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Man.. I thought I had it bad. I don't have the massive amounts of cash you guys do, but I'm in a bullshit situation with the only girlfriend I really ever had/cared about.

About 9 months ago, I lost my job. I was working for $50k/yr doing bullshit linux/perl stuff at some bullshit corporate 9-5 job. You all know how the economy fared for tech workers, especially ones with less than 4 years experience in the field. Things were allready rough before that, just fighting a lot, as she'd get pissed over EVERYTHING. I mean shit, I'd stay at work an extra half hour to get some shit done, and she'd not talk to me for a day or two. Or I'd grab the wrong kind of whatever product from the store for her, etc. Just general immature fucking bullshit. I should note, that we do have a kid. Great little guy, 9 1/2 month old angel who is loads of fun to be around, the only thing keeping me going right now.

Anyways, I digress.

So, I lose my job. I was expecting her to fly off the handle, which she actually didn't right away. I think she figured I'd be working the next day since the year or so before that I had to practically fight off recruiters with a stick. After about 3 months being out of work, she started the nagging of "why don't you get a job". No matter HOW many times I explained to her I'm making double the money working at home on freelance stuff and my fledging adult "career", she'd still get pissed and tell me to get a $7/hr bullshit deadend job. Finally I said fuck it, and was going to. But wait, now she said I couldn't because she didn't have anyone else to watch the baby during the day.. I loved having the skills/etc. neccessary to both be home all day watching the kid, and also making (barely) enough to pay the bills and such. But, I'd constantly get the "I'm at work 8 hours a day, and you just sit on your ass in front of the computer doing nothing" thing. This is coming from a girl who fucking lives at home with her parents, has hardly any bills, and any that she does have are paid by me (her $150/mo rent she pays her mom, her cell phone bill, and just baby stuff).

Argh.. Anyways. :) 3 months ago she's like "I need my space" and kept going back and forth whether we were "together" or not. I was cool with this, I needed space too from her suffocating ass, but I still loved her quite a lot. I figured it was just us not getting along very well. But, find out 5 days ago she's pretty much dating some fucking security guard from the store she works, and is a FUCKLOAD closer to him than she had told me. I was fine with her going out to dinner with random guys and such, to make sure of what she wanted. But she wanted to leave me because she was interested in this guy.

The last 5 days have been hell. Havn't eaten since then, and barely slept. Can't get shit for work done.. Not sure what the fuck I'm going to do about bills. I fucking dealt with so much of her bullshit, with promises from both her and her family that she'd get better at dealing with conflict/etc. and things would get better.

Then she says she's going to take me to court, and such for child support, and get "back" child support even though I've spent thousands since she got pregnant. I seriously thought I'd eventually marry this girl.

Oh well, fun stuff dealing with the gammot of rage/betrayal/sadness/etc. all at once. Not sure where life will go next, but I'm not very upbeat.

Strange how you can tell complete strangers on a board somewhere shit like this, when I have absolutely no one to talk to in real life. Sigh.

-Phil