AlienQ is melting down again lol - copied from another board

[iMind]

Found this on another board, not " The " other board .. but a medium sized board heheeh .. interesting read

I guess he doesn't have his cobra, and his guitars and all those other lies he always spouted off about here..

You almost feel sorry for him reading it, but then you remember how he did this before and just came back stupider than ever after..

The Meltdown you all wanted. I quit.
I will never post again on boards, I am leaving the industry. Officially. I won't be comming back, I will find my way some how doing something else I hope.

It's over and done. Kaput. I rather fucking stuff my face in toilets full of shit than deal with this industry anymore.

This industry is cheap, full of scum and dedicated to the most inconsiderate evil minded people I wish I never heard of. I had a strong stomach for the biz for a long time, I tried to be strong every step of the way, I watched the biz rise and I watched it fall to an agonizing death of free porn and I still stayed with it for as long as I could hoping I might make it, somehow get ahead anything something just to buy myself some shoes... I am wearing the same shoes I wore 5 years ago for gods fuckign sakes, I am a loser, I am everything you people say I am. I have failed at life.

I see guys stealing from each other daily now like fucking animals and when I become a victim of it things must be getting more worse than I thought. I am broke enough but now to contend with even worse sorts of people has just gottin to be to much. I find myself working 10 times harder for 10 times less and each year it gets worse and fucking worse. Being a designer has been pretty fun at times and challenging but there is anomosity at every corner so it seems for 2008, the pay is for shit and the competition to even find business is far to aggressive and I will be honest I can not handle it anymore.

There is nothing to be happy about in this business, nothing positive, nothing that makes me proud. I have built nothing of consequence yet from time to time felt I had a great idea. I wish I got a good shot in this business something that would have put me ahead so I could reinvest but never did I get that break.
I kind of had a half shot at one time and I put it into content production, I failed of course as people did not buy my content, people talked shit about my photography, this industry put every heart and soul against me no matter what I tried to do.

I had some promising things only to be taken out, priced out and ultimatly just unplugged right before my eyes and rest assured each time I went to the drawing board in tears hating myslef for failure. Sure they are just excuses to some of you. GO ahead say it. I am a failed guy and I know it now. I am beatin I got no shame in saying so. I always worked for someone and undersold myself in hopes that I could just be accepted. Every smile I made every hand I shook seemingly always regarded me as some kind of enemy or afront and I just wanted to have a life like anyone else.

I have wasted my life in this industry that has no fucking heart, no fucking soul and I could have done much better anywhere else doing anything else. IN short it has made me a very angry person, inside I hate you, and as I kid I was not taught to hate. You people taught me to hate, and I could not express it any other way. I began to realise that no one wanted to be my friend. I had people use me then spit on me the same day. You do not got friends in this business you just think you do but when the dollar falls on the table all bets are off. I helped many people in this business when they were on hard times only for them to turn against me for a buck. You people on the boards got to me you won. All I have ever gottin was disrespect from the folks in this business, taken for granted and shit talked while I was just trying to make a living. Thats awright.

It's Chrismas 2008 and like many chrismas times for years now I have nothing. I am used to it though and I know shouldnt be. But I am. What do I got this year?

Nothing. Literally nothing. I got no presents, I got no tree, I can not get gifts for my family, hell I hardly even have a family as they hate me for even being in this business and wasting my life in it. My wife she can not handle being this poor anymore. She will be leaving in January to live with her parents and maybe find a job where there might be jobs. I am almost 40 now and I started when I was 18. I did not get the smarts I should have got. But I thought I knew it all, I thought I knew better, I thought I was more clever just like many of you do now. Little did I know this business has many many obstacles and way to many no win situations.

I will be lucky if I actually get a decent meal, hell maybe not even enough for my Electricity or Internet bill so I will be dropping offline shortly sometime. I do not got a car, I only got a small house and thats all I have in my life. NO fire wood either and it's gonna be snowing here next week I got no doubt. Not that I expect a fucking soul amoung you to give shit, infact I expect you to laugh just like you laugh at every tragedy that confronts you. Disparage me some more have fun stabbing at me and talking shit about me leaving. Be glad I am gone from this business. I know many of you will be and you never even knew me.

Enjoy your fucking Chrismas you pieces of shit. I will be starving, I am already starving all I had today was some soup. Pretty pathetic right? GO ahead and laugh its OK. I will be alone and I will probably be crying to, so I hope it makes you all happy I definatly got what I deserved from this industry. I got nothing I lose you all win. SO keep on rolling you fuckers and hopefully one day you will know that that someone dedicated his life to creating and trying to fit in with all of you is going out in the most miserable dispicable way ever. Broke, poor and no one to talk to and absolutly nothing to turn back to.

I will be poor, I will be broke, I will have no retirement I will have absolutly fucking nothing to show for my lifes work. Except one little house that is empty, and certainly fucking so cold that I will most likely not sleep at all. I hope to die alone forgotten and absolutly not worthy of mention for a shit. It's what I deserve. I look forward to dieing now. I really do. I am ready.
I do not care anymore.

I would like to thank you all for wasting my life and sucking everything I ever put into this business just to shit on it. I thought I could have been a good person and a great guy. I am not. I have turned into a fucking disgusting excuse for a person that is certainly insane and unstable. I got no problem admitting it now. I am everything you thought I was and worse.
My faith in Humanity is gone so fuck you thanks for teaching me the truth the hard way...

[Jon Clark - BANNED FOR LIFE]

oh snap.....

[tony286]

I hope he is just being dramatic for effect. I like Alien.

[The Duck]

holy shit, kinda sounds like hes begging between the lines.

[WarChild]

No sympathy for the guy at all. I myself even told him several times over the last few years that he was on the wrong path. Oh no though, Alien knew better. Didn't want to hear it. Well, he's at the end of his path now and he has nobody to blame but himself.

[Spunky]

He's leaving again?

[iMind]

I hope he is just being dramatic for effect. I like Alien.

Of course he is .. this is his way of begging for work
He'll be back again, in full stride, just like a few months after every other posts like this he's made over the years.

If he learned to code, he'd actually make some money..
Any monkey can work with photoshop now adays, the code is where the money is, Functionality

[Darkland]

Dude sounds like a spoiled brat... Nobody makes you fail but yourself, he is definitely pointing the finger at the wrong person.

Do what most normal people do, go get a job, he didn't even mention trying that. Just because you can't do what you want to doesn't mean you can't do ANYTHING at all. I remember back in the day I worked 3 jobs just to make ends meet. You see many people doing that today?

I saw an article on a couple people on CNN who were jobless and their solution was to stand on street corners with resumes attached to themselves. I mean WTF! In this world of denial of self responsibilty they actually think they are doing their best and if they fail it is someone else's fault because they let people know they needed a job. I think their time would be much better suited in APPLYING for a job than waiting for a fucking hand out.

It is no wonder this country is going in the shitter...

[FabianC]

Hey Mark ... We fall so we can learn to pick ourselves up again, no shame in that. Shoot me an email if you need some wood & food for the winter ... I'll paypal it over to you.

[Spunky]

After finally reading all that,I hope he finally realizes it's dog eat dog and if it ain't working move on to something else.It would be great if I knew all the answers and not had to work for the man.but I knew when I was 12 ..eat or be eaten.I worked with my hands.builds character.most people in this industry would starve if they had to resort to it

[BusterBunny]

buster was here

[StuartD]

Hey Mark ... We fall so we can learn to pick ourselves up again, no shame in that. Shoot me an email if you need some wood & food for the winter ... I'll paypal it over to you.

Extremely generous

[jwerd]

His designs aren't half bad (a bit outdated in terms of style and functionality), I think most were just critical with him because of his board persona(s). In anycase, I hope someone can float him some work and keep him going. He's been a designer for a long time, and if someone could push him to learn to code with more divs and CSS he could easily get more work... it's his bashing on css / div / anything new and used that doesn't get him work

[Va2k]

Hey Mark ... We fall so we can learn to pick ourselves up again, no shame in that. Shoot me an email if you need some wood & food for the winter ... I'll paypal it over to you.

wow dude, if you're 100% real on this I then applaud you! I so disagree with the thread starter it's sad on many levels that to feel good about yourself you have to make fun of others that are down and out on their luck! Very sad!

I hope things work out better for you AlienQ

[Juicy D. Links]

buster was here

jdl wuz here

[2012]

[Sly]

Alien has always been his own worst enemy. He has had so many chances and opportunities. I have known several other people like this in my life and in the end it turned out that they had mental issues, schizophrenia.

Alien, perhaps you should find a way to talk with a doctor? They may be able to help you. Good luck.

[iMind]

wow dude, if you're 100% real on this I then applaud you! I so disagree with the thread starter it's sad on many levels that to feel good about yourself you have to make fun of others that are down and out on their luck! Very sad!

yeah I posted this cause I feel bad about myself

I posted it cause he's done it time and time again, without learning a single thing.
the first time I read this same style thread ( 1 year ago tops ) I felt horrible for the guy, and then watched as he came back full steam ahead spouting all the same bullshit..
bragging about stuff he clearly doesn't have, and went on and on about how great he was...

Sorry, but someone like this deserves every thing he gets in life until he fixes HIMSELF.
had me made a genuine effort to fix his practice, and wasnt on here spouting off for the last year about how great he was after posting a thread very much like this before, I'd have NEVER posted this here... but fact is Alien is a 2 time loser... he'll make no changes, and after enough of you feel sorry for him, and shoot him some cash so he can make it thru the Xmas season, he'll be back in the new year doing the same shit all over again.

[EXPORT]

jdl wuz here

I wos teh heres

[Spike D]

Dude sounds like a spoiled brat... Nobody makes you fail but yourself, he is definitely pointing the finger at the wrong person.

Do what most normal people do, go get a job, he didn't even mention trying that. Just because you can't do what you want to doesn't mean you can't do ANYTHING at all. I remember back in the day I worked 3 jobs just to make ends meet. You see many people doing that today?

This should be required reading of every kid from preschool on up...or as soon as they can read...

[WWC]

Too long to read...not worth it

[DWB]

Well... he DID invent meltdowns.

I'm just sayin...

[Ice]

What is sad is I like Mark as a person. When I lived in LA we hung out a number of times, had a few beers and away from a computer he is a great guy... fun to be around, great conversation about our industry, etc. I don't know what happens when he is alone in his office that turns him crazy.

He is a good designer when he wants to be. At one time I would have said he was one of the top five in the industry. I know all the people dropping prices pissed him off where he didn't care anymore and started turning out cookie cutter sites just to make money.. and even his idea of cookie cutter were better then the rest.

I think he needs someone to manage his design business. If he had a front person that talked to the people, took the orders and told him what needed to be done... he would do very very well. They also have to tell him to stay off the boards and let them deal with the customers and board responses. As much as you love working for yourself, I think you need the 9-5 "job" part of it to keep you focused.

Mark if you read this... I didn't want to ban you again here but you left me no choice. I wish you the best and if I can help you know I'm a phone call away.

Believe in yourself and your ability.

[Jarmusch]

AlienQ invented being poor.

[Oracle Porn]

some people on this board have no human properties.....
this is sad.

[Iron Fist]

AlienQ invented being pathetic. Who seriously posts thier life story on a public board for all to see anyways? Sheech...

[chupachups]

Wrote a long message... erased... most have been said already. Get a 9-5 job Mark - just for awhile. Earn some money and provide for yourself - get a perspective.

[Spunky]

some people on this board have no human properties.....
this is sad.

What do you think is "human properties"? going for walks in the park?

[DaddyHalbucks]

We've all hit rock bottom at some time(s) in our life; I hope he can make a comeback.

[budz]

"Many of life's failures are people who did not realize how close they were to success when they gave up."
- Thomas Alva Edison


dunno if this applies here,.. but I like the saying

[selena]

We've all hit rock bottom at some time(s) in our life; I hope he can make a comeback.

Ditto that.

[stickyfingerz]

What is sad is I like Mark as a person. When I lived in LA we hung out a number of times, had a few beers and away from a computer he is a great guy... fun to be around, great conversation about our industry, etc. I don't know what happens when he is alone in his office that turns him crazy.

He is a good designer when he wants to be. At one time I would have said he was one of the top five in the industry. I know all the people dropping prices pissed him off where he didn't care anymore and started turning out cookie cutter sites just to make money.. and even his idea of cookie cutter were better then the rest.

I think he needs someone to manage his design business. If he had a front person that talked to the people, took the orders and told him what needed to be done... he would do very very well. They also have to tell him to stay off the boards and let them deal with the customers and board responses. As much as you love working for yourself, I think you need the 9-5 "job" part of it to keep you focused.

Mark if you read this... I didn't want to ban you again here but you left me no choice. I wish you the best and if I can help you know I'm a phone call away.

Believe in yourself and your ability.

Well said Ice. I like Mark also, but he gets carried away on the board stuff, I used to do the same shit, but learned to pull back, and its not worth it to argue about stupid shit sometimes.

[lazycash]

I think he needs someone to manage his design business. If he had a front person that talked to the people, took the orders and told him what needed to be done... he would do very very well. They also have to tell him to stay off the boards and let them deal with the customers and board responses. As much as you love working for yourself, I think you need the 9-5 "job" part of it to keep you focused.

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That would probably work, but for years on here Mark has always felt that his board persona brought him business. He assumed that all his pissing matches, crazy rants and immature namecalling was drumming up new business for him, when in reality it was creating someone that nobody dared do business with. By the time he realized that nobody wanted to work with him, he didn't know how to change his board persona.

He's also never been able to just be himself on the boards, he's always felt he has to portray himself as somebody he isn't in hopes of being accepted. Last year he was begging for work claiming he was being evicted and had no money for food. Then a couple months later after many tried to help him out, he turns around and tells everyone he's bought a new house and with all his money in stocks he's retiring and doesn't need to work again. I tend to think these long drawn out sob stories are just another ploy to get new business or donations from those who feel sorry for him.

[Mutt]

that's pretty sad if it's true - but i don't understand, he's been posting about all his toys - cars, guitars - and now he says he's been wearing the same shoes for 5 years?

Alien is not untalented - and he's right on about a lot of things about the industry - he needs to put blinders on and just go about doing his own thing. No doubt the guy has some real issues that I bet nobody really knows about, you don't spill your guts out on a Internet messageboard unless you do. He feels somehow that he deserved huge success in this business but he fails to understand that none of what he has done in the past 10 years is work that anybody becomes a millionaire from. He's a walking talking dichotomy.

i do feel bad for him - some people are too sensitive for the world. they wear their hearts on their sleeve.

[Barefootsies]

[lazycash]

that's pretty sad if it's true - but i don't understand, he's been posting about all his toys - cars, guitars - and now he says he's been wearing the same shoes for 5 years?

Alien is not untalented - and he's right on about a lot of things about the industry - he needs to put blinders on and just go about doing his own thing. No doubt the guy has some real issues that I bet nobody really knows about, you don't spill your guts out on a Internet messageboard unless you do. He feels somehow that he deserved huge success in this business but he fails to understand that none of what he has done in the past 10 years is work that anybody becomes a millionaire from. He's a walking talking dichotomy.

i do feel bad for him - some people are too sensitive for the world. they wear their hearts on their sleeve.

Very well put, right on the money.

[JaneB]

Damn I feel bad for him. It does not matter if you like him or not. No one should find happiness in another persons failure. He really sounds depressed and so sad.

[BusterBunny]

meh nevermind

[quiet]

same old, same old.

[Doctor Dre]

I have not once the guy say any positive comment about anything, he's always bitching and moaning about everybody's business, thinking he knows better...

You reap what you sow

It sucks to be him, but you can't help people who don't want to help themselves.

[Matyko]

imo it was not a nice move to copy this post to gfy...

[andy83]

that's a looooong post

[bdld]

[Doctor Dre]

The guy is just always comming with a knife in somebody's elses gun fight. He's often right, but he's always useless.

The only person he has to point a finger too is himself.

I wish the guy well...

[d-null]

it would be nice to see him be unbanned here, he was integral

[Paul Markham]

Mark, ICQ me I have some design work you can do.

[2012]

like someone else said he needs

* a css guy
* pr guy to deal with the clients

of course the creative guy can't deal with people
just focus on the design bingo success



but then he needs a pr and css guy with thick skin ...

[Drake]

We've all hit rock bottom at some time(s) in our life; I hope he can make a comeback.

[iMind]

imo it was not a nice move to copy this post to gfy...

Yeah well, to be honest I didn't know he was banned.. I figured it was posted on the other board to avoid the GFY flames..

[JamesK]

Truth to be told, he's a stubborn motherfucker. He never listened, always pretended like he knew best. He always talked shit on the boards. That's no way to get business. When you get design clients you don't give them advice about anything other than design, that's how it fucking works.

Even though I never liked the guy, I feel bad for him. Nobody deserves to go down like that at that age. AlienQ if you're reading this, I suggest you learn some CSS/XHTML, start developing new styles and start designing again, under a new nickname and with better behaviour. Trolling won't get you anywhere, acting professional will.

Good luck.