I'm so scared & I need help...
 

I don't know what to do...
I am so confused & lost right now.I'm losing my mind & I'm feeling sick to my stomach.. it's making me puke.. all this fucking stress.. I'm losing it.. & I don't want to lose what's the most important to me the most.. My wife & children... I love my daughters & my wife more than anything in this world, more than life itself, & without them, my life is meaningless & pointless.. I am so fucking screwed, & hurting right now.. I know most of you don't give a damn, but I'm hurting & freaking out right now, & I'm alone & have no one to talk to & I need to vent before I snap....

I don't even know where to begin??? I need help so bad & I don't know where to go or what to do..

As some of you know, I had a fire last year.. April 27th, 2001.. in salem, massachusetts..from that point til oct24th I was homeless with my wife & children living in hotels & I was working at a taxi company & an auto salvage yard. anyway... My family & I couldnt find a home anywhere for that 6 months.. In late october, we relocated to Maine because the hotels were cheaper & our money & savings has run out.. so, here we were in this hotel in maine & I picked up a paper & called some apartment ads, & ended up moving into where I live now.. It's a nice house on the beach, but it's in the middle of nowhere & there's no jobs anywhere local.. my original plan was to get a reliable job, but on christmas eve my family & I went to visit my mom in cape cod, massachusetts.. anyway, while coming home from cape cod, I had an accident & the cars been sitting in this repair shop ever since & the bastard middle eastern mechanic says he cant find the parts because the car is 36 years old.... so... as a result of that, I was no longer able to drive to peabody, mass from here in wells maine to go to work & drive my taxi, nor was I able to find another job due to the lack of transportation.. so, here I was on the web & I made webmastering my full time job, however, without the capital for initial startup, to invest in hosting, domain, content, etc.. I had a rocky start & a bumpy ride along.. I made some money, but not enough to make any improvements in my life.. basically enough to feed & care for my family.. food, diapers, what little I could on the bills, etc.. basically just getting by, but barely & absolutely no extra for savings ... anyway.. here I am now.. I live in wells beach, maine.. it's a beach resort, & it's in the middle of nowhere... it's a seasonal rental, & this area is a tourist town, & now spring is here & my tenancy has come to an end & I have to get out & move.. I can't stay here.. my term has ended & the rent goes up to $1500 a week for the summer.. so, with knowing that we have nowhere to go, no car, & no money.. things have been really stressful around here,, my wife's been in a panic worrying about the kids & I been scared shitless because I want to protect my family & provide for them, so.. last couple of weeks I've been online trying to make money..I was online pretty much all day & night in a panic trying to make some $$ & get out of this mess,, but,, this biz is tough & many things didnt go as planned & things failed, etc, etc.... well... this past friday, the 5th, was my daughters 3rd birthday..my mother came over to pick up my wife & daughters to give them a ride over to my wifes parents house.. now.. my mother is a meddlesome bitch.. anyway.. here is is wednesday now, & out of nowhere, for some reason unbeknownst to me, I got a restraining order on me from my mother.. I think my mother is being a meddlesome & manipulative bitch trying to keep my youngest daughter.. (She's had her at her house since my car broke down).. she's always has some excuse why she couldnt bring my daughter home..blah..blah,,etc.. anyway.. I got this peice of paper today from the cops.. & it says to stay away from my mother, & her house.. but that's it.. I havent seen my wife or kids since saturday morning when they left with my mother, so, I have no idea what's going on.. but.. I know my kids are safe & they have a roof over their head.. but.. my family is everything to me.. I love them so much & I am hurting right now..cuz I don't know what's happening.. my mother is a controlling & manipulative bitch & I fear that she has put ideas into my wife's head for them to stay with her.. Now.. my wife, because of her fear of being homeless again with the kids, & because my mother sometimes is very threatening, my wife probably is going along with whatever bullshit my mother is telling her, or forcing her to do, ....... this peice of paper the cops brought over today says to not call my moms house, or to go over there.. but nowhere does it mention anything about my wife or kids.... I would call my wifes parents, but they got an unlisted number, & I cant go over there because they're in salem, mass, & I'm here in maine about 100 or so miles away with no car....

well.. in less than 10 days, I will be homeless... I have no where to go.. I have no one to help me, no transportation, & no where to put our stuff & belongings..& I only have $325 dollars saved up..... I am so scared shitless.. I do not want to lose my family.. they mean everything to me,,, I need to get a home for us..

At least my kids & wife will have a roof over their heads at my mothers house.. but I don't know why my moms being a cunt & getting a restraining order, & why she wont help us.. ...

I need to find a home so I can get my wife & kids to come home...
We've already been through so much shit together since last year, & I am very stressed & feeling sick over all of this.....
we wanted to move back to north shore massachusetts, but my mother was always trying to convince us to move to the cape near her, & I think she's pissed off because we have no where to go.. & I told her I didnt want to live in the cape, cuz there's no jobs there either...... I think she's pissed off that we're gonna be homeless again.. & rightfully so, but things are tough...

I don't know if I have the mental strength to deal with all of this....

I don't want to lose my babies & I don't know what's happening... all I know is I need to find a place to live so I can get all this sorted out.. and another thing.. I owe $500 to court for a fine & it's due before may 9th or I can go to jail...

I am just so fucking overwhelmed with all of this shit that's going on..,I , my stomach's hurting.. I can't stop choking & coughing.. I ache inside & am crying, losing my mind.. I am at a loss of what to do.. I really need help.. what few friends I have/had, I am no longer in contact with because after the fire last year, things were so displaced, & then because I'm here in maine, stranded with no phone, I lost contact with everyone......


I just want my family, & I don't want to be homeless again.. it was too much pain & difficulty the first time...

I am selling my computer... best offer over $800.
dell optiplex gx100 128mb ram.. (I think it's a 30gig harddrive (how do I find out how many gigs the harddrive is??)
windows 98se
56k modem
toshiba docsis cable modem pcx1100
dell e550mm color monitor
mouse & keyboard
comes with licensed full versions of
dreamweaver4
photoshop6
fireworks4
swish2.0
flash5
ws_ftp pro
microsoft word 2000 & whatever other stuff ...
all the cds & manuals that came with it when bought new in september 2000


I am also selling dvd player I got from gfy.. (I know it was a gift, & I appreciate it & enjoyed watching dvds, but I'm in a jam..)
best reasonable offer...

I am also selling all my domains.....
http://www.69khz.com
http://xxx-revenue.com
http://www.bluehentai.com


I also have quite a few subdomain redirects that get SE traffic, & one of those domains is generally always top 5 in keyword for netscape & aol search.. I am selling all my subdomain traffic.. I can't legally sell the subdomain itself, because I do not own it, but I can point them to your url.. there's quite a few of them..

I need to sell fast because I have less than 10days left.. might even be less than that.. all I know is the owners gonna come & boot my ass, because we were supposed to be gone already, last week.. & also, I believe my cable is due for a disconnect, so need to sell before that happens.. I need $$ to put our stuff in storage, rent transportation, & I need to find a home for my family..
I have no assets or anything else of real value.. I am so strung out over everything.. cant even think straight.. this hurts..


I don't want to lose my family.. they are everything to me.. I just don't know what to do.. I need help, & I need it bad, & I am hurting & confused... My family is more important to me, & I need to get out of this business & do what's the best for my little girls..

I know many of you don't like me, & I really don't care.. I know there'll be lot's of smartass comments & replies, but I don't care.. I am desperate.....

[email protected]
icq 112771690

damn that's long... anyone actually gonna read it?

thats not funny thats called despair.

what kind of car you have? whats it need? i have some connections. i may be able to at least get you to work.

66 buick lesabre.. I need a rear end.. busted the axle & bearings, so need a whole rear end..

how old are your daughters?

ok ok nevermind.
In case this is real (which is doubtful)
Id feel real bad saying this shit , SO i edited my post.

Boneprone has a heart.

okay, i'm off to work now

my brother works at a big local junkyard. i'll talk to him tonight

i'll get you one someway and bring it up there if i have to!

ROTFLMAO! :1orglaugh

Yes, I actually read the whole thing...

boneprone.. they're only babies.. my youngest turned 1 in january & my other turned 3 this past friday

Is this thread serious or not?

If it is, you shouldn't be selling off your websites. You need to work on a way to get a steady income. Why would you sell off websites that could put you on the road to being financially stable? Are you making no money on these sites? Once you sell them off, then what? Start back at zero? It doesn't make sense unless you are making nothing with them or unless you have other sites that you are making more on.

I really haven't followed all of the "Spacedog Soap Opera" threads here, but if what you wrote is honest, then I'm sorry about the problems you are having and I hope you find a solution.

dude, seriously, swallow your pride and call the red-cross, they may be able to help w/ housing etc, if they cant, ask them to refer you to someone who can.
and for the love of God, dont sell your business. when i was starting out, (i think i was 18-19)i had gotten in a jam and sold my biz, equip, acct's everything, worse thing i ever did. took two yrs to get enough $ together to get back in the game

good luck:thumbsup

SD. i have been in ur condition before and i know how much stress comes with that. I myself have been in a bit of a bind the last 3 months but I'm better than i was and id like to help.
Maybe the webmasters here can take up a lil paypal donation like we did with hungryman. If anyone can donate 1-20 bux it would really help out...

I myself dont know how to setup a donations thing but If you have a paypal setup a donations like and post it here and other places.

Although most of you dont like spacedog can we all throw in a lil bit to help him out.


bunky

i was gonna laugh, but thats really not funny :( some scary shit :(

damn that really sucks man, to get the info on your hd right click it and click properties. tell us some more info on your domains, traffic, etc. and how much for the dvd player?

i've been there.

i'll help you out as much as i can

i got shit of my own to deal with, but can't see a fellow human being go through that shit.

shit bro, things seriously dont sound good.
Maybe you should try and make your $$ online?


I thought you already did?
You seem persistant enough to beable to push a product.
Try getting getting hooked up with some company doing sales rep shit for em maybe?

Or do what lots of people do, make some gallereis and submit em.
You sould be aboe to make 3k EASY jsut my doing a half ass job making gallereis.

space - give me a shout - we'll work with you like we where talking before

also - i would say talk with the redcross - government people - for assistance - know what your going through - been in the deep valley before - take a sleep and you'll feel better when you get up and then you can focus as well

Spacedog do you have a paypal account?

hey bone - is he a bone member? maybe you could intro him to your bone family :thumbsup

Frankly I wouldn't believe anything this little shithead says. He's a congenital liar. I have heard so many stories from him. Don't feel sorry for this fucker. Don't give him a squirt of piss. If he's too fucking dumb to keep a real job and pay his bills, I have no sympathy for him. Sometimes people are dealt bad cards in the game of life but this twink IS a bad card.

Spacedog, if you really are getting kicked out on the street, that's great. Maybe it will square your stupid ass away. If I were married with a couple of kids and I were in a position where I could lose my home, I would be working 3 fucking jobs and robbing 7-11s in my spare time. ANYTHING but crying for sympathy on GFY. NOW GO THE FUCK TO WORK, BOY!

I agree!

Spacedog,

Open up a paypal donation fund and post the link to it here.

Try selling the PC on e-bay, or go to a Pawn shop and sell it.

Then walk down to McDonalds, BK, Sears, wherever, Suck it up, and get a job. Go to your job every day knowing that, no matter what shit you have to deal with at work, your family will have a place to live and food to eat. Derive satisfaction from that.

Call HUD and find a place to live that you can afford.

By the sounds of it your family needs you to be the provider, and you need to come through for them as a husband and a father. Step up to the plate. It fucking sucks, but just do it.

Ohh.. and get the hell out of this business. It will suck your time, and money of which you need both to sustain your family. Porn can wait another day.


- Smegma

THIS is just a scam thread. Its OBVIOUS.. spacedog has seen that hungryman has $2000 of computer equipment from making a PLEA on gfy. spacedog Just wants that money, clearly. Why don't U sell ur classic cars or 150000 books from your shelves? liar.

HAHAH.. i remember when spacedog made cp accusations?? Don't forget that idinternet can still take legal actions about that. I know she can be a nasty cunt and likes to kick people when theyre down, and it could explain why shes been so quiet about it all and didnt say anything.. so that her defence is not affected. and it can take up to 4 months to serve legal docs. If u have no money to pay compensation to her then ur going to jail for a good time and thats a fact. How long has it been now. 4 months yet?? And has you received any legal things in the post? U won't be safe from that for at least 4 months i think. i think i remember something mentoined about a law firm called Ruck Legal or something.. id is legal action still in the works???????

he wrote too much for it to be a scam... Spacedog, I will buy your Dvd player and most likely pay for postage as well :) hell I can always use it as a gift for someone... I will icq you later

Dude that is bad shit man.
It's all about the damn money all the time.

I could use someone to build and submit galleries soon but not within 10 days I'm affraid.
Don't sell your shit man..... that way you won't be able to make any money online.

I'm a newbie and don't know spacedog too well.

I have gotten replys from him but they were all shitty and unhelpful just like this one.

Finally someone with some sense of reason.

Why would he make that up?

The United States does not have debtors prison. They can attach his wages for a civil judgement, but there is no jail time involved. Look at OJ, he owes the Goldman family like a billion dollars still.

1 hour of writing for $2000 would u do that?

i would!! hahah he will need to pay compensation yet so I guess He needs the money. LOLOLOL!!

I thought spacedog dialer was making big bucks???

He's a lazy, lying little fuck. You obviously don't know this dickweed.

What will happen if He has no wages and No assets?? he will be a bitch to the USA goverment i think hehe :mad:
he had better PRAY that he doesnt have to pay a lot!!

Space - Sell all of your shit and get a job.

Do the right thing for your kids.

When this wins longest thread, Spacedog, i will give you 100 for the palm pilot :thumbsup

i dont know spacedog personaly, but this seems to be a real thing for him, i've been there an it sounds uncomfortably familiar. if someone knows how to do what bunky suggested, i'd be willing to donate.
hey, make it interesting, sd, for everyone who donates, give'em one recip on your site, or sell links. i'm sure we all could pony up a few bucks for a link

Spacedog, I am at 100 posts while replying to your thread.....and I would like to dedicate it to you...
I feel sorry for you.....and I guess you should find a way to keep your online biz......it could be helpful in the future.
I wish you the best of luck
Also, if there is fund raising coming up to help you, I will sure donate you a little something to help.
But remember, if you happen to stay in the adult bizz, be honest and don't talk bullshit on people....you can see that because of that a few people are skeptical about what is happening to you.....I am a bit myself.

Best of luck dude! And never let go.....things will get better one day!

LOL

This is the funniest shit i have ever read:1orglaugh :1orglaugh

I will pay 1000 bucks + airfare and fly Spacedog to wherever Kman Lives for the broadcast rights! :) watching Kman get malled is worth every penny :thumbsup