jayeff |
05-30-2004 01:57 PM |
I work in this business because my health doesn't allow me too many options: none where the money is so easy. But I'm like a fish out of water and because of that, although I have earned reasonable money, not near as much as I have earned in the past.
First off, even way back when I was collecting debts with a baseball bat, I went to work in a suit and tie. I very rarely use bad language and even if I dislike someone or think him a fool, I am usually courteous. I have principles, particularly about things like honesty and loyalty, that I will not sacrifice even when it costs me money.
That's who I am and I wouldn't be comfortable any other way. I also dislike hero worship - IMO no one is better than the NEXT thing they do - and I can't stand bullshit. There is a huge amount of both in this business.
So I don't network and I'm under no illusions about what that costs me. If that weren't enough, the appeal of porn is a mystery to me. I enjoy women in the flesh, but what a picture is supposed to do for me I never figured out. I doubt until I got into this game that I had so much as opened a copy of Playboy since I was a teenager visiting my barber. So it's the first time in my life I ever tried to sell something I wasn't a customer for.
I think you could safely say all that prevents me from achieving more than a certain success :)
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