a1ka1ine |
06-12-2005 05:36 AM |
love is a fucking sickness
seriously.. i have met so many girls and never had feelings for anyone. its been about 5 years since i met a girl that made my heart beat fast etc.
i have had lots of girlfriends since but just left them all because i was bored or just wasnt feeling as strong as they were.
so i met this french girl, she is absolutely beautiful, she flew over to spend a week with me and i totally fell head over heels for her.. she flies back and i start to feel terrible missing her and messaging her all the time, but after a while she stops sending the messages back and i start to feel like im bothering her.
so today im tired of not knowing whats going on and i ask her seriously if she feels as strong as she says she does because it doesnt seem it. she tells me she met a guy 3 weeks ago and they have been together for a few days now. i literally feel my heart explode and i feel dizzy, now i feel like im panicing and im choking and cant breathe. i said some shit to her about how the distance was impossible anyway, and that it was unrealistic for me to be so deluded in the first place, then she says things like "im sorry baby" and then i just block her because im just too choking and cant deal with it.
so now i feel pretty shitty and im writing this all in a post more as a warning for me in future to never fall for a girl again.. i have not had ONE pleasant experience as far as love goes. i feel terrible now, and i felt terrible 5 or so years ago last time i had the bug.
i really need to go out and fuck the hell out of some girls. FUCK FUCKFUCKEBfuu9esgb
stupid fucking world.. why the hell .. its me im sure it is.. i only want what i cant have.. as soon as i sense that the girl doesnt like me as much as i like her my feelings escalate.
this post is my beating heart skewered on a stick across the nnmasters board as a warning to all single guys - do NOT get close to a girl they will only hurt you. concentrate on your business and your health, work hard - go to the gym, eat good food, have fun with your friends and treat girls like whores.
i think im becoming more and more like the person i said i wouldnt become every day, but now i see why its so good to be that way, at least your safe
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aseferg43 say 5
gonna go for a long walk i feel like crying right now and punching a wall, i doubt neither will make me feel better
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