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Originally Posted by Tala
Honestly, if someone decides that he wants me, that'd be wonderful, but i'm also not really looking either. Jesus, i'm only 30. i wanna surf and play and have fun for a while. :)
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you know what? when i was young I could get any woman I wanted, no joke. One day I met this woman and fell head over heels in love with her. Unfortunatly it was a rough few months of hell, and regardless of how hard I tried to keep us together, it ended.
The year that happened, I was going through the worst time of my life dealing with personal problems and family conflicts. The only thing that kept me going was the relationship with my girlfriend. When that ended, it was like a dormant volcano had finally erupted, spilling out every bad thought, bad feeling, bad memory that for most of my life I had tried to keep deep in my subconscious. I lost it. I could no longer cope with the pain and anguish that I had desperately fought to keep hidden. I had a nervous break down and was sent to a private room at Hotel Happy Ha Ha. In my mind, my life was over and there was no way I could continue living. It was there that I tried to go bye bye permanently.
After weeks and weeks of heavy gaurd and a transfer to a more long term hospital, time eventually quieted down the pain to where I was able to allow doctors and therapist a chance to do their thing. Because the break up from my girlfriend was the most recent trauma, I focused on that the most. Since I was 16, one of things I wanted the most was to be married, but with this break up, that dream was never going to happen. Regardless of what everyone told me, I absolutly knew I was going to be alone for the rest of my life. It tore me apart inside, yet I continued to allow myself to heal enough to be released.
Once I was out, I decided to live my life the same way I had been doing before the relationship,(well you know, besides the many other issues involved,) except for one major change. NO MORE RELATIONSHIPS! After a couple of fuck em and leave thems and a couple one night stands, I had gotten use to the idea of being a bachelor. I wasnt that happy with it, but at the same time knew I could handle it. Women just didnt interest me anymore.
One night me and a bunch of friends decide to hit a night club here in town. It was amateur strip night so why not. I might not want to spend any time with women, but I dont have any problem watching them get naked in front of me either. After the contest, me and my buddies were doing our usual drinking like there was no tomorrow, and watching that weeks heavy metal band perform live on stage.
Here I am just minding my own business, sitting there without a thought or care in the world, when suddenly this woman comes from behind me and asks me to dance. Well Homie dont play that, I dont dance. I smiled and politely told her no thank you, and offered her a drink. Its always worked in the past, no reason why it wont now. BUZZZZZZZZZ wrong answer! This woman will not take no for an answer. She tells me she doesnt want a drink, she wants to dance and she wants to dance now! I said, look, I dont dance, you can ask my friends if you dont believe me. I looked at my friends for support, HA, that was a laugh, they all said dance!!!! I shook my head and told her "look,im sorry but im not dancing ok? I turned back around in my chair and began to talk to my friends, when all of a sudden she grabs my chair, says "youre dancing now", and drags me in my chair to the center of the crowded dance floor. I was shocked and extremely embarrassed at what just took place, but always a gentleman, I quickly stood up, laughed it off, told her once again that I wont dance, and started to pull my chair back to the table. I hadnt gotten more than a foot away before she grabs me by the arm and pulls me back to her while demanding I dance. For the next 2 minutes, we are playing tug of war with my arm. Youre dancing, no im not, yes you are, no im not. She finally gave up and walked away for the night. I then carried on with my friends untill we were ready to leave. We get to the door which is wayyyyyyy on the other side of the dance floor when I hear a person yell, YOU BETTER COME BACK HERE FRIDAY! I looked around to see who yelled it when I spotted someone waving to me from a distance. It was that same woman who would not take no for an answer. I laughed, gave her a wave goodbye and went home.
For the next 2 days, I could not get her out of my mind. Friday night comes around and I am still thinking about her so I decide to go back and see if shes there. Yep shes there, she comes up to me and tells me she was hoping I would show up. We sit down, hit it off, and end up spending the entire night together.
Its 20 years later now, and me and that woman are still together. Thats right, I am married to that crazy woman who wanted to dance, and we have never been happier. Pretty amazing considering neither of us were out that night looking for any action.
It just goes to show you, no matter how hard things get, how lonely and hopeless you feel, this bad time in your life will not last. One day when you dont expect it, Mr or Mrs Right will walk into your life.
Never give up Tala. Keep your head up and stay strong. I know your Mr Right is out there.
