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Gutterboy · 01-23-2003, 11:28 AM

I knew it wasn't all in vain...

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So Wednesday was last day of my abstinence. 40 days of being clean from
porn&mb and you can guess what was my trigger today.
Now I feel very @#$&! and I know that I lost a big
chance to get out of this hole. I didn't feel very well for the last few
days, no one called me, nothing important happened, had few arguments with
my parents, I didn't pass driving license exams, they didn't want my article in the university newspaper,
the girl who I hoped to meet with refused (and she'll be away
from my town for 2 weeks) etc. Finally, I went to a pretty boring party on
Wednesday evening and said few things that I later much regretted. After
the party I was
coming back home alone on foot quiet long way, I was drunk and thinking how pathetic I was and I nearly cried ("poor me" syndrome I guess).
Today morning I turned my computer to check this site as always
and found all these spams and avalanche started. I know I should blame only myself but I'm sure that If I
hadn't seen all these stupid posts I wouldn't have had a slip. Anyway, the most stupid thing that I did today was following this link to the board from which people sent spams here.
Now I have to concentrate...If I don't have a slip in next few days I can probably treat this one as an accident but now I'm not sure what will happen in next few days. I will have 16 days of holidays now which I will spend at home, most of time alone.... I don't know, I think I need some optimism now.

idioteque

I think he deserves a free membership to Max Hardcore for that.