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beerbust03 · 09-22-2002, 10:50 AM

I feel great now. Anyone else been clean and sober for about the same, post here!

Fletch XXX · 09-22-2002, 10:52 AM

To be able to function is the key.

I have battled addiction longer than anything in my life.

I was in bar rooms in New Orleans at 15.

26 now.

beerbust03 · 09-22-2002, 10:57 AM

Quote:

Originally posted by Fletch XXX
To be able to function is the key.

I have battled addiction longer than anything in my life.

I was in bar rooms in New Orleans at 15.

26 now.

Yeah I'm 30 and my dad is Indian/Cherokee so it runs in the family so to speak. I stopped cold turkey and feel alive now. Been drinking for awhile myself. Thanks for posting.

eru · 09-22-2002, 10:59 AM

Quote:

Originally posted by beerbust03

Yeah I'm 30 and my dad is Indian/Cherokee so it runs in the family so to speak. I stopped cold turkey and feel alive now. Been drinking for awhile myself. Thanks for posting.

I've never been dead drunk my entire life. I rather be making money than making vomit.

B40 · 09-22-2002, 10:59 AM

Congrats dude...keep it up..

dirtyone · 09-22-2002, 11:00 AM

Quote:

Originally posted by beerbust03

I feel great now. Anyone else been clean and sober for about the same, post here!

Congradulations on being clean and sober beerbust. That's a true accomplishment to overcome addiction.

I have yet to hit rock bottom so I have not started my trip to clean and sober.

It should happen soon though.

D1

Martin · 09-22-2002, 11:01 AM

Nope been dirty and drunk for awhile now.. Smoking on that crazy erb too..

Just the Village Idiot · 09-22-2002, 11:01 AM

QUITTER!!!

So seriously congrats on not hittin' the sauce anymore. Someday I'll quit too -- I think that day is getting closer and closer as we speak.

beerbust03 · 09-22-2002, 11:03 AM

Quote:

Originally posted by dirtyone

Congradulations on being clean and sober beerbust. That's a true accomplishment to overcome addiction.

I have yet to hit rock bottom so I have not started my trip to clean and sober.

It should happen soon though.

D1

Yeah it had been really hard for awhile. I'm a woman so it started getting really weird at the liquor stores. Everyday after work purchasing that liquor and watching the stares from others. I guess men are the only one's who can drink. That's such a preconceived notion. Anyone can be an alcoholic. It is a pathetic habit though. So I looked at myself one day and said, "This has been going on since 16 years old. Enough!"

cherrylula · 09-22-2002, 11:04 AM

Congratulations! It gets easier.

I still fit binge drinking in my schedule sometimes, with a thc cocktail on the side.

Sunday is always rough. Dammit. Fuck. What to do.

I did find a really interesting book recently about the physical side of alcoholism, as in the hereditary stuff they talk about. Liver isoenzyme defects or something like that. Has to do with how some people's livers process alcohol differently which they say is the difference between an "alcoholic" and a "problem drinker."

Enlightening info if anything. The book is called "Under the Influence" by Dr. James R. Milam and Katherine Ketcham.

Fletch XXX · 09-22-2002, 11:05 AM

When I quit drinking everyday. I was spending 700 a week in bars.

Glad to have that out of me.

Thats what I get for getting into the rock scene at young age, I guess.

I listen to this every morning at least 5 times.

And have it on in my headphones as I type this.

When I stopped drinking I laid in bed for 9 days vomiting, crying, wishing I were dead.

Now I go outside.

And I look around.

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i'm sick with this i'm sick with this situation avoided or just missed? my own sweet time says it's ten twenty four hardly recognise simple things anymore

i don't want to be defeated
i don't want to be defeated
i don't want to be defeated
i don't want to be defeated

this is the point this is the manifest bed for the scraping dirty little secret reason for the gathering consequence what else is there to do but go outside and look around look around

Fugazi: Bed For The Scraping.
Album: Red Medicine.

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What else is there to do, but go outsdie and take a look around.

beerbust03 · 09-22-2002, 11:07 AM

Quote:

Originally posted by Fletch XXX
When I quit drinking everyday. I was spending 700 a week in bars.

Glad to have that out of me.

Thats what I get for getting into the rock scene at young age, I guess.

I listen to this every morning at least 5 times.

And have it on in my headphones as I type this.

When I stopped drinking I laid in bed for 9 days vomiting, crying, wishing I were dead.

Now I go outside.

And I look around.

------------------------------------------

i'm sick with this i'm sick with this situation avoided or just missed? my own sweet time says it's ten twenty four hardly recognise simple things anymore

i don't want to be defeated
i don't want to be defeated
i don't want to be defeated
i don't want to be defeated

this is the point this is the manifest bed for the scraping dirty little secret reason for the gathering consequence what else is there to do but go outside and look around look around

Fugazi: Bed For The Scraping.
Album: Red Medicine.

----------------------------------------------

Fletch XXX · 09-22-2002, 11:10 AM

At 11 am on a Sunday, talking about drinking like this still makes me want to get wasted and ruin the day as I did for so many years.

That is addiciton.

Stealthy · 09-22-2002, 11:17 AM

I started drinking when I was 18, I had my first bartending shift 2 days after my 18th birthday & it kind of went downhill from there. I wouldn't say I was an alcoholic, but I most certainly had a problem. I do understand the disease, though. Addiction is a hard thing to admit, and an even harder thing to overcome.

Good for you, B.B.! I raise my glass of President's Choice Rootbeer to you! MmMmMmm... Roooootbeeer...

booker · 09-22-2002, 11:21 AM

Congrats.. I've seen first hand how tough it can be to clean yourself up when such things have control of your life. If you can do that, you can do anything.

beerbust03 · 09-22-2002, 11:25 AM

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Originally posted by Stealthy
I started drinking when I was 18, I had my first bartending shift 2 days after my 18th birthday & it kind of went downhill from there. I wouldn't say I was an alcoholic, but I most certainly had a problem. I do understand the disease, though. Addiction is a hard thing to admit, and an even harder thing to overcome.

Good for you, B.B.! I raise my glass of President's Choice Rootbeer to you! MmMmMmm... Roooootbeeer...

I guess I should change my name now huh? Thanks Stealthy.

cyberpunk · 09-22-2002, 03:03 PM

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Originally posted by beerbust03

I feel great now. Anyone else been clean and sober for about the same, post here!

Congrats, myself I dont have the additoin but lots of family members do to.. Good work

pimpdog3 · 09-22-2002, 03:07 PM

I havent had a drink in 4 months, and i have stopped smoking rock about 8 months ago.

feels good to get hated and cause shit with a clear head. That way you cant blame the stupidity on the drugs.

congrats on your new found feelings.

Sly_RJ · 09-22-2002, 03:16 PM

I've had a hang over once. It was my first, and my last. I drink in moderation and to enjoy the drink, not get completely wasted.

I'm not going to waste a day being sick from a night I wouldn't even remember.

pr0 · 09-22-2002, 03:53 PM

Quitter

Your addictions will just change to food, coffee, sex, strippers, hookers, pain pills or something else. Once an addictive personality, always an addictive personality.

Just start smoking weed & never look back at anything else.

lilbitch · 09-22-2002, 08:37 PM

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Originally posted by pr0
Quitter

Your addictions will just change to food, coffee, sex, strippers, hookers, pain pills or something else. Once an addictive personality, always an addictive personality.

Just start smoking weed & never look back at anything else.

I have to both agree and disagree with this, pr0.

Yes, it's true, once an addict always an addict...theres no way around it.

I myself, am a co-dependant cross addictive alcoholic. I will be all those things until the day I die. But that doesn't mean that I live every day of my life shit-faced and high.

It has been 9 1/2 years since I touched rock, 5 years since I gave up meth, and as to alcohol, 2 years ago there was beer in this bod every day...the total amount of my alcohol intake over the last 2 years doesnt even come close to what I used to drink in one day.

It took a long time for me to be able to admit my addictions to myself, and even longer for me to be able to accept the fact that I was what I was and always will be...

I am an addict. I will always be an addict. But I am a clean and sober addict that really loves the person that she sees now, when she looks in the mirror. I couldnt say that 2 years ago.

As to the addiction just changing to something else...a replacement addiction, if you will....this is something that is totally and completely untrue, because it doesnt happen to everybody!

It varies from person to person, as to whether or not this happens. I think it depends on just how strong each individual is, and whether or not they are able to recognize the "warning signs", or if they are able to stop themselves if and when they do see them.

I've not yet had a "replacement" addiction since i quit drinking, but until then, everything i did was to replace what i had just given up...but I didnt see it like that back then. Of course, who CAN see thru a drunken drug induced haze??

My story is different than anybody elses...we each have our own, we've each lived in our own hell, and each story will have a different way of arriving at the end. But it's at the end that we all have one thing in common, that we all are the same...We are CLEAN AND SOBER, and even more importantly, we are ALIVE!

Kudos, BB! I wish you the best on your journey to sobriety! It's well worth the shitty road it takes to get there!

SpeedoPanda · 09-22-2002, 08:43 PM

It's refreshing to know you can just up and quit!

Good work

PornoDoggy · 09-22-2002, 08:49 PM

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Originally posted by beerbust03

I feel great now. Anyone else been clean and sober for about the same, post here!

God willin, the creek don't rise, and the truck doesn't decide that it needs to stop at one of them Budwieser signs, I'll have 9 years on 10/26.

But goodgawdamitey, I wouldn't wanna do those first 30 days again. No how, no way. Congratulations.

And prO - I figured out that all weed was doing to me after smoking it for years was making me very hungry and very paranoid. Five years after I figured that out, I quit smoking it - and THAT I miss once in a while. Not enough to go back to the Salvation Army, however.

DarkestWeb · 09-22-2002, 08:54 PM

Quote:

Originally posted by beerbust03

I feel great now. Anyone else been clean and sober for about the same, post here!

Congrats bro, damn good job, keep it up!

If I could just quit smoking I'd be in good shape

blakkfrogg · 09-22-2002, 09:42 PM

Clean and sober... three words more powerful than life itself. Once sucked in, you're doomed. Some, due to pure luck, I think, never find the 'benefits' of substances. Others do. And for us it is an uncharted and most depressing ride down a long, dark tunnel. Seems so bright at points and for brief moments you feel as though you're riding on the wings of a golden angel, destined to find true bliss.

But then the crash comes. Harsh reality taps you on the shoulder and tells you things are not nearly as lovely as they were at the club that night when life was grand and everyone was your friend. Now you owe money, now you have strange phone numbers in your pocket, now you can't remember where the hell your car is, now you're waking up and finding out you're missing.... aw, screw it. You're waking up.

I've never been too far down the path. Had my moments (weekends) of true chemical washout, but never hit the truly heavy stuff. Something always steered me away, despite the (initial) free offerings of many different tasty selections. I stuck with the things I knew and let time pass by as the ATM card kept working so well.

All of a sudden it's Monday. Wow. Pain from falling, no clue where, shoots through my leg. Damn. Where'd I get a traffic cone from, why is the stereo still on, who put the rolling pin in the window, and honey, who shrunk the kids?

Have I been down rock road, heroin avenue or meth boulevard? No, I have not. Have I partied with Charlie, found salvation in ecstasy, climbed mushroom mountain, hung out with cousin Sid, and consumed alcohol as though it was oxygen?

Damn right I have. And you know what? I'm proud to say I survived. I'm not clean and sober these days. I still have a few cocktails during the week and once in a while I like to roll into a club... but I'm nothing like the stupid fuck I was two years ago.

Hell no. I'd rather die than go back.

To all of you who have seen worse than I have, congratulations on making it back. I never want to be where you have been.

To all those reading this thread and thinking it can never happen to you, well, no sense in telling you any different. I guess you're going to have to find out the hard way.

Peace to the feline nation and I'm Audi 5000.

And lots of stuff.

Va2k · 09-22-2002, 09:50 PM

Quote:

Originally posted by beerbust03

I feel great now. Anyone else been clean and sober for about the same, post here!

Hey man congrats dude. Im going on two months of being clean form the pain pills again.... sober for 7 months its a hard deamon to beat mate and there have been times if i didnt give my mother my money and cc's I would of fallen off again.. I am over the pain of wanting the pills im still hurting from the massive bleeding ulcer I gave myself and now everytime I think about pain pills it makes me feel sick. I really wish the best for you and anyone else trying to over come their demon

Ps being clean this long my work and designs are the best they have ever been as well

TOM

TeraBabes · 09-22-2002, 10:03 PM

Congrats!

Carrie · 09-22-2002, 11:02 PM

BB, you go, girl! CONGRATULATIONS!!
You've made it past the hardest part - it's all mental from here and you can do that no sweat.

Major

and congrats to others who have posted as well - you've all done good.

GTS Mark · 09-22-2002, 11:38 PM

AA is for quitters!

DH

pr0 · 09-22-2002, 11:52 PM

Do whatever it is that makes you happy & never let anyone else tell you how to live.

You might die tomorrow from cancer or a heart attack, or get into a car accident.

Drugs & Alchohol are just an escape from the ultimate reality...you're a deadman walking

09-22-2002, 10:50 AM	#1
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09-22-2002, 10:52 AM	#2
Fletch XXX GFY HALL OF FAME DAMMIT!!! Join Date: Jan 2002 Location: that 504 Posts: 60,840	To be able to function is the key. I have battled addiction longer than anything in my life. I was in bar rooms in New Orleans at 15. 26 now. __________________ Want an Android App for your tube, membership, or free site? Need banners or promo material? Hit us up (ICQ Fletch: 148841377) or email me fletchxxx at gmail.com - recent work - About me

09-22-2002, 10:59 AM	#5
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09-22-2002, 11:05 AM	#11
Fletch XXX GFY HALL OF FAME DAMMIT!!! Join Date: Jan 2002 Location: that 504 Posts: 60,840	When I quit drinking everyday. I was spending 700 a week in bars. Glad to have that out of me. Thats what I get for getting into the rock scene at young age, I guess. I listen to this every morning at least 5 times. And have it on in my headphones as I type this. When I stopped drinking I laid in bed for 9 days vomiting, crying, wishing I were dead. Now I go outside. And I look around. ------------------------------------------ i'm sick with this i'm sick with this situation avoided or just missed? my own sweet time says it's ten twenty four hardly recognise simple things anymore i don't want to be defeated i don't want to be defeated i don't want to be defeated i don't want to be defeated this is the point this is the manifest bed for the scraping dirty little secret reason for the gathering consequence what else is there to do but go outside and look around look around Fugazi: Bed For The Scraping. Album: Red Medicine. ---------------------------------------------- What else is there to do, but go outsdie and take a look around. __________________ Want an Android App for your tube, membership, or free site? Need banners or promo material? Hit us up (ICQ Fletch: 148841377) or email me fletchxxx at gmail.com - recent work - About me Last edited by Fletch XXX; 09-22-2002 at 11:08 AM..

09-22-2002, 11:10 AM	#13
Fletch XXX GFY HALL OF FAME DAMMIT!!! Join Date: Jan 2002 Location: that 504 Posts: 60,840	At 11 am on a Sunday, talking about drinking like this still makes me want to get wasted and ruin the day as I did for so many years. That is addiciton. __________________ Want an Android App for your tube, membership, or free site? Need banners or promo material? Hit us up (ICQ Fletch: 148841377) or email me fletchxxx at gmail.com - recent work - About me

09-22-2002, 11:01 AM	#7
Martin "Assassins" Industry Role: Join Date: Dec 2001 Location: At home Posts: 17,277	Nope been dirty and drunk for awhile now.. Smoking on that crazy erb too..

09-22-2002, 11:01 AM	#8
Just the Village Idiot Confirmed User Join Date: Apr 2002 Location: Earth Posts: 581	QUITTER!!! So seriously congrats on not hittin' the sauce anymore. Someday I'll quit too -- I think that day is getting closer and closer as we speak.

09-22-2002, 11:04 AM	#10
cherrylula lol Industry Role: Join Date: Jan 2002 Posts: 15,969	Congratulations! It gets easier. I still fit binge drinking in my schedule sometimes, with a thc cocktail on the side. Sunday is always rough. Dammit. Fuck. What to do. I did find a really interesting book recently about the physical side of alcoholism, as in the hereditary stuff they talk about. Liver isoenzyme defects or something like that. Has to do with how some people's livers process alcohol differently which they say is the difference between an "alcoholic" and a "problem drinker." Enlightening info if anything. The book is called "Under the Influence" by Dr. James R. Milam and Katherine Ketcham.

09-22-2002, 11:17 AM	#14
Stealthy Confirmed User Join Date: Aug 2002 Location: You know that voice inside your head? That's me... Posts: 626	I started drinking when I was 18, I had my first bartending shift 2 days after my 18th birthday & it kind of went downhill from there. I wouldn't say I was an alcoholic, but I most certainly had a problem. I do understand the disease, though. Addiction is a hard thing to admit, and an even harder thing to overcome. Good for you, B.B.! I raise my glass of President's Choice Rootbeer to you! MmMmMmm... Roooootbeeer... __________________ <embed src=http://www.moonshadow-productions.com/images/moon.swf width="120" height=60>

09-22-2002, 11:21 AM	#15
booker Confirmed User Join Date: Jul 2002 Location: Baltimore Posts: 1,370	Congrats.. I've seen first hand how tough it can be to clean yourself up when such things have control of your life. If you can do that, you can do anything. __________________ Xanadu024 (aim) or 286785389 (icq) "Hard work beats talent when talent doesn't work hard."

09-22-2002, 03:07 PM	#18
pimpdog3 So Fucking Banned Join Date: Aug 2002 Posts: 652	I havent had a drink in 4 months, and i have stopped smoking rock about 8 months ago. feels good to get hated and cause shit with a clear head. That way you cant blame the stupidity on the drugs. congrats on your new found feelings.

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09-22-2002, 03:53 PM	#20
pr0 rockin tha trailerpark Industry Role: Join Date: May 2001 Location: ~Coastal~ Posts: 23,088	Quitter Your addictions will just change to food, coffee, sex, strippers, hookers, pain pills or something else. Once an addictive personality, always an addictive personality. Just start smoking weed & never look back at anything else.

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blakkfrogg Confirmed User Join Date: Jan 2001 Location: South of sobriety Posts: 582	Clean and sober... three words more powerful than life itself. Once sucked in, you're doomed. Some, due to pure luck, I think, never find the 'benefits' of substances. Others do. And for us it is an uncharted and most depressing ride down a long, dark tunnel. Seems so bright at points and for brief moments you feel as though you're riding on the wings of a golden angel, destined to find true bliss. But then the crash comes. Harsh reality taps you on the shoulder and tells you things are not nearly as lovely as they were at the club that night when life was grand and everyone was your friend. Now you owe money, now you have strange phone numbers in your pocket, now you can't remember where the hell your car is, now you're waking up and finding out you're missing.... aw, screw it. You're waking up. I've never been too far down the path. Had my moments (weekends) of true chemical washout, but never hit the truly heavy stuff. Something always steered me away, despite the (initial) free offerings of many different tasty selections. I stuck with the things I knew and let time pass by as the ATM card kept working so well. All of a sudden it's Monday. Wow. Pain from falling, no clue where, shoots through my leg. Damn. Where'd I get a traffic cone from, why is the stereo still on, who put the rolling pin in the window, and honey, who shrunk the kids? Have I been down rock road, heroin avenue or meth boulevard? No, I have not. Have I partied with Charlie, found salvation in ecstasy, climbed mushroom mountain, hung out with cousin Sid, and consumed alcohol as though it was oxygen? Damn right I have. And you know what? I'm proud to say I survived. I'm not clean and sober these days. I still have a few cocktails during the week and once in a while I like to roll into a club... but I'm nothing like the stupid fuck I was two years ago. Hell no. I'd rather die than go back. To all of you who have seen worse than I have, congratulations on making it back. I never want to be where you have been. To all those reading this thread and thinking it can never happen to you, well, no sense in telling you any different. I guess you're going to have to find out the hard way. Peace to the feline nation and I'm Audi 5000. And lots of stuff. __________________ - Blakk Frogg * Blakk Frogg Sex Blog * * Wyldsites Sex Blogs * * * Blakk Frogg Joke Blog So anyways, this Frogg is looking for smaller traffic trades. Trying to get back into the swing of things, ya' know?

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Carrie Confirmed User Join Date: Apr 2002 Location: Virgin - nee Posts: 3,162	BB, you go, girl! CONGRATULATIONS!! You've made it past the hardest part - it's all mental from here and you can do that no sweat. Major and congrats to others who have posted as well - you've all done good.

09-22-2002, 11:38 PM	#29
GTS Mark Vrume Mark Industry Role: Join Date: Jan 2001 Location: Toronto, Canada Posts: 20,912	AA is for quitters! DH

09-22-2002, 11:52 PM	#30
pr0 rockin tha trailerpark Industry Role: Join Date: May 2001 Location: ~Coastal~ Posts: 23,088	Do whatever it is that makes you happy & never let anyone else tell you how to live. You might die tomorrow from cancer or a heart attack, or get into a car accident. Drugs & Alchohol are just an escape from the ultimate reality...you're a deadman walking