Originally Posted by BlazingBucks_Ryan
(Post 11523794)
Honestly, it is still a work in progress. I do have $11,000 in maxed out credit card debt due to gambling now - and to me now, that is the equivalent of having $1,000,000.00 in credit card debt back then.
I haven't gambled at all in about 3 weeks. My last time I played I played poker VERY WELL for 3 weeks straight and built up $6,000.00 from a $300 deposit. I had dreams of paying off my credit cards again dancing in my head....
Thing is instead of cashing out $5,000 and slowly rebuilding my bankroll again (starting with the $1,000 I would of had left, which would have been MORE than enough) I had this ingenious idea!!
I could play $150/$300 limit and with one lucky session I could get the $10K I needed to get completely out of debt !! Needlesss to sya two bad beats and I lost $4,000.00 - Naturally I had to keep playing to get back to even then, which led to me busting out, yet again ... Story of my life ....
It took 30 minutes to destroy weeks of solid poker - Playing 80 + hours per week with a fierce desire not to stray off path this time.... I can play poker well, seriously .. But I can't play it because of this exact reason. At some point of time I always decide to 'gamble' instead of 'play poker' no matter what ... and it has led to me playing in games over me head where I wasn't properly bankrolled and I lose.
I'm not getting any new credit cards, the Misses has the maxed out ones ... and I will be paying $300 a month on them for god knows how long. Hopefully it is a reminder to me to stay off the tables no matter how 'juicy' the game I see etc is.
I had an idea I was looking for investments in a while ago pertaining to problem gamblers like you and I. The idea was to build a software program that you install on your computer and it completely locks your ability to access any gambling related sites.
Once installled, you could not remove it off your computer, period... The market is out there for the product, I know I would buy it - and I know it would still save me money most likely to this day if suck a product existed.
The beauty is I think some sites that are truly 'Anti Gambling Addicts" liek Poker Stars would gladly link to such a program for free. It is very unlikely many actual casinos would link to such a site but poker related sites who are trying to build their reputation as being skill based would likely link to such a thinkg (gratis) ... The PR for such a product alone would make it proiftable within a week - I had quotes for the deisgn of it and everything, had programmers in place, ironically 50% of the money I had set aside to get it started I lost gambling ...
Like I said, if you ever need any one who can seriously relate drop me a line. I have been where you are to a T. I am a noone now but I used to bet $5-$10,000 a hand at the BJ tables and played only the highest limit poker games avalable for years.. I know what the big money betting rush is like, along witht he huge wins. I also knowmuchmore well (unfortunately) the feeling of huge losses .. :(
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