Family Porn Problem
 

The first time I ever saw porn... or at least I could recognize as pron... was during a garage sale for my grandmother. My grandfather had passed away and my grandmother was selling the house and all of her old crap. I came across a box of playing cards. The images on the cards were not of the normal pictures. They were of naked ladies. Later I was to find out from some of my older cousins that my grandfather had always had porn magazines and such in his office.

Then skip forward a few years. My family got the internet and as any young curious boy, I found porn. At first it was just sort of a curious "I know I'm not supposed to be looking at this" sort of feeling but it eventually grew into more.

Being a computer geek, I was also able to find out that my father had been viewing internet porn. I wanted to know for sure so I used a program called pcAnywhere to both see what he saw on his screen and if I so chose to, take over his computer entirely. I had blocked a few of the sites he regularly went to so I saw him bring up Yahoo and search for other sites. Immediately I took control of his computer and typed "Dad please stop." Then the computer shut off and I heard him pacing back and forth upstairs (I lived in a modified basement at the time).

We never spoke about it. But now I've seen the effects strongly in my life. I've become addicted to porn.

Occasionally I can get a stronghold on it and stop for a few days, a week, even a month at a time but it ALWAYS comes back. I've tried getting help from friends but more often than not they look upon it as a "sensitive subject" and never are faithful to hold me accountable.

I don't know what to do. I saw that this site has an accountability program but I know myself and I know how to find ways around those things so if the temptation became too hard, I know I could just fool the system.

I just feel lost. I feel that I can't do God's will because of this thing hanging over me constantly.

I found a wonderful girl who I have every intention of marrying once I can afford the ring, but I wonder how I can be a husband (or right now a good boyfriend) if I'm constantly cheating on her with internet porn. I don't want to be like my father and sometimes I asolutely hate him for this family curse.

I just don't know what to do.



// Sheesh. That was from http://www.*********.com/forum/topic.asp?TOPIC_ID=14984

People are strange!

I feel bad for the kid...ANYTHING that consumes our thoughts and effects our work, relationships etc is a problem....but addiction..NOT

Perhaps the church and its imposed guilt are more of a problem than the "porn"

On a lighter note..I'm wonder if the ********* will post the picture set Brandi and I just did with one of their shirts " Jesus Loves Pornstars Too" :thumbsup

Looking at porn on the internet is cheating on your girlfriend??? is it ...

It defiantly can be considered an addiction like gambling ..

he could've had more fun than 'dad please stop' though..

like 'son, please stop' :)

You do have a point i guess.

"sometimes I asolutely hate him for this family curse."



religion is far worse than porn... look at this poor fuck, something so natural is bent into making him hate his dad... I'd feel bad for him if he wasn't such a cocksucking zealot.. any kid of mine that hijacked my computer to stop me looking at porn would be grounded indefinately.

what's wrong with those people? Addicted to porn?? i'm on my computer almost all the time looking at porn & i'm not addicted. :1orglaugh :1orglaugh


but GFY is an addiction.. we need GFY'ers anonymous

I was actually pretty good friends with a pastor who was addicted to porn. He lost his marriage, his church and all of his money to porn and he had to move to hell. I mean California.

But then a lot of people have lost more than that to heroin, gambling and horses.

I play the porn game and horses and I haven't lost too much. I sure have lost a lot of nickles to those Arizona Indians though..

I guess I recognize when too many nickles is enough nickles for a while.

Some people can't.

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He should become a sperm donor. He'll be a millionaire in a year...

do you think they'll see the hits in their server logs & come over & try to convert us & make us repent from our evil ways :1orglaugh :1orglaugh ........

where's theo the theologian.. he's a pretty chaste man & he like porn too :1orglaugh

Yea, that internet porn is a bitch. i'm sure god will understand.

Yeah thats the typical Religeous preaching now a days.

They think porn is a "Drug" of some sort and it is "Addictive". Thats what clergy are telling people these days, and you know how it goes.

If it is said enough people will believe it.

he should just put a gun to his temple and blow his brains out

just another dumb surfer i rather not have at my porn sites

Dont you realize that story is complete bullshit to pluck heart strings. He got pc anywhere and could control his dads pc. What horse shit if you ever used pc anywhere you know its not a sleath program.

Yeah I went through the board.

Its all weird back scratching shit kinda "Trollish" to drive curiousity.
Its a stunt board to drive interest from the film and drive sales is all.

There is no way that thread was authentic.

did you see how many posts there are on that site?

Just that section.

I went somewhere else...
On the site:

Check this out.


"I have thankfully beaten my former addiction to pornographic material. Thank the lord. I think my friend has the same problem I have, but is unable to break its awful grasp. I have talked to him about prayer and God and he seems interested, but then I talk to other people and find out differently. He recently graduated from college, and because of his horrible addiction he is unable to find a decent job. Is there anyway that I can approach him or is there any thing to do. I need help, because he is a great friend and person but has lost his way. please pray for colin, he needs all of our prayers and Gods help. Please help me help my friend!!!!!"


These people are really fucked up...

These are the same idiots that put out a movie called "Missionary Positions" are they not? :1orglaugh

Naughty1 you are exactly correct:

"Perhaps the church and its imposed guilt are more of a problem than the "porn" "

Thats what it is.

hahah 'dad please stop' hahaha
my dad watches alot of porn, i guess he;s addicted, i'm just addicted to making money from it :)

Anyways this bores me.

Next topic.

:1orglaugh WTF!! :1orglaugh :1orglaugh
i see porn all night & i get up every morning & go to my job at the office :1orglaugh :1orglaugh They're fucking WEAK!!!

The real problem is they're addicted to stroking their cocks..hmm.. i'm gonna go to one of their rallys with boxes of fleshlights & sell em... hehe

Amazing how these so called religious people are so "addicted" to internet porn that they can't get a job. What the hell are they doing? Staring at porn 18 hours a day? Jerking off 5+ times a day? I still don't understand what the hell they are doing.

if he ran a TGP he could make money and buy a ring for her.

An addiction, sure. cheating... Well thats a stretch. I had a girlfriend who accused me of cheating whenever I masterbated. I told her, I'm just keeping things in tune for ya. Besides, if you'd give me sex everytime I wanted it I wouldn't have enough extra energy left to masterbate. Sometimes masterbation is even preferrable.

Earlier I said "problem" I did not say "addiction"....an important distinction especially as the US government holds hearings on our industry...

From: The Baron Edmond de Rothschild Chemical Dependency Institute -NY

Definition - Relationships and Distinctions: Addiction, Physical Dependence & Tolerance

Per the recently published consensus document from AAPM/APS/ASAM

Addiction: A primary, chronic neurobiologic disease, with genetic, psychosocial, and environmental factors influencing its development and manifestations. It is characterized by behaviors that include one or more of the following: impaired control over drug use, compulsive use, continued use despite harm, and craving.

Physical Dependence A state of adaptation that is manifested by a drug class specific withdrawal syndrome that can be produced by abrupt cessation, rapid dose reduction, decreasing blood level of the drug, and/or administration of an antagonist.

Tolerance A state of adaptation in which exposure to a drug induces changes that result in a diminution of one or more of the drug's effects over time.

:1orglaugh

Exactly, I don't believe a guy would seriously be waiting around for his dad to jerk off so he could IM him.. it's just really disturbed even as a made up story.. way more creepy and disturbing than dad using porn.