I'm a completely different person when I take Adderall + Life Story

[MrMaxwell]

Man.. this is fucking amazing.. I hadn't had any for some time and WoW.. It makes a huge difference!! I guess most people speed up or get a high from amps?? I am able to focus in and sit still and do something!!! No racing thoughts, no climbing the walls with big ideas unable to do anything about them, etc.

It does make me want to talk at certain moments. I don't feel like actually talking to anyone. That said- I'm going to write some things here while I can still articulate my thoughts into anything coherent. I welcome any insight or comments or insults.

I actually do think that some of that intelligence I had when I was younger may still be there.. I drank a lot of it away (not in terms of knowledge- but in comprehension and stability when it comes to a train of thought)

Believe it or not- and I know I come off as a real regular crazy person or outright moron, on here, at times.... I use to be pretty damned brilliant.. I use to come up with ways to make money out of thin air. It was unbelievable.

There are definitely life skill issues. Structure issues. I left school at age twelve. I was surrounded by older children, in school, because I skipped several grades. I did glean a lot of wisdom from older people as I never really was a child.

What I'm saying is, while the normal children were out enjoying hurting themselves and peeing everywhere, I was sitting around with old white people or young black people learning all kinds of shit.

My first hustle was pencils. I was ten or eleven and all of the kids collected pencils. Inviting all of the GFY penis jokes with the word pencils, be damned, I thought I'd speak on that. Well. Write on it.

Until a few years ago I was able to adapt to any environment. Able to "get my way". I even took over a house at age fifteen when my father ran away. I ran it and paid everything for several years. It was a modest home in a middle class area, but I had some pretty cool shit. 220gal oceanic fresh water aquarium, enclosed patio with two little fountains, huge garage with two automobile doors, the cars I wanted etc..

Sigh. Well... All I cared about was money. How I could protect what I had, how I could make more, etc. The concept of investing for the future was something I did think about but one I didn't do much toward. I regret that, now. With the money that passed through my fingers I could have retired, by now.

I didn't discover women until I was thirteen. I did show an interest in them from age six when I use to video tape them on the beach. Especially their butts. I didn't even know or seem to wonder about why I was doing that, at the time.

I didn't really realize how interested I was in women until I was thirteen. I had discovered naked women being extremely interesting when I was twelve (that was my first time successfully descrambling pay TV - and I made a fortune doing so, at that age- all of my own volition, all my idea, all on my own)

I didn't have my first girlfriend until I was FIFTEEN.. never really tried to find one or cared to because I had learned to jerk off when I was twelve, anyway. LoL. My first girlfriend was TWENTY SIX and she was amazing. But she wasn't my first love. Just amazing at blowjobs and sex. And my FIRST TIME I lasted AWHILE - because I had a dick vibrator I had been using since I was twelve and was use to jerking off for hours (NOT A DILDO, you simple minded clowns, but I will "take" the jokes I know you'll make.)

So I'm a young white kid who's only ever been accepted by crusty old white people and young black people.. and I'm more wi****ed out than you can imagine. Driving Cadillacs, carrying a pos jennings, dressing like a moron (but never sagged my pants- ever- EVER) and the whole bit

Well and then when I took the house over, I did have a woman by then.. my woman turned on me after a few years AND I discovered alcohol all at the same time. That was a big deal to me. I am very loyal when I am close with a someone(and apparently to my passion-alcohol). Not long before that my best friend got sent for 20+. Things like that. It was a tough time. I guess things went bad for a few years.

Alcohol has been a problem, since. It probably always will be. I was sober except for twice for MANY months until a couple of weeks ago and it got me into serious trouble.

After that first woman turned on me I didn't really think of being close with one for five years. Women became just blowjobs/sex, to me, and whatever they would do for me. I had some kind of spoil me- I have to admit that- and during my drunken years there were some pretty ugly and disgusting ones. It is a wonder I don't have every social disease possible.

That said, I've also had some of the most desirable women in the country. I'm not sure why but I've always had a way of managing to attract women so far above my league it's outright ridiculous.

So I am tired of writing now and in closing I'd like to say that if anyone has ever loved money, made quite a bit, and then lost the love for money - but still needs to earn a living - please give me any tips you've got. When and if I have my "money spark" back I know that I can live well.

If I could do it as a teenager- I can do it now- and without doing anything "two bit"- or is that what I need, to go back to doing exciting interesting things and just "be what I am"?? It's a confusing time in my life.

I've never cheated any person or taken ONE DIME from the government like most people do when they go broke and hit bottom. . I've never stolen, except from huge huge companies.. I know I've done SOME wrong, but I have also helped MANY people in MANY ways and I ultimately mean the world well

Then end .. for now

[epitome]

You sure it doesn't make you high?

This feels more like a amphetamine fueled post rather than someone properly medicated.

[MrMaxwell]

Originally Posted by epitome

You sure it doesn't make you high?

This feels more like a amphetamine fueled post rather than someone properly medicated.

Yeah.. I am not in a rambling mood or anything.. I just never talk about anything, with any one. So I thought I'd write some shit out. Just trying to figure myself out, right now. I see what you mean, though.

Also I could only get 30mg XR - which means, I think it gives me 15mg and another 15mg four hours later. I usually take 10mg at a time which is perfect for me.

Definitely not "amped up" or anything - I'm just sitting here in my chair as calm as anyone could possibly be. It DOES do some of the classic things to me that you hear about- it makes me chew on my lip a little bit, it buffers down my appetite and it allows (not forces) me to stay awake for a long time.

The amazing thing to me is that I have not abused it. I've abused, in the past, nicotine and caffeine. Definitely abused alcohol. I cut WAY back on caffeine in the past few years (I water coffee down, stopped drinking soda) and on nicotine in the past months (I use an e-cig now and make the juice weak)

But even when I had a bottle full of adderall- I never took more than 20mg in a day- even when I got drunk once!! That surprises me to death (I was scared to death of being addicted or abusing it- it can be bad bad shit- but when I don't take it, there is zero withdrawl and I've never even been tempted to take more)

I guess I am kind of wordy, tonight.

[TubeSubmitters]

cliff notes?

[epitome]

I stopped taking it because I couldn't fall asleep. Once I was out I could sleep a good 8 hours. Actually falling asleep was the problem. Then they gave me kolonopin to go to sleep and I was like I don't want to be a River Phoenix and just stopped both.

[epitome]

Originally Posted by AdultDesigns

cliff notes?

High on adderall. LOL

[Oracle Porn]

Originally Posted by MrMaxwell

Yeah.. I am not in a rambling mood or anything.. I just never talk about anything, with any one.

GFY isn't the place to start

[MrMaxwell]

Originally Posted by Oracle Porn

GFY isn't the place to start

Agreed.. but I ain't one to journal or whatever it is

[jollyperv]

It truly is a wonder drug. Fucking Scary how well it works.

[CurrentlySober]

I'll chat with you ! What do you wanna chat about?

Can I suggest poo?

[MrMaxwell]

Nah, I don't chat with people.. sorry

[Emil]

Tried Kratom yet? http://www.drugs-forum.com/forum/sho...d.php?t=155762


Buy a sample of Bali, indo and thai. (no extracts!) Try each one of them. Find what you like best and what works for you.
http://www.thekratomking.com/Kratom_...s_p/sample.htm

[MrMaxwell]

Originally Posted by Emil

Tried Kratom yet? http://www.drugs-forum.com/forum/sho...d.php?t=155762


Buy a sample of Bali, indo and thai. (no extracts!) Try each one of them. Find what you like best and what works for you.
http://www.thekratomking.com/Kratom_...s_p/sample.htm

I forgot all about that..

[Young]

Classic adderall rant. Haha. This is awesome.

Whenever I take adderall I get this deep too.

[CaptainHowdy]

I rather remain unproductive ...

[L-Pink]

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[videoscribe]

You say Adderall helps you... Good... People are always looking for medications with nice side effects. They are trying to choose the best meds and best prescriptions. No racing thoughts - sounds good. They are trying to focus to be less distracted with less attention deficit. They can try meditation. Get basic life skills and get advanced life skills. Ideally, don't smoke and don't drink. Think about learning of teenage years to use it in later years when you are in your 20s, 30s, 40s or 50s. Avoid trouble. 220gal oceanic fresh water aquarium - pretty cool shit.

[DWB]

I can buy just about literally anything by walking into any pharmacy here in Thailand, even every steroid in the book, but Adderall is illegal. Go figure.

[Helix]

Candies of fun

[MrMaxwell]

Originally Posted by videoscribe

You say Adderall helps you... Good... People are always looking for medications with nice side effects. They are trying to choose the best meds and best prescriptions. No racing thoughts - sounds good. They are trying to focus to be less distracted with less attention deficit. They can try meditation. Get basic life skills and get advanced life skills. Ideally, don't smoke and don't drink. Think about learning of teenage years to use it in later years when you are in your 20s, 30s, 40s or 50s. Avoid trouble. 220gal oceanic fresh water aquarium - pretty cool shit.

I was never a medication seeker.. I always was very against people who tried to take antis and everything else... much less street drugs, you know?? Then I was late last year convinced to try this Adderall - and I'll be damned if it didn't work - and the book about adhd described me so .. well ..

You see I always thought adhd was made up bullshit (they told me I had add when I was a young child in school.. I blew that off... hell they told EVERYONE that, back then.)

The only "self medicating" I've ever done was with alcohol and nicotine

[Emil]

Originally Posted by MrMaxwell

I forgot all about that..

Do yourself and your liver a favor and order it today.

[bigluv]

You're the same old loser that avoids buckling down and doing any work and your "life story over the coke in the bathroom" isn't deep. Sorry to tell you this. You need to shut the fuck up and get a job and learn some life skills. Self employment isn't for you.

[epitome]

How many doctors did you to through to get it prescribed to you?

Come to think of it, do you even have a bottle with your name on it?

Weird how you can afford the doctors and scripts but need help with everything else.

[CyberHustler]

[baddog]

Originally Posted by MrMaxwell

Agreed.. but I ain't one to journal or whatever it is

You should blog, I am sure the drug companies will come clamoring wanting to advertise on it.

[SwirlsGirl]

Originally Posted by MrMaxwell

Man.. this is fucking amazing.. I hadn't had any for some time and WoW.. It makes a huge difference!! I guess most people speed up or get a high from amps?? I am able to focus in and sit still and do something!!! No racing thoughts, no climbing the walls with big ideas unable to do anything about them, etc.

It does make me want to talk at certain moments. I don't feel like actually talking to anyone. That said- I'm going to write some things here while I can still articulate my thoughts into anything coherent. I welcome any insight or comments or insults.

I actually do think that some of that intelligence I had when I was younger may still be there.. I drank a lot of it away (not in terms of knowledge- but in comprehension and stability when it comes to a train of thought)

Believe it or not- and I know I come off as a real regular crazy person or outright moron, on here, at times.... I use to be pretty damned brilliant.. I use to come up with ways to make money out of thin air. It was unbelievable.

There are definitely life skill issues. Structure issues. I left school at age twelve. I was surrounded by older children, in school, because I skipped several grades. I did glean a lot of wisdom from older people as I never really was a child.

What I'm saying is, while the normal children were out enjoying hurting themselves and peeing everywhere, I was sitting around with old white people or young black people learning all kinds of shit.

My first hustle was pencils. I was ten or eleven and all of the kids collected pencils. Inviting all of the GFY penis jokes with the word pencils, be damned, I thought I'd speak on that. Well. Write on it.

Until a few years ago I was able to adapt to any environment. Able to "get my way". I even took over a house at age fifteen when my father ran away. I ran it and paid everything for several years. It was a modest home in a middle class area, but I had some pretty cool shit. 220gal oceanic fresh water aquarium, enclosed patio with two little fountains, huge garage with two automobile doors, the cars I wanted etc..

Sigh. Well... All I cared about was money. How I could protect what I had, how I could make more, etc. The concept of investing for the future was something I did think about but one I didn't do much toward. I regret that, now. With the money that passed through my fingers I could have retired, by now.

I didn't discover women until I was thirteen. I did show an interest in them from age six when I use to video tape them on the beach. Especially their butts. I didn't even know or seem to wonder about why I was doing that, at the time.

I didn't really realize how interested I was in women until I was thirteen. I had discovered naked women being extremely interesting when I was twelve (that was my first time successfully descrambling pay TV - and I made a fortune doing so, at that age- all of my own volition, all my idea, all on my own)

I didn't have my first girlfriend until I was FIFTEEN.. never really tried to find one or cared to because I had learned to jerk off when I was twelve, anyway. LoL. My first girlfriend was TWENTY SIX and she was amazing. But she wasn't my first love. Just amazing at blowjobs and sex. And my FIRST TIME I lasted AWHILE - because I had a dick vibrator I had been using since I was twelve and was use to jerking off for hours (NOT A DILDO, you simple minded clowns, but I will "take" the jokes I know you'll make.)

So I'm a young white kid who's only ever been accepted by crusty old white people and young black people.. and I'm more wi****ed out than you can imagine. Driving Cadillacs, carrying a pos jennings, dressing like a moron (but never sagged my pants- ever- EVER) and the whole bit

Well and then when I took the house over, I did have a woman by then.. my woman turned on me after a few years AND I discovered alcohol all at the same time. That was a big deal to me. I am very loyal when I am close with a someone(and apparently to my passion-alcohol). Not long before that my best friend got sent for 20+. Things like that. It was a tough time. I guess things went bad for a few years.

Alcohol has been a problem, since. It probably always will be. I was sober except for twice for MANY months until a couple of weeks ago and it got me into serious trouble.

After that first woman turned on me I didn't really think of being close with one for five years. Women became just blowjobs/sex, to me, and whatever they would do for me. I had some kind of spoil me- I have to admit that- and during my drunken years there were some pretty ugly and disgusting ones. It is a wonder I don't have every social disease possible.

That said, I've also had some of the most desirable women in the country. I'm not sure why but I've always had a way of managing to attract women so far above my league it's outright ridiculous.

So I am tired of writing now and in closing I'd like to say that if anyone has ever loved money, made quite a bit, and then lost the love for money - but still needs to earn a living - please give me any tips you've got. When and if I have my "money spark" back I know that I can live well.

If I could do it as a teenager- I can do it now- and without doing anything "two bit"- or is that what I need, to go back to doing exciting interesting things and just "be what I am"?? It's a confusing time in my life.

I've never cheated any person or taken ONE DIME from the government like most people do when they go broke and hit bottom. . I've never stolen, except from huge huge companies.. I know I've done SOME wrong, but I have also helped MANY people in MANY ways and I ultimately mean the world well

Then end .. for now

Cool Story bro...LOL I can relate I remember years ago having had too much to drink one night partying with some friends and the night was young only 11:30 pm and I was like...

"take me home to get some sleep I feel sick and don't want to party no more"

Well a friend said here take this it will get you back to life and back in the game....it was aderall...

I took that shit and literally within 5 minutes I was like where the party at mother fuckers??? it had me feeling active...excited...focused...sharp... but that was the only time I ever tried it and it was almost 10 years ago

[PornoMonster]

Originally Posted by Jesus H Christ

You need to get off that shit immediately, then kick your doctor in the nuts. Adderall is an amphetamine, a refined form of speed and the long-term side effects are brutal.

Trust me, having the same problem for most of my life. You know, the horrible student, zero focus ability, and then later depression. The only way I cured it and truly change my life was through a ALL natural diet. This means NO refined foods or liquids especially dairy products. If you're lucky, some ADD sufferers are merely allergic to types of refined foods, especially food coloring.

It's tough to go all natural, but was fortunate enough to have the medical insurance needed and lived in an area with world renown treatment centers for people with the variants of ADD and depression.

Stattera- is a far better drug as it's NOT a stimulant. It's incredibly expensive, but with a plan a much better workable recovery. This drug will NOT fuck with your sleeping pattern, the main side effect of Adderall. Not having a set sleeping patten eventually leads to OCD, depression, and then of course, antidepressants.

By having the right diet and medical plan truly changed all in my life. In 2006 went all natural, lost 70lbs, quit drinking, later smoking, and well, made more money in the last 6 years then the previous 20.

Don't get me wrong, you'll stumble in the beginning, but if you can get past the first month you'll feel and see the natural changes as the biggest frustration currently, waiting so long, if I only felt/got this relief 20 years ago?

The only downside. It's a $200 a month prescription and you must work a plan and it does take time to find balance as dosages will decrease. When I started, $600 a month with insurance. My ultimate goal was to get completely off it. Sadly, I tried just going all natural thinking I am cured, 2 weeks later all the symptoms slowly came back.

So you are currently taking, Stattera?

[bigluv]

Originally Posted by Jesus H Christ

The only downside. It's a $200 a month prescription and you must work a plan and it does take time to find balance as dosages will decrease. When I started, $600 a month with insurance. My ultimate goal was to get completely off it. Sadly, I tried just going all natural thinking I am cured, 2 weeks later all the symptoms slowly came back.

Not that I disagree with avoiding chemicals and processed stuff, but this here is some really bad logic.

If you go 'all natural' and symptoms stay, and go on a medication and symptoms go, then its the medication not the diet. It's quackery to then tell people "GO ALL NATURAL and take medication".

[epitome]

Stattera made me feel disconnected from the world. It was so odd. It's back when I worked in a regular office and I'd find myself sitting there at like 9:30 completely confused about where I was. I also felt like I couldn't talk to other people, that nobody would understand me. So odd.

So I stopped everything. I figured if I made it through life all of those years without medication I would be fine.

I wish there were an adderall that let you easily fall asleep. Lower doses didn't do anything I needed and higher doses wouldn't let me fall asleep and I'd finally fall asleep at 4 or 5 and my alarm would go off at 7. I became a zombie

[selena]

Originally Posted by MrMaxwell

I was never a medication seeker.. I always was very against people who tried to take antis and everything else... much less street drugs, you know?? Then I was late last year convinced to try this Adderall - and I'll be damned if it didn't work - and the book about adhd described me so .. well ..

You see I always thought adhd was made up bullshit (they told me I had add when I was a young child in school.. I blew that off... hell they told EVERYONE that, back then.)

The only "self medicating" I've ever done was with alcohol and nicotine

You do realize you are talking to a bot, right?

Next up...I'm just a sexy girl.

[selena]

Originally Posted by Jesus H Christ

You need to get off that shit immediately, then kick your doctor in the nuts. Adderall is an amphetamine, a refined form of speed and the long-term side effects are brutal.

Trust me, having the same problem for most of my life. You know, the horrible student, zero focus ability, and then later depression. The only way I cured it and truly change my life was through a ALL natural diet. This means NO refined foods or liquids especially dairy products. If you're lucky, some ADD sufferers are merely allergic to types of refined foods, especially food coloring.

It's tough to go all natural, but was fortunate enough to have the medical insurance needed and lived in an area with world renown treatment centers for people with the variants of ADD and depression.

Stattera- is a far better drug as it's NOT a stimulant. It's incredibly expensive, but with a plan a much better workable recovery. This drug will NOT fuck with your sleeping pattern, the main side effect of Adderall. Not having a set sleeping patten eventually leads to OCD, depression, and then of course, antidepressants.

By having the right diet and medical plan truly changed all in my life. In 2006 went all natural, lost 70lbs, quit drinking, later smoking, and well, made more money in the last 6 years then the previous 20.

Don't get me wrong, you'll stumble in the beginning, but if you can get past the first month you'll feel and see the natural changes as the biggest frustration currently, waiting so long, if I only felt/got this relief 20 years ago?

The only downside. It's a $200 a month prescription and you must work a plan and it does take time to find balance as dosages will decrease. When I started, $600 a month with insurance. My ultimate goal was to get completely off it. Sadly, I tried just going all natural thinking I am cured, 2 weeks later all the symptoms slowly came back.

Even though Straterra is a non-stim, it made me jittery as fuck. I don't know what caused it, but I just couldn't take it.

What kind of diet are you on, if you don't mind saying...I mean an example of what you eat in a usual day?

[anexsia]

Originally Posted by Emil

Tried Kratom yet? http://www.drugs-forum.com/forum/sho...d.php?t=155762


Buy a sample of Bali, indo and thai. (no extracts!) Try each one of them. Find what you like best and what works for you.
http://www.thekratomking.com/Kratom_...s_p/sample.htm

Funny you mentioned Kratom, I'm actually feeling nice off some Bali from TTH right now

[garce]

yay. cool.

[asdasd]

[Emil]

Originally Posted by anexsia

Funny you mentioned Kratom, I'm actually feeling nice off some Bali from TTH right now

Bali is my favorite too. Thai is nice when I need the extra boost of energy, works much better than coffee. Indo have never really worked good for me. But I cant use any of them because the retarded government banned it in Sweden.

[shimmy2]

dominican pussy has the same effects and i dont need a prescription

[96ukssob]

Just eat a bunch of bananas and drink water, you will get the same effect!