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pushpills · 03-30-2005, 12:09 AM

don't want anything obnoxious in this spot.

killerkay · 03-30-2005, 12:12 AM

My blessing goes out to you, Peaches. Be strong. My condolences.

Marcus Aurelius · 03-30-2005, 12:12 AM

OMG what a horrible tragedy for you and your family. My deepest condolences.

r3ap3r · 03-30-2005, 12:12 AM

My thoughts are with you.

Juicy D. Links · 03-30-2005, 12:14 AM

My deepest condolences

inthestars · 03-30-2005, 01:46 AM

I'm sorry, Angel. My heart goes out to you and your son.

reynold · 03-30-2005, 01:49 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by Peaches

I apologize for the massive cut and post, but I just wanted everyone to understand where I've been and why I will be scarce for an unspecified period of time. If you need anything, please contact [email protected] or [email protected]

Sometime over the weekend, my son took his life while in Misawa Japan while serving in the Air Force. I don't know all the details but when I spoke to him Friday night he was very very drunk, homesick and all around depressed. I attempted to reach him all weekend with no response. I knew no one else to reach there on the weekend but many times his line was busy when I was calling so I am assuming others were also trying to reach him. When he didn't show up for work on Monday morning, they found him.

There are no words to express the devastation I feel and honestly no words of comfort will make it better. I have always said I have the best family, friends and support system anyone could ever wish for the they have been here for me either by coming to the house, via phone, email, running errands, bringing things, staying with me, or just holding me.

He's not home yet and right now there's no estimate. The AF is being very thoughtful and keeping me in contact every step of the way. The best guess is some time next week. We will have a family only honor guard ceremony and then a large memorial service within a week after that in the Atlanta area. I don't want to have it at a funeral home and there will be no casket. I want to celebrate his life, not his death.

Being a single mother with him an only child, he was my life and I will never be the same. I need to spend some time trying to figure out what I plan on doing with the rest of it.

Many of you met him and know what an incredible person he was. He was funny, smart and just the best person I've ever known. But he was clearly upset about things we'll never understand and self medicating with alcohol. I guess. I don't really know. I don't know if I ever will know.

I count many, many people in this industry as my good and dear friends and I only felt it fair to explain my silence and absence. I also thank the handful of people who kept my confidence until I was ready to make announcement.

Hold your children tight tonight. The last thing I told him was that I loved him. I can only hope and pray that he believed me.

My condolences to you peaches.

Love Sex · 03-30-2005, 01:50 AM

My heart goes out to you with sincere condolences.

sean416 · 03-30-2005, 01:53 AM

I feel sorry for you, keep your head up.

Manowar · 03-30-2005, 01:56 AM

My sincere condolences, RIP.

Trixxxia · 03-30-2005, 02:04 AM

My deepest sympathies Peaches - you'll be in my prayers tonight.

titmowse · 03-30-2005, 02:17 AM

I'm so sorry for your loss.

evanmorgan · 03-30-2005, 02:34 AM

sorry for your loss, never sure what to say in this situation

Raven · 03-30-2005, 09:43 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by Peaches

I apologize for the massive cut and post, but I just wanted everyone to understand where I've been and why I will be scarce for an unspecified period of time. If you need anything, please contact [email protected] or [email protected]

Sometime over the weekend, my son took his life while in Misawa Japan while serving in the Air Force. I don't know all the details but when I spoke to him Friday night he was very very drunk, homesick and all around depressed. I attempted to reach him all weekend with no response. I knew no one else to reach there on the weekend but many times his line was busy when I was calling so I am assuming others were also trying to reach him. When he didn't show up for work on Monday morning, they found him.

There are no words to express the devastation I feel and honestly no words of comfort will make it better. I have always said I have the best family, friends and support system anyone could ever wish for the they have been here for me either by coming to the house, via phone, email, running errands, bringing things, staying with me, or just holding me.

He's not home yet and right now there's no estimate. The AF is being very thoughtful and keeping me in contact every step of the way. The best guess is some time next week. We will have a family only honor guard ceremony and then a large memorial service within a week after that in the Atlanta area. I don't want to have it at a funeral home and there will be no casket. I want to celebrate his life, not his death.

Being a single mother with him an only child, he was my life and I will never be the same. I need to spend some time trying to figure out what I plan on doing with the rest of it.

Many of you met him and know what an incredible person he was. He was funny, smart and just the best person I've ever known. But he was clearly upset about things we'll never understand and self medicating with alcohol. I guess. I don't really know. I don't know if I ever will know.

I count many, many people in this industry as my good and dear friends and I only felt it fair to explain my silence and absence. I also thank the handful of people who kept my confidence until I was ready to make announcement.

Hold your children tight tonight. The last thing I told him was that I loved him. I can only hope and pray that he believed me.

We were just talking about him....so recently...I am so sorry to hear this, Peaches....anything you need.....anything....

This is when we, your friends, feel helpless and powerless to help....I'm so sorry to hear this happened.....

quiet · 03-30-2005, 10:04 AM

jesus that's terrible. i'm so sorry Peaches.

TDF · 03-30-2005, 10:08 AM

all my prayers and condolences peaches

TurboAngel · 03-30-2005, 10:08 AM

I'm so sorry hun, I wish there was something we all could say or do to make it all better. If I can do ANYTHING for you hit me up.

StuartD · 03-30-2005, 10:10 AM

I'm very sorry to hear this Peaches... my condolences. I truly have nothing I can find to say at a time like this but at the same time, I know that there really isn't anything that anyone can say that will really help deal with it.

Just be strong.

If it's any consolation... every child knows that their mother means it more than anything when they say "I love you"
No matter what anyone ever says or leads you to believe... they know you mean it.

LeeNoga · 03-30-2005, 10:13 AM

Peaches, just know your loved, and you will be with your son again.

I am sorry to hear of this, and if ever you need anything, we are here for you.

You need time, and the best thing you can do is to take as much as you need.

We love you.

Tom_PM · 03-30-2005, 10:16 AM

Just wanted to express again my deepest heartfelt condolences to you and yours

TheGoldenChild · 03-30-2005, 10:16 AM

Peaches I am truly sorry for your loss-
Having had a best friend who had the same kind or problems I understand this better than anyone.
Please understand that your son was in a lot of pain- now he is in a better place.

I know there is nothing I can do or say that will make you feel any better at this time- but know in your heart there was nothing you can do. I know the feelings of guilt and sadness- I even held myself accountable for many years that my friend couldn't call me or I felt there was more that I can do.

After seeing a therapist about the situation, I now know that my best friend was an undiagnosed manic depressive. There was simply nothing anyone could do.

If you should ever need to talk or just want to speak to someone who has been through what you are going through- feel free to hit me up anytime
760.525.4496.

Losing a child is the worst thing that can happen to anyone- and I feel so sorry for you. I know you are going to be fine babe- and know that celebrating his life is the right thing to do right now. I truly hope throughout this horrible ordeal, that you are comforted by the warmth of your friends and family. I'll say a prayer for you and your son today.

KRosh · 03-30-2005, 10:20 AM

Peaches, I can't even imagine what you are feeling right now. I am very sorry to hear this about your son. The last thing a mother needs to feel is the pain of seeing their child go before them. I offer my deepest condolences to you. I wish there was one magic word someone could say to take away the pain, but as we know, it is only a wish. I can assure that he will always be remembered by his loved ones! Always try to keep the thoughts of the great times you had together. I know that we are not close, but if you ever need anyone to talk to I am here just like the many others that have offered.
RIP

Mrs F.U.B.A.R. · 03-30-2005, 10:47 AM

Peaches, Julius and I would like to express our deepest condolences on your loss. I don't think mere words can express how sorry we are. I remember well how you spoke of him and his new adventure as he was moving to Japan the weekend of the Jamaica trip. If there is anything we can do please let us know. I can only begin to imagine the pain you are in right now.

Sandy

LauraLee · 03-30-2005, 11:02 AM

Beyond heartbreaking, i am just so sorry.
I will continue to pray for you Peaches...

CybermedAndy · 03-30-2005, 02:40 PM

I had a girlfriend take her own life many years ago, my heart goes out to you, its a terrible empty feeling.

Be strong, my heart truly goes out to you at this time.

pradaboy · 03-30-2005, 02:57 PM

my sincere condoleances... I cannot imagine how devastating this must be

RyanL · 03-30-2005, 03:32 PM

Peaches my sincere condolences on your loss

Nathan · 03-30-2005, 03:36 PM

My condolences Peaches. Losing ones own kid is the worst thing I can imagine happening to anyone. I'm so sorry.

Anna_O · 03-30-2005, 03:40 PM

Very sorry to hear that

You have our condolences.

kiana · 03-30-2005, 03:41 PM

so so sorry.

our thoughts are with you.

x

CDSmith · 03-30-2005, 03:44 PM

There are no words...... no words at all. The unthinkable has happened, but just know, Peachy, that everyone here including me are thinking of you and trying to share a small bit of your pain.

Hang in there.

SureFire · 03-30-2005, 06:56 PM

Peaches, I have no idea how to response, my heart falls for you. My prayers are with you.

digifan · 03-30-2005, 07:55 PM

.. sorry for the double post but cannot delete it.

digifan · 03-30-2005, 07:55 PM

My condolences... it must be terrible for a mother.. RIP.

Veterans Day · 03-30-2005, 07:59 PM

WOW that is very hard to read. I know having my own daughter that the love is so deep words can not express or convey the actual feelings you harbor in your heart for your children. My condolences in these extremely trying times

C_U_Next_Tuesday · 03-30-2005, 08:14 PM

my deepest sympathies go out to you and yours ,Peaches. I cant imagine the loss you are feeling right now.

theking · 03-30-2005, 08:21 PM

Words are never adequate when one has an inconsolable loss. Hang tough.

Sosa · 03-30-2005, 09:20 PM

sorry to hear that.

Mr.Fiction · 03-30-2005, 09:24 PM

Very sorry to read this. Be strong.

Tala · 03-30-2005, 09:36 PM

Oh my God.

Peaches, I have no idea what to say or to do, but if there's anything I can do for you please don't hesitate to ask. My number is 931-525-1893 or you can get me at my cell 931-284-9362 ANYTIME.

*hugs*

Digipimp · 03-30-2005, 09:44 PM

Wow I wouldn't even know what to say, I'm sorry for your great loss. I only hope that good will come out of this as crazy at that seems maybe you'll be able to make something great come from all of this experience even though that should be the furthest thing from your mind right now I'm sure. Celebrate his life and the time you had and take that and make great steps forward for the future in his memory.

Doc911 · 03-30-2005, 09:50 PM

Sorry to hear you lost your kid. Sounds like he had some problems. Maybe you should see a Pyschologist or something.

Penthouse Tony · 03-30-2005, 09:51 PM

Deeply sorry about your loss Peaches. My thoughts and prayers are with you.

CDSmith · 04-04-2005, 10:13 AM

In case anyone hasn't seen the update from Peaches on one of the other boards I'm adding it here.....

Quote:

Just a quick note. I'm so filled with emotion reading the boards that my heart is ready to explode. I feel so blessed to be part of such an incredible group of people. I hope John is reading them too so he knows how loved he is.

Right now we are still trying to get him home. Things I want and the family wants change daily but as of now we are looking April 11 (I think that's right - a week from this coming Monday) where we will have a military honors outside at Arlington Cemetary in Sandy Springs and then a catered BBQ picnic where we can all laugh and talk about him and his great life at one of the parks near the river in Roswell/Alpharetta. He will be cremated and his ashes spread in two of his favorite spots - Seward Alaska and a portage camping trip he took through Minnesota. I will keep some also.

All financial aspects are being taken care of by the USAF so no donations are needed but thank you to those who mentioned it. One thing John loved more than anything was soccer. The box with his soccer shoes had just arrived in Japan and he was thrilled. I talked to his soccer coach today and one thing we might do is have a plaque/bench/something in his name on the soccer field. I will give specifics when I know them if people want to donate.

At this point, I keep waiting to wake up and find out it was all a horrible nightmare. But I thank each and every one of you for your thoughts, prayers and love.

I haven't turned on my ICQ so I'm not ignoring anyone, just not ready to deal with anything.

Please feel free to repost elsewhere as this is about my limit on being slightly coherent.

Thank you Cory and WEG especially for understanding.

I will talk to everyone soon.

--------------------

[email protected]

Hang in there Peachy!!

Mutt · 04-04-2005, 10:18 AM

ugh - nightmare is right.

loverboy · 04-04-2005, 10:23 AM

my prayers are with you

JUSTB · 04-04-2005, 10:27 AM

we love you Peaches. Thanks for the update.

Chaldoray · 04-04-2005, 11:08 AM

My condolences goes out to you, even thought i don't know you.

Xenophage · 04-04-2005, 11:15 AM

Peaches you are in my thoughts and prayers !

Much love and hugs in your direction !

Tofu · 04-04-2005, 11:20 AM

we (sarah and I) were updated at the forum as to why you were not with us. mi condolences for your loss.

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03-30-2005, 10:04 AM	#65
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03-30-2005, 12:12 AM	#53
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03-30-2005, 12:14 AM	#55
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03-30-2005, 01:46 AM	#56
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03-30-2005, 01:50 AM	#58
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03-30-2005, 10:08 AM	#67
TurboAngel H.B.I.C. Industry Role: Join Date: Jun 2003 Location: NC Posts: 30,122	I'm so sorry hun, I wish there was something we all could say or do to make it all better. If I can do ANYTHING for you hit me up.

03-30-2005, 10:10 AM	#68
StuartD Sofa King Band Join Date: Jul 2002 Location: Outside the box Posts: 29,903	I'm very sorry to hear this Peaches... my condolences. I truly have nothing I can find to say at a time like this but at the same time, I know that there really isn't anything that anyone can say that will really help deal with it. Just be strong. If it's any consolation... every child knows that their mother means it more than anything when they say "I love you" No matter what anyone ever says or leads you to believe... they know you mean it.

03-30-2005, 10:13 AM	#69
LeeNoga Confirmed User Join Date: Jul 2001 Location: Egg & Sperm Mutation Posts: 3,043	Peaches, just know your loved, and you will be with your son again. I am sorry to hear of this, and if ever you need anything, we are here for you. You need time, and the best thing you can do is to take as much as you need. We love you.

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03-30-2005, 10:16 AM	#71
TheGoldenChild Confirmed User Join Date: May 2002 Location: Pacific Palisades Posts: 6,940	Peaches I am truly sorry for your loss- Having had a best friend who had the same kind or problems I understand this better than anyone. Please understand that your son was in a lot of pain- now he is in a better place. I know there is nothing I can do or say that will make you feel any better at this time- but know in your heart there was nothing you can do. I know the feelings of guilt and sadness- I even held myself accountable for many years that my friend couldn't call me or I felt there was more that I can do. After seeing a therapist about the situation, I now know that my best friend was an undiagnosed manic depressive. There was simply nothing anyone could do. If you should ever need to talk or just want to speak to someone who has been through what you are going through- feel free to hit me up anytime 760.525.4496. Losing a child is the worst thing that can happen to anyone- and I feel so sorry for you. I know you are going to be fine babe- and know that celebrating his life is the right thing to do right now. I truly hope throughout this horrible ordeal, that you are comforted by the warmth of your friends and family. I'll say a prayer for you and your son today. __________________

03-30-2005, 10:20 AM	#72
KRosh So Fucking Outlawed Industry Role: Join Date: Nov 2001 Posts: 5,114	Peaches, I can't even imagine what you are feeling right now. I am very sorry to hear this about your son. The last thing a mother needs to feel is the pain of seeing their child go before them. I offer my deepest condolences to you. I wish there was one magic word someone could say to take away the pain, but as we know, it is only a wish. I can assure that he will always be remembered by his loved ones! Always try to keep the thoughts of the great times you had together. I know that we are not close, but if you ever need anyone to talk to I am here just like the many others that have offered. RIP

03-30-2005, 10:47 AM	#73
Mrs F.U.B.A.R. Confirmed User Join Date: Jun 2003 Location: fubarland Posts: 627	Peaches, Julius and I would like to express our deepest condolences on your loss. I don't think mere words can express how sorry we are. I remember well how you spoke of him and his new adventure as he was moving to Japan the weekend of the Jamaica trip. If there is anything we can do please let us know. I can only begin to imagine the pain you are in right now. Sandy __________________ FUBAR Webmasters Adventures "The next best thing to being there!" Subscribe to The FUBAR Times Here for promotional opportunities contact webmaster at fubarwebmasters dot com, skype: mrs_fubar

03-30-2005, 11:02 AM	#74
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03-30-2005, 02:40 PM	#75
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03-30-2005, 03:36 PM	#78
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