2006 vs 2007 - GoFuckYourself.com

eroswebmaster · 12-31-2006, 12:48 PM

My 2006 was not that great...things did not work out as planned or hoped for.

I was offered a job with the Professional Poker League, and because of the rider that was passed on the port securities bill earlier this year that has been put on hold.

It was something I had been waiting on for quite some time, it was going to be an exciting adventure working with some of the top names in poker.

But 2007 is starting to look like a really interesting year. I just landed a job on the Fox Sports Networks Poker Dome, and I will be having gastric bypass surgery.

Everyone on this board who knows me, or has ever met me knows I am not just fat but I am morbidly obese.

The surgery is costly *25K-30K* and with all major surgeries there is an inherent risk. But I have weighed the costs, and I have come to realize that there is very little chance without such drastic measures that I will be able to improve my quality of life / health.

There are those who think such surgeries are cop outs, and yes they do have a point. However, I have come to realize that there are deep seeded issues I have with food. Issues that may be corrected over time with counseling / therapy, nutrition classes, but at 40 I honestly don't know if I have that kind of time left.

When you have issues with food, it is something you can't avoid. If I was an alcoholic I could avoid bars, or friends who drink.
Family wouldn't bring home 6 packs of beer and leave them lying around the house.

However, with an eating disorder, you are constantly barraged with images of food, if not food itself. You can't get away from eating. Beer does not keep you alive, but food does.
Family and I'm sure most here would share the same belief just can't quite see how having cake, pie, cookies etc. lying around the kitchen could ever be the same as leaving pain killers on the counter for a drug addict.

Over the last year my health has deteroirated to the point that I will probably be in a wheel chair within the next year or two.
I am not diabetic, my blood pressure is somewhat high *120/90*, but nothing immediately life threatening, although I'm on my way there.

The problems I am having involve bones, joints and muscles. Earlier this summer working at the WSOP I did some serious damage to my left foot, I can hardly walk. There are times where my entire body hurts like hell to sit here, or even lie in bed.

So exercise while not completely out of the question, is very difficult. My new place has a swimming pool, however it is not heated.
I am looking forward to the summer so I can at least get some kind of non-impact exercise going in the water.

My current weight is 325, and my height is 5'6". By this time next year, I could be down to 220.

As a teen, and young adult, I was always slightly overweight. I'm talking about 15-25 pounds, I would go up and down.
I think about how much shit I caught from people who called me fat ass then, and now I am longing for a day where I weigh 200, which would be 45 pounds over my desired weight.

Anyway, I am apprehensive, but I am excited about regaining my life back. I plan on posting by this time next year some amazing before and after pics.

I am out...have a Happy Safe New Year!

Cary

CaptainHowdy · 12-31-2006, 12:56 PM

Best of luck with the surgery, eroswebmaster! You are still one of my favorite posters

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12-31-2006, 12:48 PM	#1
eroswebmaster March 1st, 2003 Join Date: Jul 2001 Location: Seat 4 @ Venetian Poker Room Posts: 20,295	2006 vs 2007 My 2006 was not that great...things did not work out as planned or hoped for. I was offered a job with the Professional Poker League, and because of the rider that was passed on the port securities bill earlier this year that has been put on hold. It was something I had been waiting on for quite some time, it was going to be an exciting adventure working with some of the top names in poker. But 2007 is starting to look like a really interesting year. I just landed a job on the Fox Sports Networks Poker Dome, and I will be having gastric bypass surgery. Everyone on this board who knows me, or has ever met me knows I am not just fat but I am morbidly obese. The surgery is costly 25K-30K and with all major surgeries there is an inherent risk. But I have weighed the costs, and I have come to realize that there is very little chance without such drastic measures that I will be able to improve my quality of life / health. There are those who think such surgeries are cop outs, and yes they do have a point. However, I have come to realize that there are deep seeded issues I have with food. Issues that may be corrected over time with counseling / therapy, nutrition classes, but at 40 I honestly don't know if I have that kind of time left. When you have issues with food, it is something you can't avoid. If I was an alcoholic I could avoid bars, or friends who drink. Family wouldn't bring home 6 packs of beer and leave them lying around the house. However, with an eating disorder, you are constantly barraged with images of food, if not food itself. You can't get away from eating. Beer does not keep you alive, but food does. Family and I'm sure most here would share the same belief just can't quite see how having cake, pie, cookies etc. lying around the kitchen could ever be the same as leaving pain killers on the counter for a drug addict. Over the last year my health has deteroirated to the point that I will probably be in a wheel chair within the next year or two. I am not diabetic, my blood pressure is somewhat high 120/90, but nothing immediately life threatening, although I'm on my way there. The problems I am having involve bones, joints and muscles. Earlier this summer working at the WSOP I did some serious damage to my left foot, I can hardly walk. There are times where my entire body hurts like hell to sit here, or even lie in bed. So exercise while not completely out of the question, is very difficult. My new place has a swimming pool, however it is not heated. I am looking forward to the summer so I can at least get some kind of non-impact exercise going in the water. My current weight is 325, and my height is 5'6". By this time next year, I could be down to 220. As a teen, and young adult, I was always slightly overweight. I'm talking about 15-25 pounds, I would go up and down. I think about how much shit I caught from people who called me fat ass then, and now I am longing for a day where I weigh 200, which would be 45 pounds over my desired weight. Anyway, I am apprehensive, but I am excited about regaining my life back. I plan on posting by this time next year some amazing before and after pics. I am out...have a Happy Safe New Year! Cary __________________ For rent - ICQ 127-027-910 Click here for more details

12-31-2006, 12:56 PM	#2
CaptainHowdy Too lazy to set a custom title Industry Role: Join Date: Dec 2004 Location: Happy in the dark. Posts: 93,574	Best of luck with the surgery, eroswebmaster! You are still one of my favorite posters !