Since having gone to an md psychiatrist, and having him completely totally ignore everything I said, everything my sister said, everything my woman said, and having him say I was "bipolar" which is the absolute opposite of my symptoms and then give me a medication that half killed my ass when I tried it one time... then to call the guy and have him recommend I just take some more..
Thanks to being almost a carbon copy of my sister, and her being put on something that helped her immensely,
I've found medication that works for me. Works well.
I am focused, able to stay on task and get things done, think clearly, deal with one issue at a time and I am all around FUNCTIONAL.
I always believed ADHD was MADE UP and just an EXCUSE and BULLSHIT in spite of being diagnosed as a young child. Well. Here is where I now stand. I think ADHD is a diagnosis they throw at far too many people, but, in some cases it is VERY REAL.
For YEARS I have climbed walls every day wanting to do things that I need to do. I have known what needs to be done, but instead of doing these things, I would pace around going half crazy thinking about doing them. I would believe I was going to. I would lose focus and change tasks 100 times. I would be a nervous fucking wreck.
People thought I was lazy! People who had seen me in the past doing amazing things though I just "wasn't trying any more". In the past couple of years I started to think of myself as "defective" and I would say again and again "I don't know why I can not do anything.. I know how to do things, I have a lot of talent"
Knowing that you have the talent and knowledge but not knowing how to make yourself use it is like being in a prison cell. But you are holding the keys. But you can not will yourself to walk over and open the god damned door.
You need to research your symptoms and find help. You need to seek help, even if you are like me and you lived your whole life shunning the very idea of not doing everything yourself. I have learned that we can not ALWAYS do it ALL. You have to find out what is wrong with you and know if and when your doctor is FULL OF SHIT.
Thanks to being almost a carbon copy of my sister, and her being put on something that helped her immensely,
I've found medication that works for me. Works well.
I am focused, able to stay on task and get things done, think clearly, deal with one issue at a time and I am all around FUNCTIONAL.
I always believed ADHD was MADE UP and just an EXCUSE and BULLSHIT in spite of being diagnosed as a young child. Well. Here is where I now stand. I think ADHD is a diagnosis they throw at far too many people, but, in some cases it is VERY REAL.
For YEARS I have climbed walls every day wanting to do things that I need to do. I have known what needs to be done, but instead of doing these things, I would pace around going half crazy thinking about doing them. I would believe I was going to. I would lose focus and change tasks 100 times. I would be a nervous fucking wreck.
People thought I was lazy! People who had seen me in the past doing amazing things though I just "wasn't trying any more". In the past couple of years I started to think of myself as "defective" and I would say again and again "I don't know why I can not do anything.. I know how to do things, I have a lot of talent"
Knowing that you have the talent and knowledge but not knowing how to make yourself use it is like being in a prison cell. But you are holding the keys. But you can not will yourself to walk over and open the god damned door.
You need to research your symptoms and find help. You need to seek help, even if you are like me and you lived your whole life shunning the very idea of not doing everything yourself. I have learned that we can not ALWAYS do it ALL. You have to find out what is wrong with you and know if and when your doctor is FULL OF SHIT.
But he is going back to a different doctor soon 
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