. married for 7 months. Married the day after christmas. He is an accountant for A great company. Hes 9 months from graduating with a degree in accounting. He has worked hard for them both. I called her last night and said bring your gun to me, they have one for a few months now since someone tryed to break into their house while she was home alone. I said bring it to me. This morning she called and said she was bringing it over. She went to get it, was gone. She called him at work. He said it was in his truck. She IMed me said she was going to get it from his truck... 10 minutes later I got a blood curdling screaming phone cqll from her.... He killed himself today. She found him Selfishness should be a one of the sins.... what correlates with selfishness... __________________ Deej's Designs n' What Not Hit me up for Design, CSS & Photo Retouching Icq#30096880

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07-20-2006, 12:34 AM	#45
Deej I make pixels work Industry Role: Join Date: Jun 2005 Location: I live here... Posts: 24,386	Thank you to all.... and although some may see Pimpdoggs questions harsh, They might help in the future when she bucks up, It is something she wanted to try ....I dont know how her vision of life will be now __________________ Deej's Designs n' What Not Hit me up for Design, CSS & Photo Retouching Icq#30096880