really happy?

not to dig too deep, but we've all seen the "why cant i find a real girl" threads.

sometimes its the shallow people we surround ourself with that dictates our outlook on things around us.

i know that i appreciate having a strong female in my life, and i notice that many guys here who are immature when it comes to women or surround themselves with fake souls - end up being pretty lonely and unhappy themselves.

just an observation, nothing more.

we are all miserable fucks. make the best out of this shithole world and have a good life.

after seeing my family shredded because of this hurricane i know i am thinking about things alot differently, and material things have never meant less to me than they do now.

Yea, I thought I was the only one, I always wonder while I'm driving, what it would like to speed off a cliff going 80mph or crashing into the center meridian on the freeway doing 120mph, but of course those are just thoughts, and I would never be dumb enough to act on them.....

I have an amazing Girlfriend right now. and a beautiful daughter who has filled that void for me now the past 2 1/2 years. woman will always be a pain thats just the way it goes. but I did get lucky and find the best girl ever..

Read my Ambush LOL I understand :winkwink:

What I worry about the most now is how my daughter is going to End up becasue she is going to be a gorgeous woman one day:( I'm buying a shot gun now.


I really do think i have a great life. but I still have wacky thoughts
I really thought they were normal..

I wonder why we have these thoughts?

How about when your flying I bet you think of the plane crashing and you being the only survivor

Everytime I'm in the air, I think of that, what it would be like...... I always THINK about the worst case scenario and for some reason I get off on it..... it's very strange...

Roger, you can't do that yet, we have not had our hot roof top moment yet....so please don't leave us yet, I hate cumming alone babe.........xo

have done on a bad e comedown

I have but not in a suicidal way, more like, "what would happen if i just snapped the wheel to the left?" way.

no, i don't...that's called paranoia, you know...

I'm not going anywhere Baby I have many more Oats to soil :)

they are just thoughts that run through my mind like when we do it in the stair case or the roof top:winkwink:

Thats what I really meant.. Suicidal was a bit harsh of a word

You basically wrote exactly what I was going to write.

The vast majority of this industry is composed of souless & broken people, it is the nature of the beast. The hurt is compensated for (covered up) with ego, ho's, cars, etc.

roger, we are going to party this weekend.

Theres this car game on the XBOX: Burnout 3 Takedown. The point of the game is to make the biggest crash; the bigger the crash the more points you get. So during the game you slam into semitrucks, school buses, and tons of cars. After playing the game for hours upon hours and get into my real car - its as if im still in the game. When i see a school bus filled with children or a gasoline semi truck i almost unintentionally slam my car into them... its scary sometimes...

I'm going to Houston then Atlanta this weekend. but next weekend is fine :thumbsup

Ain't gonna help, brotha!

:2 cents:

We both have daughters now and life has changed dramatically...

So, that being the case here's a good question for you to think about ...

Do you want your daughter to end up with a guy that "keeps his pimp hand strong!" and is bangin' 2 chicks at the same time with the odd 3rd and 4th random chick thown in every once in a while for good measure?

The reason I ask is because of a conversation I had a few weeks ago with a mutual friend of ours. He was telling me about all these chicks he's been bangin' the past year and that ultimately, when it comes down to it - his life really sucks ... and more than anything - he's really just lonely.

Then he proceeds to tell me about this HOT 17 yr old girl he met randomly at a gas station and that "obviously, he wouldn't touch her until she turns 18 in November - BUT then it's ON!" I looked at him and said "You're the fuckin' type of guy I gotta worry about keeping my daughter away from, bro!" :Oh crap

Now, of course I'm in the adult business and a hypocrite for making money from selling content of 18 - 19 yr old girls BUT THEN I HAVE TO RATIONALIZE that they aren't MY daughters and MY daughter would NEVER do anything like that because blah blah blah ...

It's a huge moral catch 22 for me these days :Oh crap

the first guy who bangs my Daughter will have his nuts cut off no BS. then the rumors will fly and every guy will be afraid you only have to fuck one up.. :winkwink:

If a guy still has balls to try something without my approval I will cut his nuts off as well. not me peronally but someone will :winkwink:

Also I really think She will want to be the opposite of me and her gold diggin mother.She will be educated and run all my shit one day

Here's to hope, dreams and wishes!

:glugglug

Just have to set an example with the first guy. LOL

no no...not even once! I love my life and still has a lot to do with it. I'm living life to the fullest, life is short!

i used to work at a grandstand when i was a teenager and we'd get up on the roof and sometimes i'd look over, no railings or anything and just imagine jumping. not because i was depressed or whatever, just because it seemed so surreal. that even if i did jump nothing would happen because it just couldn't. stupid thinking really.

though i often think of what little mistakes could of turned into my death while driving. so many little things that could change our lives happen on a daily basis. most people dismiss them or laugh but there are many times i could of died if one little thing would of went differently.

Actually I always think about the hot girls on the plane and how would it be to bang one of them.... on my last flight i got drunk with a chick and made out with her....only to find out she has a bf.....bla fucking bla....

LMAO :1orglaugh that shiot is funny out of all the times I've flown I've only met and hooked up with one girl.

That would be hot to make out with one you just met. Don't get me wrong if the opportunity arises I will jump on it.


When i used to be an A&P tech for the airlines I would bang flight attendants all the time on layovers