Today I weep, for I have lost a friend
As I sit here and type, I cry. For I have lost a friend. Though he was So FUCKING selfish, I still cry. He was a friend I see every other day.
We laugh and drink and carry on in the best of times. Him, his wife and I. Though I was more close to her. She confided in me to talk and vent on a regular basis.
Recently she opened up to me about their problems and I seen issues. No flags to be flown but issues between them. She grew un happy to his growing numbness to consideration and compassion.
3 days ago shit hit the fan. She said she was unhappy and wanted some trial seperation. this wasnt an excuse to leave she really thoguht they needed time aprt....living, still see each other but let him get a feel of how it is living alone, the heart grows fonder shit right..
Yesterday he came over all day...hung with me and talked to me. about everything. Mostly about her but still everything, He was sane, lovesick rational, no crying. Nothing out of the ordinary.
He told me how he can't live without her. I stood there watering my lawn while he smoked on my porch saying man, she just needs some time, And I think you need it too. He told me no no no. if she leaves its over. I can't live without her.
I knew what he was getting at. I told him no, that is the most selfish thing to do, not only to her but your whole family, ME even! He wasnt like.Im gonna kill myself. but the was minor hinting ya know. so I reassured him, time will tell, They have been together 5 years. married for 7 months. Married the day after christmas. He is an accountant for A great company. Hes 9 months from graduating with a degree in accounting. He has worked hard for them both.
I called her last night and said bring your gun to me, they have one for a few months now since someone tryed to break into their house while she was home alone. I said bring it to me. This morning she called and said she was bringing it over. She went to get it, was gone. She called him at work. He said it was in his truck. She IMed me said she was going to get it from his truck...
10 minutes later I got a blood curdling screaming phone cqll from her....
He killed himself today.
She found him
Selfishness should be a one of the sins.... what correlates with selfishness...
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