wanton poetry: 'not for the faint of heart'
 

Cherries
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watch this:
she squeezed her lips together with just the tip
of her tongue sticking out of one corner

that's what mine looks like, sometimes it sticks out a little more but mostly it's in there hers is a big bump because she's 'italian'

we had to stop dating because we're both like 19, I mean we're madly in love and everything
but we wanna grow up a little. you shoulda seen the problems it caused
when we held hands in public. mostly the old ladies got upset.
maybe they had daughters and we worried about it. who knows?

so I dated this guy for 4 months, well we were together for 2 months and seeing each other for 2 months but we lived together for 1 month. he never got a job. he worked at the movies when we met. he said he couldn't get another job because he had a criminal record.

we never had sex: got a disease before we met and never went to the doctor. I told him I would take him, but he always said he would take care of it.

he really knew how to treat a girl. he was the best boyfriend I ever had. when he left he stole my car. I had to file a police report . . . .
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science fiction
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after my brother killed himself my mom kinda freaked out'
yeah, my dad got depressed too. so I didn't wanna like go ask for food to eat
so that's when I went into porno

I found him, at first I thought he was asleep,
but he didn't even get up to piss or anything for over 2 hours
he was all pale, with blood dripping out of his nose, he used a shotgun
his nose looked kinda weird, sorta mashed.
he shot himself in the chest

it wasn't even that messy, when we cleaned out his room,
we had to turn the mattress sideways to get it out the door
the blood just went: drip, drip, drip
we had to moved because of the memories

I'm not really too interested in doing much more porno though . . .
kinda boring and everything, mostly I sit home a read. the bible
it makes my mom happy, but I'm kinda scared I'll burn in hell
because everything I like is wrong.

so anyway I'll have my dad drop me off for the next shoot
do you ever fuck the girls you shoot?
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Family matters
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. . . So I slipped my finger a in
and snapped a few pics . . .

"I used to think sex was dirty, but I've been working on it, I'm 32 now"
"yeah? how's that"

"well I got abused by my dad's boyfriend when I was a kid"
"that's terrible, how did that happen?"

"I think my dad was always gay but when my mom died, daddy
moved his boyfriend in about a month later, I was 10 and my sister was 3"
"how's your sister?"

"she's fucked up too."

When I put my dick in her hand asking her to make me hard, she froze.
we stopped the shoot . .