ADDERALL again :) You ever look back and think.. who the hell was that? And, what drives people?

[MrMaxwell]

I'm very much at a loss of words when I look back on my last few years. Not sure who that was. Why in all hell don't I own some rentals and a couple of dealerships and a jewelry store, by now

I so know how


I thought, well, I got caught up too much in women. But then I noticed that I only have been close with three. There were a lot of years in between where I could have done more.

I just kind of coasted by on two bit deals and wasted time traveling with strange women. Some were pretty exciting, some were pretty weird. Well and then I did spend a couple of years in total solitude. That wasn't bad- I am not the type to be lonely. I sure was heartsick when my ex ran away, still kind of am, but that is just because I done lost so many close niggaz and never been the type to have many people close anyway so

Well.. sigh.... life ain't all about blowjobs and eating food like a rabid wolf. And it ain't about helping people all of the time, either, if you don't help yourself.

Some things have been an experience. I've seen some women most of you couldn't dream of. Ain't had any porn stars so you have me, there, lol. Some of the shit I've done I can't even tell about- I even had alphabet boys looking at me, before. . and then thanked god they had a sense of humor . . I did enjoy feeling like I was doing things no one else could, because I am me - good times

Jesus on the moon eating moon crackers with fizzy wine, though, I'm a cunthair from being thirty and I don't have income producing assets or own a home. And then after all that time clean I get into trouble, do not pass go, enjoy jail, yay

Crazy as it sounds I still love my life .. wouldn't trade places with anyone .. Not sure what motivates normal people. Politics, sports, status, 800 women, power, religion etc?

Christ on the third ring of saturn playing low gravity basketball man I don't need much to be happy. I don't even need new women all of the time.

Sure - now and then it's nice to have some strange new woman slurp and suck, but, day to day I just like to have one that I am comfortable with who knows how I like things. Some good food. Being able to breathe financially.

There ain't much I really need. I like to have a couple of Cadillacs and some Guns. Sure - SOME power is nice - but it's not a control issue or anything.. the only power I enjoy is being able to cause justice. Like feeding hard working people, taking video games to sick kids, harming child molestors, etc.

I don't let myself breathe. When stupid left at the end of February, I was in good shape. Two paid for automobiles. A couple extra grand. Rent and bills all paid up. I don't know, you know, I was action seeking after she left. Couldn't stand to be at home. Gambling fast and fast. Somehow didn't drink except a couple times. Pots of coffee and packs of cigarettes. Saw a couple of women, didn't really do anything wasn't exciting enough.

bla bla bla

sorry
I think I was journaling or some gay thing just now

[BIGTYMER]

Feel better now getting all that out?

[Mutt]

fascinating as always

[Mickey_]

As your attorney I advise you to lay off the Adderall...

[L-Pink]

All I hear is whining and bitching. Boo who Alice. Man up and DO something for a change.

[Emil]

Kratom..

[Helix]

140 characters or less please.

[TheSquealer]

Originally Posted by L-Pink

All I hear is whining and bitching. Boo who Alice. Man up and DO something for a change.

He does spend an inordinate amount of time talking about how much he made and how he knows how to make money... and oddly, very little time actually devoting himself to making money as he complains about having no money.

[MrMaxwell]

Originally Posted by L-Pink

All I hear is whining and bitching. Boo who Alice. Man up and DO something for a change.

You're right.. I don't do anything anymore.. that's the problem, I think

Just like when hun galleries made more sales for me, I just let making new galleries go for months and years at a time.... I could have used the extra money.. but didn't even seem to care

I can't figure out why

[MrMaxwell]

Originally Posted by TheSquealer

He does spend an inordinate amount of time talking about how much he made and how he knows how to make money... and oddly, very little time actually devoting himself to making money as he complains about having no money.

Not really complaining about not having money. You know, I've often said, I have what I deserve to have.

[bigluv]

Anybody who comes here to whine (yes, that's what you are doing) pointlessly (yes, you actually are not interested in any solutions) is actually not as OK with their life as you purport to be.

Here's your problem :

1) Sense of entitlement. Somehow you manage to keep the idea that you are special even though all evidence points to the fact you are a fucking loser. (But you don't have to stay one.) A sense of entitlement is deadly because it makes working for a wage or at anything less than "get rich quick" rates seem like a waste of your effort. I recommend you cultivate humility and grow up.

I was going to put some more secondary issues down but in actuality, it all comes down to #1. Without getting rid of #1 it all stops right there.

It's obvious to me by the way you pump yourself up that you have self esteem issues and the defense mechanism of propping up your ego is actually keeping you down.

I'll close with a couple of tips that I don't think you're ready to implement or even listen to, but what the hell.

1) The way to achieve something that doesn't come easy (even when you think it should) is to have a 'whatever it takes' mentality. This doesn't mean you scheme to kidnap someone or whatever other crazy stuff you have posted before. This means when you try something, you are then willing to go through the cycle of :
i) try
ii) evaluate results
iii) formulate a strategy for improvement
iv) implement improvement
v) REPEAT

2) It's a good idea to plan for success no matter the outcome. What I mean by this is, if you want to dream big that's fine, but you need to have not only a backup plan, but a realistic PRIMARY plan that gets you most of where you want to go. Even if it takes more work than you would like, or you don't think its necessary because your ship is going to come in one of these days. There's tonnes of homeless bums and working poor that wasted their life on the expectation something bigger was going to just happen so they should just wait it out.

3) If your mind is still open, by this point, congrats. Here's the secret that you are missing. Actually doing regular every day stuff (like a job for wages but doesn't absolutely have to be) and slowly getting ahead will give you a REAL sense of pride, will result in real gains, and will turn your life around. Your whole thinking will change. Even if you don't see yourself wanting to do XYZ job in 20 years, it's always worthwhile to be working at something that enables you to personally develop yourself, gain experience, gain perspective, and hopefully branch out into something that you really want to do. Right now you likely think the type of people that does this are suckers, but I guarantee you that when you are 60 and live in a SRO on welfare or in a piss-smell inherited trailer like Vjo you will wish that you put some effort into your life whlie you had the chance.

4) Doing nothing is always deadly.

[CYF]

Originally Posted by bigluv

Anybody who comes here to whine (yes, that's what you are doing) pointlessly (yes, you actually are not interested in any solutions) is actually not as OK with their life as you purport to be.

Here's your problem :

1) Sense of entitlement. Somehow you manage to keep the idea that you are special even though all evidence points to the fact you are a fucking loser. (But you don't have to stay one.) A sense of entitlement is deadly because it makes working for a wage or at anything less than "get rich quick" rates seem like a waste of your effort. I recommend you cultivate humility and grow up.

I was going to put some more secondary issues down but in actuality, it all comes down to #1. Without getting rid of #1 it all stops right there.

It's obvious to me by the way you pump yourself up that you have self esteem issues and the defense mechanism of propping up your ego is actually keeping you down.

I'll close with a couple of tips that I don't think you're ready to implement or even listen to, but what the hell.

1) The way to achieve something that doesn't come easy (even when you think it should) is to have a 'whatever it takes' mentality. This doesn't mean you scheme to kidnap someone or whatever other crazy stuff you have posted before. This means when you try something, you are then willing to go through the cycle of :
i) try
ii) evaluate results
iii) formulate a strategy for improvement
iv) implement improvement
v) REPEAT

2) It's a good idea to plan for success no matter the outcome. What I mean by this is, if you want to dream big that's fine, but you need to have not only a backup plan, but a realistic PRIMARY plan that gets you most of where you want to go. Even if it takes more work than you would like, or you don't think its necessary because your ship is going to come in one of these days. There's tonnes of homeless bums and working poor that wasted their life on the expectation something bigger was going to just happen so they should just wait it out.

3) If your mind is still open, by this point, congrats. Here's the secret that you are missing. Actually doing regular every day stuff (like a job for wages but doesn't absolutely have to be) and slowly getting ahead will give you a REAL sense of pride, will result in real gains, and will turn your life around. Your whole thinking will change. Even if you don't see yourself wanting to do XYZ job in 20 years, it's always worthwhile to be working at something that enables you to personally develop yourself, gain experience, gain perspective, and hopefully branch out into something that you really want to do. Right now you likely think the type of people that does this are suckers, but I guarantee you that when you are 60 and live in a SRO on welfare or in a piss-smell inherited trailer like Vjo you will wish that you put some effort into your life whlie you had the chance.

4) Doing nothing is always deadly.

quoted for truth. Nice advice.

[anexsia]

Originally Posted by Emil

Kratom..