I came home last night from Bible class...
 

I came home last night from AGAIN from taking the children to their Wed. evening Bible class and from my Bible Study to the usual of finding my husband sitting in front of the internet pouring over the porn. (He spent all of Friday and Saturday night watching porn movies and every night this week on the net.) He had got home after I had left and stayed on past me putting the kids to bed. After I had put the kids to bed I had to run out for a quick errand and when I came back my son comes running outside to meet me!! In his pajamas! My husband didn't even know he was up! I was so mad!!

No time with the kids even after work, just home and right on the porn.

I have been torn between taking the first step towards leaving and really wanting to keep trying to make this work. But I just don't think I can do it anymore. I decided last night to take the small but first step of opening myself up my own Post Office box so I can receive my mail there. That way I can open up a savings account in my name only and have my statements sent there so He will have no idea I am saving up money to leave. I fel kind of a sense of relief now at knowing I am doing SOMETHING.

My impulsive side just wants to pack up the kids's clothes and leave RIGHT NOW but then my sensible side tells me that I have no family and nowhere to go and NO MONEY and that I need to have a plan and take this slowly.

Isn't this awful, I am a 41 year old woman, sneaking around. I have the main page for this Board hidden in my "Recipe" file so I'll be able to have someplace to go to where people understand and now I'm secretely opening a PO Box and a savings account.

Would you believe I left my first husband because of his porn addiction and married my current husband because I thought he was a strong Christian? We have been married almost 6 years and this didn't come out til almos 4 years ago. The more things change the more they stay the same.

Thanks for listening guys.

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ummm, or put out more often and you won't have to leave.................

how about she will start giving the man some action....that might help

You have me confused. You are upset he is looking at porn and you spend your time on a Porn Webmasters board? What am I missing here?

Estelle,
That's what it will take. As with smoking, as with guns. It will be the only way that the porn industry can be fought. They are attacking people in a far more blatant way than the tobacco firms ever did. Their aim is pure addiction - and it ruins lives.
Here's to the first class action.
Bob


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and Tobacco is not addiction?

how stupid can you be ? :)

Didn't we do this shit yesterday?

Posting on that board works. Listen to this:

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So Wednesday was last day of my abstinence. 40 days of being clean from
porn&mb and you can guess what was my trigger today.
Now I feel very @#$&! and I know that I lost a big
chance to get out of this hole. I didn't feel very well for the last few
days, no one called me, nothing important happened, had few arguments with
my parents, I didn't pass driving license exams, they didn't want my article in the university newspaper,
the girl who I hoped to meet with refused (and she'll be away
from my town for 2 weeks) etc. Finally, I went to a pretty boring party on
Wednesday evening and said few things that I later much regretted. After
the party I was
coming back home alone on foot quiet long way, I was drunk and thinking how pathetic I was and I nearly cried ("poor me" syndrome I guess).
Today morning I turned my computer to check this site as always
and found all these spams and avalanche started. I know I should blame only myself but I'm sure that If I
hadn't seen all these stupid posts I wouldn't have had a slip. Anyway, the most stupid thing that I did today was following this link to the board from which people sent spams here.
Now I have to concentrate...If I don't have a slip in next few days I can probably treat this one as an accident but now I'm not sure what will happen in next few days. I will have 16 days of holidays now which I will spend at home, most of time alone.... I don't know, I think I need some optimism now.

idioteque


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free advertising baby!!

this shit will never end

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BUSTED

nope

BUSTED a nut

:)

I sense a chargeback coming

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Are you looking for a new man? I'm 18 years old and *very* sexy.

for some weird reason i can't reply there, only post new threads

yes.

no offense, but you shouldnt fuck with people's lives. would you take an alcoholic to a bar? or someone with a gambling addiction to vegas? no. well, you might, but anyone with at least a few morals wouldnt.

just because we sell porn doesnt mean we have to be ruthless assholes. is that 1 or 2 extra signups really worth your time to go and spam some self-help board for people who truly do not want to look at porn anymore? why prey on people who feel that porn is an addiction thats hurting thier lives? just let them be, there are plenty of people out there that dont share their opinion, who will join our sites & look at our stuff, without ripping thier families & lives apart.

:2 cents:

what's the pay like in the morality police?

i sleep at night.

btw, not policing, just stating an opinion. if you choose to spam & mock people who are suffering, thats your business.