If you know me, or are currently dealing with me - please read this [serious thread]
 

I feel like i owe a few people an explanation to my behaviour lately... I've caught myself giving a few people on icq a bunch of 1 word replies cause i haven't really been talkative etc... and also kinda tripped out on a few people and got upset over nothing

1.) I'm no longer with epiccash... so if you have anything you need help with or anything, please forward it to Jim or Jeff or any of those other guys, and they will be happy to help... There's no drama, and it's no ones business other then me and epiccash's...I still love the crew over at epiccash, and wish them the very best... They have a lot of great things in store for '06... I don't want this to turn into one of those "rep x leaves company x" threads... i just figured i'd throw it into this thread as a heads up, so people know not to contact me about epic stuff... please also don't ask me why i'm no longer with epic... but be sure there is no drama involved.

2.) the reason i've been edgy, is because my relationship with my gf of 4.5 years ended a little over a week ago... I'm 19 so i've never had to deal with anything like this before.. but i'll just say it has been a complete mindfuck and i need some time to gather myself and figure out what i'm going to do...

also i'd like to offer some of you other people advice on that subject

4.5 years ago, i had an amazing social life... was out almost every day, had a beautiful girlfriend... I'm the kind of guy that doesn't let a girl pay for anything when shes with me, regardless of my financial situation... So i decided to start my own business (my program)... everything i have done to this date, was to secure a good future for me and my gf so that she would never have to work etc... so i kinda became obsessed with working on my program.. I slowly began to push all my friends out of my life, cause i had the mindset that fun can come later... and that i need to get my hustle on now...

Big mistake. i got to the point where i was working till 5am everyday, then waking up really late and starting to work again... see my gf for a few hours, and then get back to work... a vicious cycle. It got to the point where i didn't really even feel like going out places with my GF , cause i would rather work cause i came kind of obsessed with it...

so even though i was doing this shit all with the motivation of securing a future with my gf, i was pushing her more and more out of my life... to the point of actually not being part of my life anymore.

So now i've somewhat had a revelation, and thought i'd share it with you guys... don't get too caught up in your work... in this past week and a bit, i've started seeing my old friends again and started going out every day and remember what living was actually like...

so where do i go from here?

1.) Even though it would be a stupid financial move for me right now... i'm going to buy this.... i need it for my mental health.. need to treat myself to something right now. I've worked too fucking long and don't really have shit to show for it... so i'm going to get this and ride the fucking hell out of it, cause i'm that type of person who just loves driving

http://www.adultforum.ca/bike.jpg

2.) continuing to work out every day, setting a proper work schedule - 10am-6pm and then go out with friends.. I was lucky that my friends were all understanding about why i basically became a hermit for so long... Couldn't tell you how something as simple as a BBQ at my friends place with 6-8 of my good friends helped me so much...also spending time with some of my girl - friends is helping a lot (cause i don't feel like as big of a bitch whining to them, haha)

3.) i should follow my own advice. I tell people my age... you're too young to be in a relationship... you need to be out there having fun etc etc, and there i was in a relationship for 4.5 years

4.) i am launching 10 more paysites for www.sexfeeder.com as soon as they go through visa approval (submitting them on monday) , so please check it out and see if it's anything you wanna give a shot


there is nothing more i want then to be successful..I have the hunger and i know it won't even go away... so hopefully 2006 is a great year for me and everybody else.. i wish you all the best

Why am i posting such personal shit here? after being on this forum for so long... and having met so many great people... i honestly do consider a lot of you friends.

Special thanks to chio for offering me some help with some of my sites in the future - this guy isn't just a pirate - hes one of the most generous people i've met to date

and another special thanks to joker for listening to my bitching and giving me advice on how to deal with my breakup.. this guy literally spent many many hours telling me what i should expect, and how to deal with it.. and for that i'm grateful :thumbsup



well..... that was a lot longer then i thought it was gonna be..

Poof The Parrot says hi

Your 19, you don't need a girlfriend.

Fucking pathetic LOL

i knew some shit like this would come up

i have nothing to hide, laugh if you want.

Nice. You shared and it wasn't too gay.

Good luck with everything man. I've had the same problem and thank God I straightened my ass out before it got too far. Sucks to hear about losing a girl you've been with that long. Hope you have fun with your new bike - Isn't it a little brisk to be riding in february in canada?

Girlfriend? I thought you were gay:)

Nice bike...and 10 paysites, wow. Good work.

Sorry, I disagree. I think you should work and strive for success, even if you have to distant yourself from people. Hard work is almost always required in order to succeed. Work all day if you have to. If others conflict with your lifestyle, so be it. It is their problem. If they are true friends, they will acknowledge what you are doing and respect it.

dude I got nothing to laugh at you about, or care too actually.

Man up dude and stop thinking GFY actually cares about your life,
at first i thought you were just in character, but now I see you are just another lost kid trying to find his way .

good luck to you man.

But to let GFY know is just pathetic man .
go out and ask a bartender or smething .... ooops I forgot you cant even get in a bar . But yet you mouth off to many here and tell them how stupid they are . and I bet half or more than half of them you have no idea if they were in character or what they do . you just jumped in and started slinging your professing to know all in an attempt to be cool.

This is what makes you look foolish.

But like I said good luck dude, just learn from mistakes, that is all any of can do, lord knows I have made many in my 40 yrs and am glad I was able to at least learn from many of them .

Way to much to read.

I saw the bit about the GF though (I assume its a girl :) ) - sorry to hear that - buy the bike, retail therapy is the best.

good luck to you in this tough time, SOS. It's tough to become an adult, and you've had the stress of launching a biz at the same time. Take some time and reflect, and you'll be stronger and wiser for the experience.

also if you buy the bike make sure you use it in a prop for a photoshoot so you can write it off:)

good luck man! nice bike too, might as well treat yourself

no offense sonofsam, but I kind of agree with Joesho

it is one thing to give a little apology, but to dump everything out there on the table like that on GFY is kind of bizarre...the people that really matter can be emailed or icq'ed about this, there is no reason to post it here

I also disagree about pushing people away while striving for success, as much as I love a social life, I don't have time for it now....if you want to take a break or a weekend off here and there and visit that old life, that is cool, but when you are a workoholic by nature it is silly to try and be anything different.

dont get the bike , you are young and will do stupid shit on it

Damn, sorry to hear about it Sonofsam.

Nice bike btw ;)

Oh fuck off - did you just find out you hit 30 or something?

Let the young have thier youth, it wont last long.

why is it so wrong to post it here?

it's been a huge life lesson to me, and i thought i'd share it...

some of you are so worried about carrying on an image about how it's geeky to talk about your personal shit on the net... face it, we all spend a great deal of our time on the computer, and not all of it is for business only.

i have plenty of friends in real life, and it's not like i have a hard time getting pussy... but because i post my personal shit and life experience on the forums, i'm immediately classified as pathetic? okay i guess...

I don't think you are pathetic in the least....I think it takes balls to come on here and admit some of the shit you did, I just find it a little wierd

If I was in your shoes, I would have made phone calls and sent emails, you just chose to post on GFY

Yo fuck dem cats Son. You wear your heart on your sleeve and you put it out there. But since you started at 14-15 with your girl and you're only 19, believe you ME you have LOTS of time to go...:thumbsup

No kidding . . . especially not one for the last 4.5 years. What a waste.

Translation: you will kill yourself

you know what, fuck it....after this thread I am never doing business with you again, you pansy!






j/k...LOL

It actually isn't too bad, i have 3 other good guy friends who all ended 3+ year relationships in the last month... so together we're hitting the city trying to find rebound sluts :1orglaugh

but i've found that talking about the shit helps a lot, and it is a tough lesson to swallow... so i thought i'd share it.. cause i know for a fact some people are in the same spot i was, and will most likely have to go through the same thing...

no i won't.. i'm going to wait at least till i have 30 mins riding time on the bike before i try and do a wheelie :2 cents:


:1orglaugh

Don't trip yo, thats 3 days in the life of a rockstar playa. :)

keep on keepin on man!

thats the only way to look at anything. ever.

ayone who wants to keep you down is the enemy! son of sam. what?

man, live for yourself. one of the few i agree with in here is jace, and thats cuz he knows too.

make me another cartoon :)





do it yo!

Interesting read,and a valid point..walk away every now and then to clear your mindset.

That's a solid plan -- :thumbsup


But be careful if you and your 3 newly-single male friends should find yourselves in a confined space at 3AM, after no success chasing the "pussy".

You only have to be 18 to get into the bars up here in igloo land.

SOS: The vast majority of very successful people got that way by working 12+ hours a day. Work hard during the week and take the time off on Sunday or something. I have a hard time doing that myself, but I am getting better. Keep in mind that the only one responsible for the future and standard of living for yourself and kids (down the road) etc. is you, not your friends. As much as they're your friends and maybe they have your back at times, but when push comes to shove, it's all on you and no one else gives a shit. You're young, full of engergy, have nothing to tie you down etc, now is the time. It's a lot harder when you get older and have a lot more responsibilities.

Buy the bike. Fuck lots of chicks. When you get old, you don't get to anymore. Go out with your friends and get drunk/stoned whatever you do. Life is too short and you're still young so go out and enjoy it.

Nothing wrong with it but it wont be taken well by most. Sounds like you write when things go to shit. As someone who has posted messages like this, hard to learn that people just don't care. Your doing this also indicates some deeper issues to me. You don't need a shrink but some therapy might be a great idea. I don't mean this is a negative way at all. Psychology is a bit of a hobby for me. I'm no expert but I do know a lot about the subject for a layman. I don't know a single person that couldn't benefit by some therapy, we all have destructive things going on with us. We can't see them ourselves.

Nothing at all wrong with your post, it's the kind of thing we all should be able to talk about but, well, people just don't care. Their gonna trash you and probably me too. I tough, no longer give a fuck. :)

:1orglaugh :1orglaugh

best of luck to you.

i don't really give a fuck... i wear my heart on my sleeve.. if people think im "pathetic" for it... then they arn't the type of people i care about anyways...

and therapy? nah... this is just my long term relationship breakup... it will take some time to get over shit, but i'll come out 10x stronger afterwards and i'm looking forward to that

i just wish i was able to listen to my own advice before i got too attached to her... i agree with you guys... nobody my age should be tied down in a relationship like that... should live a fun life while i still have my youth... and that's where the bike comes in :winkwink:

Sos.. I know where your coming from. Working at home really does have it's disavantages, like not realizing your abonding your social life and not feeling like going out. But I'm glad you're realizing this before it's too late and facing this problem. I wish you all the best.

i'm with juicy , be carefull on the bike.. sounds like an invitation for an accident.

Took a lot of courage to post that stuff here. Good luck SOS! :thumbsup

What is old, and why do you ever have to stop?

Didn't you know from day 1 that you would break up with her? I don't think most people meet their spouses until they are a little older. The odds of you not parting ways after highschool alone were poor. Just my :2 cents:

Working from home? You mean being a script on a server? Do bots have a social life?



j/k :1orglaugh :upsidedow

http://www.suabb.com/images/suabb/no_whiners.jpg

[SARCASM]

This reminds me of one of Battus/Franck's threads. It was funny because he said someone always announces, "I'm a rep for so and so company now!", and then there are 3 pages of "congrats". Then 3 - 6 months later, that same person announces, "I am now leaving so and so company". Lol.

Anyways, sorry to hear about the breakup with your girlfriend.

Good luck on the launch of those new paysites.

Hey Sos We don't really know each other but been following ya progress and see ya hard working, don't let the haters get ya down or anything dude! You never know you may of helped someone that has or is going through what your going through now! Damn I wish I was 19 again, I sure the hell would of taken my car and ran over my ex wife a few times instead of stopping the car and marrying her dumb ass!!

But then again I wouldn't have custody of my two boys if I did that lol :Oh crap

Stay strong go out a few times a month, stick with your work and ya never know in a few years ya may never need to work again *shrugs* Or you could be me in 14 years and still working 12 to 18 hours a day 7 days a week lol

Good luck dude
Tom

This is an internet biz... I've never talked to 90% of my biz on the phone.

Kick ass bike. If you ever come through Oklahoma hit me up, I'll buy ya a beer. ;)

which is why I also said EMAIL

Hey SOS good post man. You are actually way ahead of your time for your age and listening to you and your insight I will say that if you follow your own advice success in all aspects of your life is inevitable.

As soon as you get straight we need some more of your art work up in this bitch. Keep your head up player. There are amazing women out there that you haven't even met yet...