Slight update - GoFuckYourself.com

Sarah_Jayne · 11-25-2004, 05:51 AM

Thanks to pepople fighting my corner. I didn't sleep much but I got an hour or so. I am cleaning out a room so my folks have a place to stay when they get over here in the next day or so. It looks like I won't be able to have the funeral until atleast Thursday since the coroner is required by law to have an inquest since he died so young and without warning. They won't be able to give me a death cert until then and they can't legally do anything with his body until then. I made an appointment to pick up the death cert on Wednesday. They say I can start arranging the funeral inbetween but no one will give me a clue as to the costs and I sort of wanted to wait until my parents got here to start calling places since I don't want to be taken for a ride right now.

I have to say a few things whilst they are on the top of my very clouded head and then I will go back to destructing my house and throwing everything away that I can bare to get rid of at the moment. It is dumb but it is productive and slightly theraputic.

Firstly, Shemp just called me and that moved me to tears. You are a star sir.

Secondly, Baddog - for someone that has only ever once shook my hand and traded a biz card with me you are feeling like one of my gaurdian angels right now. I am not a touchy feely person but if I ever see you again (don't knowt he next biz thing I will be at) I owe you the type of hug only a BBW can give.

Thirdly, I want to thank everyone that is helping me. I didn't ask for the collections to start up and if you ask Todd he will tell you that I felt really bad about it when it started up. However, I would be a total liar to say I don't need it. I read a post by someone on another board saying that I must be getting a huge insurance payout. I would just suggest that person never had to try to get life insurance for a disabled person. He has an old pension from before his accident but he hasn't worked since then and if I get anything (which I might not) it will be maybe a couple hundred pounds. I have been his carer for eight years and I have been the bread earner. I will lose the rent control on this place and maybe the place (waiting to see...I am afraid to make that phone call just yet) and he was recieving diability benefits which to be frank were keeping our heads above water. Add to that what the rate of exchange is with the dollar to the pound at the moment and understand why I am going to be in bad place for a while.

I started to call and do little things like take my cable down to the very basic channels and those guys tried to upsell me even when I told them why. I am going to either take the radio station I run down to the very basic package too or cancel it totally since I don't think I will be able to afford it. Kind of waste of a zillion and one MP3s but he did them all for me and not sure how great I feel about playing them right now...let alone djing anytime in the near future. Though, maybe a tribute show soon..dunno.

Anyway, I am just going on and on when I really mean to say - thank you all so much. You know, I just go through every day waking up and sitting down at my computer for another day of board posting and helping clients and I feel like I am just one name of many. Nothing that special in this industry but atleast for one little bit I feel like people have noticed that I try to be honest and trustworthy.

Oh, and before I go (need to do stuff around the house..looks like a bomb zone) I wanted to also just mention to 12clicks that I cried when I read his post in that my first thread. Politics matter jack shit on a day like today...even though I am pissed Thatcher outlived Marc.

11-25-2004, 05:54 AM

best of luck and lots of strength to you during these tough times...

Forest · 11-25-2004, 05:57 AM

god bless sarah

Marcus Aurelius · 11-25-2004, 05:58 AM

Get some rest and take care of yourself. Our thoughts are with you.

pushpills · 11-25-2004, 06:07 AM

Sorry to hear there's not much of a policy to speak of.

Kicked in a bit, hopefully the contributions will help out some.

God bless.

Roald · 11-25-2004, 06:14 AM

My thoughts are with you, good luck

Harmon · 11-25-2004, 06:17 AM

Stay strong Sarah. Things will only get better with time and a strong will. I wish you the best of luck in this horrible ordeal, and my prayers as well as my family's are with you and your loved ones.

who · 11-25-2004, 06:33 AM

I hope my donation can help to cover those unknown costs you mentioned. Good luck and be the strong woman you know you are.

Va2k · 11-25-2004, 06:37 AM

Damn just saw these threads my heart goes out to you ma'am.. IF THERE IS ANYTHING YOU NEED please let me know and I'll do my best to help you.. If you need somone to talk with hit me up on icq or email and I will give you my number or you can give me yours and I will call.. Good luck and * hugs*
Tom

$5 submissions · 11-25-2004, 06:39 AM

Hang in there, Sarah.

Your friend in the Philippines,
Gene aka $5 Submissions

Head · 11-25-2004, 08:49 AM

If you want to walk some hit me up on ICQ.
145197462
Take care.

UltraSonic · 11-25-2004, 08:57 AM

Hang in there Sarah.
About the radio station - We got some good automatic radio station for mp3 equipment overhere. Let me know if we can help, you can have it for free, we will even take the shipping costs.

Our thoughts are with you.

gornyhuy · 11-25-2004, 10:03 AM

Our thoughts are with you.

Thanks for managing the collection Baddog - I paypal'd ya just now.

Raven · 11-25-2004, 10:40 AM

Sarah.

When PM_Dave suggested we send flowers.....there was a collective sigh of relief that we could do something...anything for you.

What started out as an outpouring of compassion to you took on a life of its own.

We spread the word from board to board because, my dear...you ARE one of us and a great lady.

Please don't feel badly. These contributions come from our hearts and yes, I'm going to speak for all of us....

It's a small token that we give to you....a collective thought.....a tiny gesture.......

Sheri Santiago · 11-25-2004, 01:32 PM

Quote:

Originally posted by Raven

Please don't feel badly. These contributions come from our hearts and yes, I'm going to speak for all of us....

It's a small token that we give to you....a collective thought.....a tiny gesture.......

Exactly. Your class and wit are enjoyed by many of us on a daily basis. It's the least we can do to help you out in your time of need. Our thoughts are with you, Sarah.

Manowar · 11-25-2004, 01:36 PM

My thoughts are with you, hope everything gets sorted out ok

Phoenix · 11-25-2004, 01:40 PM

Best wishes for you Sarah.
I dont really know what else to say, but i can only imagine the loss you are going through.

Please take some comfort that there are people all over the world right now with thoughts of you in their hearts.

SheMale_Eve · 11-25-2004, 01:45 PM

Quote:

Originally posted by Phoenix
Best wishes for you Sarah.
I dont really know what else to say, but i can only imagine the loss you are going through.

Please take some comfort that there are people all over the world right now with thoughts of you in their hearts.

i dont get ! she's pullin off that same scam we pulled off two years ago. wow

Jer · 11-25-2004, 01:47 PM

My best wishes, sarah

Sly_RJ · 11-25-2004, 01:47 PM

Sarah I know you have several AVS sites. If you want to eliminate your hosting bill, let me know and I'll set you up.

There's nothing wrong with accepting the generosity of others. Don't feel bad.

gigi · 11-25-2004, 01:47 PM

Take is easy Sarah....and definitely wait for your parents to get there before starting on anything requiring important decisions.

We're here if you need us.

Tara

Elli · 11-25-2004, 01:50 PM

We wish the best for you, Sarah. Remember that you're not alone.

loverboy · 11-25-2004, 01:51 PM

i'll offer a moment of prayer to guide you along the way

its the only thing I can give

candyflip · 11-25-2004, 01:58 PM

You're in my thoughts today Sarah.

Tala · 11-25-2004, 02:00 PM

Sarah, I can only imagine the agony you feel right now. Thank goodness your family can come be with you when you need them.

Very seldom does a voice stand out to be heard above the din of medocrity, and when it does, that voice remains close to the people who hear it. You have one of those voices. Your intelligence and honest care for your clients as well as for your fellow human beings, (not to imply that your clients aren't human, mind you), radiates from you, drawing people to your warmth and humor.

Someone suggested that I post the entire song I quoted to you in the original thread. Since I can't get it out of my mind, I'll post it for you, and hopefully you can take some small comfort from it as I have taken from it with the death of my best friend's eldest son.

Where do we come from
Why are we here?
Where do we go when we die?

What lies beyond
What came before
Is anything certain in life?

They say, "Life is too short
For here and the now
When you're only given
one shot."

But could there be more
Have I lived before
Or could this be all
that we've got?

If I died tomorrow
I'd be all right
Because I believe
That after we're gone
The spirit carries on.

I used to be frightened of dying
I used to think death was the end
But that was before
I'm not scared anymore
I know that my soul will transcend

I may never find all the answers
I may never understand why
I may never prove
what I know to be true
But I know that I still have to try.

If I died tomorrow
I'd be all right
Because I believe
That after we're gone
The spirit carries on.

Come on be brave
Don't weep at my grave
Because I am no longer here
But please never let your
memory of me disappear.

If I die tomorrow
I'll be all right
Because I believe
That after we're gone
The spirit carries on.

Doctor Dre · 11-25-2004, 03:12 PM

I prayed for you yesterday and today ... hopefully things gets better

I also gave money, but if you need more as I told you on icq, just drop a line

baddog · 11-25-2004, 04:11 PM

You are welcome Sarah, and you are in my thoughts.

Helping with this has been an eye opening experience for me as there are a lot of people out there that are giving, and no matter how little or how much it all comes together to make a pretty nice outpouring of generosity.

To say that I am proud of the adult community right now would be an understatement.

panchodog's izzy · 11-25-2004, 04:41 PM

Sarah, we're all here for you, and I think the response from all the GFY'ers lets it show.

It's one step at a time, okay?

A huge hug...

11-25-2004, 05:51 AM	#1
Sarah_Jayne Now with more Jayne Industry Role: Join Date: Dec 2002 Location: Los Angeles Posts: 40,077	Slight update Thanks to pepople fighting my corner. I didn't sleep much but I got an hour or so. I am cleaning out a room so my folks have a place to stay when they get over here in the next day or so. It looks like I won't be able to have the funeral until atleast Thursday since the coroner is required by law to have an inquest since he died so young and without warning. They won't be able to give me a death cert until then and they can't legally do anything with his body until then. I made an appointment to pick up the death cert on Wednesday. They say I can start arranging the funeral inbetween but no one will give me a clue as to the costs and I sort of wanted to wait until my parents got here to start calling places since I don't want to be taken for a ride right now. I have to say a few things whilst they are on the top of my very clouded head and then I will go back to destructing my house and throwing everything away that I can bare to get rid of at the moment. It is dumb but it is productive and slightly theraputic. Firstly, Shemp just called me and that moved me to tears. You are a star sir. Secondly, Baddog - for someone that has only ever once shook my hand and traded a biz card with me you are feeling like one of my gaurdian angels right now. I am not a touchy feely person but if I ever see you again (don't knowt he next biz thing I will be at) I owe you the type of hug only a BBW can give. Thirdly, I want to thank everyone that is helping me. I didn't ask for the collections to start up and if you ask Todd he will tell you that I felt really bad about it when it started up. However, I would be a total liar to say I don't need it. I read a post by someone on another board saying that I must be getting a huge insurance payout. I would just suggest that person never had to try to get life insurance for a disabled person. He has an old pension from before his accident but he hasn't worked since then and if I get anything (which I might not) it will be maybe a couple hundred pounds. I have been his carer for eight years and I have been the bread earner. I will lose the rent control on this place and maybe the place (waiting to see...I am afraid to make that phone call just yet) and he was recieving diability benefits which to be frank were keeping our heads above water. Add to that what the rate of exchange is with the dollar to the pound at the moment and understand why I am going to be in bad place for a while. I started to call and do little things like take my cable down to the very basic channels and those guys tried to upsell me even when I told them why. I am going to either take the radio station I run down to the very basic package too or cancel it totally since I don't think I will be able to afford it. Kind of waste of a zillion and one MP3s but he did them all for me and not sure how great I feel about playing them right now...let alone djing anytime in the near future. Though, maybe a tribute show soon..dunno. Anyway, I am just going on and on when I really mean to say - thank you all so much. You know, I just go through every day waking up and sitting down at my computer for another day of board posting and helping clients and I feel like I am just one name of many. Nothing that special in this industry but atleast for one little bit I feel like people have noticed that I try to be honest and trustworthy. Oh, and before I go (need to do stuff around the house..looks like a bomb zone) I wanted to also just mention to 12clicks that I cried when I read his post in that my first thread. Politics matter jack shit on a day like today...even though I am pissed Thatcher outlived Marc.

11-25-2004, 06:14 AM	#6
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11-25-2004, 06:37 AM	#9
Va2k I’m still alive barley. Industry Role: Join Date: Oct 2001 Location: Va Posts: 10,060	Damn just saw these threads my heart goes out to you ma'am.. IF THERE IS ANYTHING YOU NEED please let me know and I'll do my best to help you.. If you need somone to talk with hit me up on icq or email and I will give you my number or you can give me yours and I will call.. Good luck and * hugs* Tom __________________

11-25-2004, 06:39 AM	#10
$5 submissions I help you SUCCEED Industry Role: Join Date: Nov 2003 Location: The Pearl of the Orient Seas Posts: 32,195	Hang in there, Sarah. Your friend in the Philippines, Gene aka $5 Submissions __________________ Need a NON-ADULT income stream? We build your YOUTUBE CHANNEL for only $20 per video! For Hire: $3/hour or $400 per month Marketing Specialist Virtual Assistants

11-25-2004, 08:49 AM	#11
Head Confirmed User Join Date: Nov 2003 Location: Starship Enterprise Posts: 8,278	If you want to walk some hit me up on ICQ. 145197462 Take care. __________________

11-25-2004, 05:54 AM	#2
X37375787 Guest Posts: n/a	best of luck and lots of strength to you during these tough times...

11-25-2004, 05:57 AM	#3
Forest Confirmed User Industry Role: Join Date: Aug 2001 Location: Hollywood Fl. Posts: 8,988	god bless sarah

11-25-2004, 05:58 AM	#4
Marcus Aurelius No Refunds Issued. Industry Role: Join Date: Apr 2003 Posts: 14,809	Get some rest and take care of yourself. Our thoughts are with you.

11-25-2004, 06:07 AM	#5
pushpills Confirmed User Join Date: Jan 2004 Location: CHICAGO Posts: 3,700	Sorry to hear there's not much of a policy to speak of. Kicked in a bit, hopefully the contributions will help out some. God bless.

11-25-2004, 06:17 AM	#7
Harmon ( ͡ʘ╭͜ʖ╮͡ʘ) Industry Role: Join Date: Mar 2004 Posts: 20,010	Stay strong Sarah. Things will only get better with time and a strong will. I wish you the best of luck in this horrible ordeal, and my prayers as well as my family's are with you and your loved ones.

11-25-2004, 06:33 AM	#8
who So Fucking Banned Join Date: Aug 2003 Location: ICQ #23642053 Posts: 19,593	I hope my donation can help to cover those unknown costs you mentioned. Good luck and be the strong woman you know you are.

11-25-2004, 08:57 AM	#12
UltraSonic Confirmed User Join Date: Jul 2004 Location: UltraVirtuality Posts: 1,728	Hang in there Sarah. About the radio station - We got some good automatic radio station for mp3 equipment overhere. Let me know if we can help, you can have it for free, we will even take the shipping costs. Our thoughts are with you. __________________ Your Blend, Your Product

11-25-2004, 10:03 AM	#13
gornyhuy Chafed. Join Date: May 2002 Location: Face Down in Pussy Posts: 18,041	Our thoughts are with you. Thanks for managing the collection Baddog - I paypal'd ya just now. __________________ icq:159548293

11-25-2004, 10:40 AM	#14
Raven Confirmed User Industry Role: Join Date: Jul 2001 Posts: 6,874	Sarah. When PM_Dave suggested we send flowers.....there was a collective sigh of relief that we could do something...anything for you. What started out as an outpouring of compassion to you took on a life of its own. We spread the word from board to board because, my dear...you ARE one of us and a great lady. Please don't feel badly. These contributions come from our hearts and yes, I'm going to speak for all of us.... It's a small token that we give to you....a collective thought.....a tiny gesture....... __________________ Raven ~RETIRED~

11-25-2004, 01:36 PM	#16
Manowar jellyfish Join Date: Dec 2003 Posts: 71,528	My thoughts are with you, hope everything gets sorted out ok

11-25-2004, 01:40 PM	#17
Phoenix BACON BACON BACON Industry Role: Join Date: Nov 2002 Location: Poems everybody, the laddie fancies himself a poet Posts: 35,462	Best wishes for you Sarah. I dont really know what else to say, but i can only imagine the loss you are going through. Please take some comfort that there are people all over the world right now with thoughts of you in their hearts. __________________ Skype Phoenixskype1 Telegram PhoenixBrad https://quantads.io

11-25-2004, 01:47 PM	#19
Jer God is Brazilian Join Date: Feb 2001 Location: Brazil Posts: 10,601	My best wishes, sarah

11-25-2004, 01:47 PM	#20
Sly_RJ Live Hard - Die Hard Join Date: Feb 2002 Location: Ready to leave... Posts: 17,042	Sarah I know you have several AVS sites. If you want to eliminate your hosting bill, let me know and I'll set you up. There's nothing wrong with accepting the generosity of others. Don't feel bad. __________________ PHAT SERVERS - Quality dedicated hosting at a quality price! sly AT phatservers DOT com - 147479144

11-25-2004, 01:47 PM	#21
gigi Confirmed User Join Date: Apr 2001 Location: Vancouver, BC, Canada Posts: 691	Take is easy Sarah....and definitely wait for your parents to get there before starting on anything requiring important decisions. We're here if you need us. Tara __________________ eMail ICQ: 32862272

11-25-2004, 01:50 PM	#22
Elli Reach for those stars! Industry Role: Join Date: Apr 2003 Location: Vancouver, BC Posts: 17,991	We wish the best for you, Sarah. Remember that you're not alone. __________________ email: [email protected]

11-25-2004, 01:51 PM	#23
loverboy When it rains, it pours Industry Role: Join Date: May 2003 Posts: 20,609	i'll offer a moment of prayer to guide you along the way its the only thing I can give

11-25-2004, 01:58 PM	#24
candyflip Carpe Visio Industry Role: Join Date: Jul 2002 Location: New York Posts: 43,064	You're in my thoughts today Sarah. __________________ Spend you some brain. Email Me

11-25-2004, 02:00 PM	#25
Tala Fucked if I know Join Date: Dec 2002 Location: Do you have a flag? Posts: 23,368	Sarah, I can only imagine the agony you feel right now. Thank goodness your family can come be with you when you need them. Very seldom does a voice stand out to be heard above the din of medocrity, and when it does, that voice remains close to the people who hear it. You have one of those voices. Your intelligence and honest care for your clients as well as for your fellow human beings, (not to imply that your clients aren't human, mind you), radiates from you, drawing people to your warmth and humor. Someone suggested that I post the entire song I quoted to you in the original thread. Since I can't get it out of my mind, I'll post it for you, and hopefully you can take some small comfort from it as I have taken from it with the death of my best friend's eldest son. Where do we come from Why are we here? Where do we go when we die? What lies beyond What came before Is anything certain in life? They say, "Life is too short For here and the now When you're only given one shot." But could there be more Have I lived before Or could this be all that we've got? If I died tomorrow I'd be all right Because I believe That after we're gone The spirit carries on. I used to be frightened of dying I used to think death was the end But that was before I'm not scared anymore I know that my soul will transcend I may never find all the answers I may never understand why I may never prove what I know to be true But I know that I still have to try. If I died tomorrow I'd be all right Because I believe That after we're gone The spirit carries on. Come on be brave Don't weep at my grave Because I am no longer here But please never let your memory of me disappear. If I die tomorrow I'll be all right Because I believe That after we're gone The spirit carries on. __________________ ICQ: 11120676 \| Google: mindcrime \| Skype: suitemindcrime\|E-Mail: mindcrime AT gmail.com\|PR girl with great writing skills for hire!!!! Contact me to work for YOU!\|TECHIEMEDIA? 24/7 support from some of the best techs in the biz. Tell Jim that I sent you.

11-25-2004, 04:11 PM	#27
baddog So Fucking Banned Industry Role: Join Date: Apr 2001 Location: the beach, SoCal Posts: 107,089	You are welcome Sarah, and you are in my thoughts. Helping with this has been an eye opening experience for me as there are a lot of people out there that are giving, and no matter how little or how much it all comes together to make a pretty nice outpouring of generosity. To say that I am proud of the adult community right now would be an understatement.

11-25-2004, 04:41 PM	#28
panchodog's izzy Confirmed User Join Date: Apr 2004 Posts: 335	Sarah, we're all here for you, and I think the response from all the GFY'ers lets it show. It's one step at a time, okay? A huge hug... __________________ Freelance Adult, Dating and Mainstream Writer since 2008 $0.02 cents per word. No job too big or small. Now accepting Paxum, Payoneer, Mastercard and Visa! ICQ: 244-185-772 e-mail: dizzidente (at) hotmail.com