The straw that broke the camel?s back
 

Well if you have been reading the I quit blog, you will have an idea of where this is going . It's been a few days I guess since I made that post, and I haven't been able to recover or stand back on my own 2 feet. It phsycially feels like my back is broken. I have been in this industry for 5 years now and I never thought it would end up like this of being in a shit load of debt, being sued by bill collectors and worried day in and out if I will eat or be able to get to school.

I have no idea what is out there for me anymore , but I do know is as for minnieholly.com that website is dead and there is nothing in this world to rerive it. Am I quiting the business all together I have no idea. but I do know I can not exist another day with being strained to coutinue on with minnieholly.com I really don't care what else happens to me since I have walked away from minnieholly.com because there is not a damn fucking thing those fuckers can do to me they have done enough damage to me already the only thing left they can do is kill me. In one sense they have already done that.

Now I have to spend some time figuring out how bad my financial situations is, and see if there is anything left to repare. but in my proccess of reparing myself there is no way in hell will you see my face on minnieholly.com what is there is what they have and FYI if the website does happen to update those photos and videos are over 3 years old. I will like to see what bull shit they come up with trying to make thier money back with that website. because you will never see any weekly cam shows of me the real me and you will never see any new photos and definitely you will not see any new videos. So if they decided to finish the website and your stupid enough to join it knowing with this warning I have made that the website will not coutinue then your stupid.

I have already heard the bull shit keep your head up, and hang in there speech over a million times I am not interested in getting emails or comments from anyone about it. I have no idea what is going to happen to me for the rest of the day or month. but I do know I can't exist another day with this dark cloud over my head. it has to end now. I know with streamray saving my ass with that $100.00 I got from them I can slowly rebuild my life doing webcam shows if you want to see me you can find me there. but you will never see me my new face on this website ever again.

the reason is posted here is because I figure I am already down on the groud so there is anything much anyone here can say to make me feel better unless they actually want to help rebuild what is left of my spirit of wanting to be in this industry or they are just going to be a jerk with thier " I told you bull shit" so if they are that pathetic to kick a person when they are down let them do it not a damn fucking thing left to kick out of me.

You should stick with being a webcam model for a while....and make some
money before you get yourself into something else again.....being a porn
model and being a porn business owner are 2 very different things.....but
I guess you found that out already....stick to cams for the time being and
start learning the ropes of running an adult business before you get into
any of that......change your attitude and become a bit more humble there's
a lot of good people in this bad just as there's a lot of bad people in this
biz....finding out who belongs to which group is the tricky part.....don't feel
sorry for yourself and don't blame others for this failure...never forget you've
been part of it yourself by making the wrong decisions.....now stop crying
about it get yourself together and start fighting to get back on your feet.

Giving up and rolling over is the easiest thing....you haven't lost anything
until you decide to give up.......so show the world who you are and get off
your ass and start fighting......that will earn you a lot of respect and respect
goes a long way in this business.....good luck!

:thumbsup

never give in, never relent.

just do us a favour and please don't start a donation thread. not sure what the situation in your area is but maybe getting a part time job just as a safety net wouldnt be such a bad idea. Atleast that way you have a guaranteed income coming in every month.

I haven't found one in over a year, so a part-time is never goign to happen.

Right now I just feel numb and completely exhausted, no you don't my situation and I am tired of repeating it. and to go out and look for a job when I haven't found one in over a year does not help the current situation just makes it worst.

As a bit of help, you might check out this thread, for the data entry stuff:

fucking-around-and-business-discussion/801086-content-provider-seeking-data-entry-personnel-marketing-director.html

Hope it all works out for you. ~hugs~

who is the "you" and "your" you constantly refer to?

i stopped highlighting them but every other sentence is a point the finger at "you" or becxasue of "your" shit etc...

who is this mysterious person causing all the problems?

I think the "you" she is referring to is http://www.xesnetwork.com/

I could be wrong but it seems that way to me ...

this is quite a weird read: http://blog.minnieholly.com/?p=148

is it a guy posting this or has minnie got a wife or .... am i confused? is she confused? ..... are YOU confused?

This is good advice, But you can do both.
Keep the cam thing going for more stable money.
and make then days about 32 hours long, 11 days a week if you have to.

webcam shows is what I have been doing while the damn wig gives me a rash.

The you is www.xesnetwork.com even thier affiliate program hasn't been running in over 3 years so if you guys attempted to the join it i am sure it won't go through.

www.minnieholly.com/ccbill I don't who has tried that but I was suggest that you don't if have I think you have lost your money.

and as for the wife reference you really have to know me to know what I was talking about there.

I have applied to every job under neath the sun even jobs that are more damaging to my mental health. job placement agencies, even jobs that say I need my high school diploma hoping one of them won't really need me to have it soI can get hired.

sent out my resume sometimes to even see them rip if up right in front of me a struggle with thinking and lying to myself I am going to get a job today its over a year I haven't found one so my only option is to deal with the rashes I get from wearing a wig and do webcam shows.

the wish of having my website will most likely never happen with how damanged I am right now I really doubt anyone really wants to take me on regardless if there is a new ebony solo girl niches out there that might actually be doing well I just won't be apart of it

and the bull shit of acxtually doing my website never going to happen like Ia m really going to struggle trying to take pictures of myself do you remember the nightmae bull shit of the websites camgirlminnie.com and minniesoporno.com there is a reason they look the way they do because I do not havet he man power to do them.

3 years and the site isn't even active and able to be sign up for?

Damn, even I work faster than that.

Sorry to hear about your troubles.

rookies could have got you up and running by now..:disgust

Am I still drunk or does anyone else have a hard time following this?

if you worked as a cam girl all that time say like on private camz you wouldnt have a debt problem.

Contact bangbros/nasty dollars for work.

http://www.starwaymodels.com/

Get your ass down to Miami and film for a couple of weeks.

Sorry to see you down and out.

You are a pretty girl. There is no reason you shouldn't be making money doing cam shows. Don't let 1 person or entity control your life or destiny. This is a great lesson for you to have multiple sources of income, networks and businesses running. This is the internet age. You know that...

Keep your head up girl and channel this bad experience and kick some fucking ass.

I am not American. and to kill myself to go a country by myself is not worth it.

STFU.. you dont know this.

The days of "every" cam girl making crazy money are done.

You have to work your ass off to get traffic and pretty much be willing to do the most fucked up degrading things the girl next door wont do or be the perfect looking little teen that alls the customers want to do is "protect" their innocence

I was never so happy to quit that shit.

Good luck girl, it's not easy transitioning into the real work world.. but it can be done.

dont give up....get your site with someone else

hell there are 100 guys on here that could have your site up and working in a week

Minnie, who own the rights to your content?

I was wondering what was taking your solo site so long. It's a shame because an ebony solo girl site can make money if it's done right.

I own nothing related to that site. , and with all the companies who claim they could get my site up and running in 3 months or whatever they are telling me they are all busy, if there is anyone out there who isn't busy. and i know an ebony site can make money but there does not seem to be anyone who actually wants to make one.

3 years?? That's fucked up..

So what are you trying to do now? A softcore solo girl site?

Contact occash!!!!!!!!!!!

Tell them you want to work with them to take over your site.
They could buy the site and start shooting updates with you.

Occash has littlecoco.com so all the webmasters that are pushing that site would put your site in thier mix in no time!

That seems like easy money for both you and occash!

Right now just webcam shows, as for the website status I have no idea what I want to do with it anymore, and as for OCcash they would rebuild a whole brand new site for me and I will be stuck being exclusive. and with how much damage there is right now I am no position to shoot anything.


no one wants a make-over project.

You are the problem yourself.......good luck to you and everybody who's
stupid enough to try and help you......:2 cents:

minnie, hitting you up on ICQ now..

Doing 30 shoots for occash for one year exclusive beats the fuck out of not getting any work.

If they offered you that and you didn't take it then you are not a smart girl.
I have known you for years and we have spoken on ICQ many of times (years ago) But if OC offered you a deal like that then you better jump on it. No buts or ifs, if you want out of the mess you better stop whining and start taking action. Opportunities like that don't fall in your lap every day.

Why are you afraid of being exclusive, if you're unable to find work anyway? I hear ya girl, but no matter what, if you cannot run your own site (which very few models do alone) you're better off sticking to camming or try college (financial aid).

OC Cash is good stuff, Little Coco rebills great and you'd do great with them should the opportunity present itself.

Good luck!

sorry but i have to.

i wish companies would be willing to throw money at my naked ass and i could sit back and turn it down...

no offence to any females in this industry, but some of you have had more opportunity thrown at you than any guy could or has ever had in this game. many companies wouldnt even give a male any time of day like this... "oh im broke and i got fucked over" - they would be turned away... guys are competition, but a wounded female is like helping Bambi.

know this, if you were a guy, people would be laughing your ass off the board and to a day job.

i would take whatever OC would offer me.

I'm not trying to sound like a dickhead or anything but you should really stop feeling sorry for yourself. It won't get you anywhere. Sure life may not be easy but it's not easy for anyone. Everyone at one point or another had to go through rough times, and the only way to get out of them is to stand up and fight it, don't point fingers even if they can be justifiably pointed, for every finger you point at someone else there is 4 more pointing back at you.

I'm proud of you, because leaving is the first step for you, you had enough courage to say fuck it, even if it was at your lowest point, that is the first positive to come out of it! Now just start contacting a whole bunch of content shooters & programs etc looking for some work. You may be turned down but eventually you're gonna get someone saying yes! Babe ruth was a legend for the hits he made, but what people don't even care about is that he was also the strike out leader. You strike out in life everyone does, but what people remember in you is those times you got back up and hit a homerun.

You have heart and thats something not a lot of people have these days, you care about the people around you I see that when I talk with you, now it's time to put YOU first. YOU can do it, & you will do it.

That's what happens when you cross your pimp.....

Tell ya what...I'll fly you to where I'm at and give you 100 for a blowjob to completion on film...No joke.

The fact that $100 has you so excited should make you realize that things really aren't as bad as they seem. I know that $100 can sure seem like a lot, but it isn't... that's nothing. You can do much better than that. You are a very sexy girl and you seem to have quite a personality, make it work for you.

You will never get anywhere blaming somebody else for your current situation, regardless of whether or not it's their fault. Take some accountability, realize that you may have made some mistakes, learn your lesson, and take the next step toward success. You have it in you, we all do.

The first step is looking inwards.

Minnie, you should take help where it's offered. It sounds like you are so down and out that you have painted yourself into a corner in your mind. There are people here who can help you set up a site. Why don't you take a day, step away from the computer, and think about it. Not everyone here is a stupid idiot who will lie to you and waste three years of your time on a site that never gets done.

Don't refuse all the help now...you may wish you'd taken it later.

Cool, i'm contacting them now. 7000 dollars for a weekend is nice.

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I offered t help her via ICQ... she has a horrible attitude nd told me she dont give a shit about traffic and sales



shes better off finding another line of work

Who said crazy money I said pay her bills. Before going off think first.Also if you had to work your ass off to get traffic then you were with the wrong cam company. My wife has done cam on and off for over 8 yrs.Im not speaking out of turn.

Translation : You offered shit money and told her you'd pay more based on traffic and sales and she laughed out loud in your face before politely declining your offer.

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