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Morgan · 09-29-2003, 11:30 PM

dont really know who to talk to about this... called a few friends that know him but...

One of my best friends just shot himself in the head and ended his own life. I really dont know what to think as I cry while typing but he was truly an inspiration to me and I loved him. This just happened within the past couple hours and im shaken beyond recognition. I really dont know what to do or think. He was such a happy person??? wtf?? i dont get it. ... Im DYING here.

MetaMan · 09-29-2003, 11:32 PM

usually people who actually have the most problems you would never think of it, suicide u could never explain i guess, just remember the good parts about him and not his tragic ending.

JDog · 09-29-2003, 11:33 PM

Sorry to hear that man. I know how that is, I've been down there before. My uncle ended his own life when I was 9. It's sad and hard to deal with, nobody knew something was wrong, he was happily married with three kids! Hit me up if you wanna chat, 177385133

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Sosa · 09-29-2003, 11:35 PM

sry man, that sucks

asuna · 09-29-2003, 11:35 PM

Sorry to hear that

EvilToyBoy · 09-29-2003, 11:38 PM

Ganja,

My heart goes out tp you mate.

Hate to say I have similar experiences, and unfortunately on more than 1 occasion.

Sometimes the people who serve as the "rocks" and "inspiration" for many others can find it hard to live up to others expectations of them.

I dunno what the answer is.....

Personally I have tried to pass on to the others the energy, help, support and advice that my friends gave to me before they checked out.

Pay it forward is the only way I have known.

Whatever you do (and sometimes easier said than done) DON'T blame yourself, but give your support to the others affected by what HE decided to do.

Mightn't help much, but in the spirit of my departed friends, felt I had to say something.

Stay strong and do not lose faith in the inspiration he gave to you.

EZRhino · 09-29-2003, 11:39 PM

My deepest condolences.

EscortBiz · 09-29-2003, 11:41 PM

sorry to hear that

GeXus · 09-29-2003, 11:41 PM

Sorry to hear that man.. I have a friend who killed himself in a car accident (on purpose).. its really mind boggling at first.. just hang in there and keep on trucking.. best wishes to you..

09-29-2003, 11:43 PM

Sorry to hear that. I had a friend take his life half a year back as well.

Mr.Fiction · 09-29-2003, 11:47 PM

Sorry.

eroswebmaster · 09-29-2003, 11:48 PM

Hey Morgan, sorry to hear that man.

I know exactly what you're going through, as most here know that my mother killed herself this last March.

There are no easy words, this type of death does leave an impact on you, I came across a website awhile back and I'm only paraphrasing it here, but they had a quote that said something like a person who commits suicide only dies once, while the survivors die a million times.

Stay strong, there will be tough days ahead, don't do it alone.

You know where to find me if you ever need to talk.

Morgan · 09-30-2003, 12:00 AM

Eros - thanks sooooo much brother! im SOOOOOO sorry about your situation, im here for you as I know you've been here for me.

Jdog - thanks for the support on icq, your a true friend too.

Thanks to the rest of you too!

On-top · 09-30-2003, 12:04 AM

Hang in there, man. Sorry to hear such a thing...

EvilToyBoy · 09-30-2003, 12:06 AM

Quote:

Originally posted by Ganjasaurus
Thanks to the rest of you too!

Never a problem - a friend in need is ALWAYS a friend indeed.

Just wish it was better circumstances....

Jimbo · 09-30-2003, 12:09 AM

dude I know how you feel, my mother ended her life when I was 15.

dont let this stop you from going forward. I'm sure your friend is happy whereever he is.

playa · 09-30-2003, 12:14 AM

Keep your head up buddy,

typically suicidal people usually show some warning signs.
was there any recent problems?

titmowse · 09-30-2003, 12:16 AM

i wish you well in your time of grief.

Nima · 09-30-2003, 12:23 AM

Damn I am sorry to hear that. Itis a very tough thing to forget about but I suggest you try to not think of it as hard as itmay be but try to think of something else. It will just hurt you inside if yoiu keep thinking about it and there is no benefit about feeling upset and not being able to do anythign about it unfortunately. I hope you get well asap

the Shemp · 09-30-2003, 12:31 AM

Quote:

Originally posted by Ganjasaurus
dont really know who to talk to about this... called a few friends that know him but...

One of my best friends just shot himself in the head and ended his own life. I really dont know what to think as I cry while typing but he was truly an inspiration to me and I loved him. This just happened within the past couple hours and im shaken beyond recognition. I really dont know what to do or think. He was such a happy person??? wtf?? i dont get it. ... Im DYING here.

He must have been very deeply troubled.
Write him a note about your friendship and see if you can have it buried with him. My sincere condolences to you....

Morgan · 09-30-2003, 12:32 AM

Quote:

Originally posted by the Shemp

He must have been very deeply troubled.
Write him a note about your friendship and see if you can have it buried with him. My sincere condolences to you....

shemp, thank you. that would actually make me feel much better.

JDog · 09-30-2003, 12:34 AM

Quote:

Originally posted by the Shemp

He must have been very deeply troubled.
Write him a note about your friendship and see if you can have it buried with him. My sincere condolences to you....

I like that thought Shemp, you're a good man! Ganja, that there is a good idea!

jDoG

Gemini · 09-30-2003, 12:37 AM

Call 1-800-448-3000 ;-) They can help more than any of us or will know exactly where you can call in your own area. Sorry for the loss. Been there, the both of us.

Morgan · 09-30-2003, 12:43 AM

Quote:

Originally posted by Gemini
Call 1-800-448-3000 ;-) They can help more than any of us or will know exactly where you can call in your own area. Sorry for the loss. Been there, the both of us.

TY, friend!

LiveDose · 09-30-2003, 12:44 AM

Damn. Sorry to hear about that. I had a similar experience years back and I was on the other end of a phone trying to talk a buddy down.

You never know what is going on in another persons head. Hopefully as time goes by you will be able to remember the good times of the past with him and know that there was nothing you could do ultimately. He was a troubled person.

Good luck and stay strong bro.

chemicaleyes · 09-30-2003, 12:49 AM

Quote:

Originally posted by MetaMan
usually people who actually have the most problems you would never think of it, suicide u could never explain i guess, just remember the good parts about him and not his tragic ending.

Gemini · 09-30-2003, 01:08 AM

ANYtime you go to visit him after this passing, remember to put a pebble on his gravestone. It's a sign of remembrance to him in whatever comes after being here. Just a gesture I know... but none of us REALLY know and it doesn't hurt. A sign of the return to Mother Earth.

quiet · 09-30-2003, 01:11 AM

sorry to hear that. my uncle shot himself with a .357 last spring. there is no sugar coating suicide. it's simply brutal.

TheEbonyFelony · 09-30-2003, 01:17 AM

you are in my prayers bro

Jer · 09-30-2003, 04:17 AM

I'm sorry to hear that

com · 09-30-2003, 04:18 AM

if it was a semi-auto pistol and the slide is still back its suicide,
if there's another round in the chamber it's homicide.

plexer · 09-30-2003, 04:22 AM

That sucks. Me too... I had a friend from school hang himself over some "dumb bitch" about 8 years ago! I just don?t get it!

You will remember all the good things that ever happened. It gets better as the days go by....

Good Luck...

RedBumper · 09-30-2003, 04:22 AM

Quote:

Originally posted by Ganjasaurus
dont really know who to talk to about this... called a few friends that know him but...

One of my best friends just shot himself in the head and ended his own life. I really dont know what to think as I cry while typing but he was truly an inspiration to me and I loved him. This just happened within the past couple hours and im shaken beyond recognition. I really dont know what to do or think. He was such a happy person??? wtf?? i dont get it. ... Im DYING here.

Sorry to hear this man. The sad thing is that mostly when this happens people who get left behind fill their minds with questions...... WHY?
Don't try to explain it, don't try to find the reason, certainly not with yourself.
A friend of mine did the exact same thing a few years ago. He also seemed very happy. What was going on in his mind? Was there a part of his life we didn't know about? Was he looking for help and we didn't see it? All those questions kept going thruw our heads but we will never know so we stopped asking.
Don't look for the answers...... it would only put alot of weight on your back.

xzoom · 09-30-2003, 04:45 AM

I don't know what to say, sorry to hear this and keep your head up.

GFED · 09-30-2003, 05:07 AM

Sorry to hear about your friend bro... depression is a bitch... I've lost a couple friends to suicide... and thought about it millions of times myself...

escorpio · 09-30-2003, 05:20 AM

My thoughts are with you. Suicide is a terrible thing to deal with for those left behind that loved and cared for the person.

And to everyone...life gets dark at times. Sometimes so dark you're sure you'll never see light again. But try to remember that life can take you anywhere and the only thing for certain is that it will end. So no matter how bad it gets hang on tight. It will pass. Never fast forward to the end of your own story.

Ten years ago in the course of a single year I experienced a failed business, bankruptcy and a bitter divorce. I was so devastated and depressed I drove a cab for about a year hoping someone would blow my brains out and save me (and my son) the stigma. But it never happened. And I have experienced and learned so much since then I'm glad it didn't.

Ross · 09-30-2003, 05:22 AM

I am so sorry to hear that. I can't even begin to imagine what you must be feeling right now.....

This will bring a lot of things into perspective in your own life and hopefully you will come out a very strong person!

Good luck and may your friend rest in peace.

GTS Mark · 09-30-2003, 05:24 AM

I'm sorry to hear that dude, my condolences...

DH

09-29-2003, 11:30 PM	#1
Morgan Too lazy to set a custom title Industry Role: Join Date: May 2002 Location: Corona Del Mar, CA Posts: 10,520	Just got a bad phone call... dont really know who to talk to about this... called a few friends that know him but... One of my best friends just shot himself in the head and ended his own life. I really dont know what to think as I cry while typing but he was truly an inspiration to me and I loved him. This just happened within the past couple hours and im shaken beyond recognition. I really dont know what to do or think. He was such a happy person??? wtf?? i dont get it. ... Im DYING here. __________________ PornstarPlatinum.com \| TransErotica.com

09-29-2003, 11:33 PM	#3
JDog Confirmed User Join Date: Feb 2003 Location: Canby, OR Posts: 7,453	Sorry to hear that man. I know how that is, I've been down there before. My uncle ended his own life when I was 9. It's sad and hard to deal with, nobody knew something was wrong, he was happily married with three kids! Hit me up if you wanna chat, 177385133 jDoG __________________ NSCash now powering ReelProfits.com ALSO FEATURING: NSCash.com :: SoloDollars.com :: ReelProfits.com :: BiminiBucks.com :: VOD PROGRAMS COMING SOON: Greedy Bucks :: Vengeance Cash NOW OFFERING OVER 60 SITES CONTACT :: JAMES SMITH :: CHIEF TECHNOLOGY OFFICER :: ICQ (711385133)

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09-29-2003, 11:38 PM	#6
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09-29-2003, 11:32 PM	#2
MetaMan I AM WEB 2.0 Industry Role: Join Date: Jan 2003 Posts: 28,682	usually people who actually have the most problems you would never think of it, suicide u could never explain i guess, just remember the good parts about him and not his tragic ending.

09-29-2003, 11:35 PM	#4
Sosa In Tushy Land Join Date: Oct 2002 Location: Nebraska Posts: 40,149	sry man, that sucks

09-29-2003, 11:39 PM	#7
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09-29-2003, 11:41 PM	#9
GeXus Confirmed User Join Date: May 2003 Location: Yo Mommas Pussy Posts: 3,320	Sorry to hear that man.. I have a friend who killed himself in a car accident (on purpose).. its really mind boggling at first.. just hang in there and keep on trucking.. best wishes to you.. __________________

09-29-2003, 11:43 PM	#10
X37375787 Guest Posts: n/a	Sorry to hear that. I had a friend take his life half a year back as well.

09-29-2003, 11:47 PM	#11
Mr.Fiction Confirmed User Join Date: Feb 2002 Location: Free Speech Land Posts: 9,484	Sorry.

09-29-2003, 11:48 PM	#12
eroswebmaster March 1st, 2003 Join Date: Jul 2001 Location: Seat 4 @ Venetian Poker Room Posts: 20,295	Hey Morgan, sorry to hear that man. I know exactly what you're going through, as most here know that my mother killed herself this last March. There are no easy words, this type of death does leave an impact on you, I came across a website awhile back and I'm only paraphrasing it here, but they had a quote that said something like a person who commits suicide only dies once, while the survivors die a million times. Stay strong, there will be tough days ahead, don't do it alone. You know where to find me if you ever need to talk.

09-30-2003, 12:00 AM	#13
Morgan Too lazy to set a custom title Industry Role: Join Date: May 2002 Location: Corona Del Mar, CA Posts: 10,520	Eros - thanks sooooo much brother! im SOOOOOO sorry about your situation, im here for you as I know you've been here for me. Jdog - thanks for the support on icq, your a true friend too. Thanks to the rest of you too! __________________ PornstarPlatinum.com \| TransErotica.com

09-30-2003, 12:04 AM	#14
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09-30-2003, 12:09 AM	#16
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09-30-2003, 12:14 AM	#17
playa Confirmed User Join Date: Feb 2001 Location: atlanta, GA Posts: 6,432	Keep your head up buddy, typically suicidal people usually show some warning signs. was there any recent problems?

09-30-2003, 12:16 AM	#18
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09-30-2003, 12:23 AM	#19
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09-30-2003, 12:37 AM	#23
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09-30-2003, 01:08 AM	#27
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09-30-2003, 01:11 AM	#28
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09-30-2003, 01:17 AM	#29
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09-30-2003, 04:18 AM	#31
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09-30-2003, 04:22 AM	#32
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09-30-2003, 04:45 AM	#34
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09-30-2003, 05:07 AM	#35
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09-30-2003, 05:20 AM	#36
escorpio I love to racism, bro! Industry Role: Join Date: Oct 2002 Location: USA! USA! USA! Posts: 23,129	My thoughts are with you. Suicide is a terrible thing to deal with for those left behind that loved and cared for the person. And to everyone...life gets dark at times. Sometimes so dark you're sure you'll never see light again. But try to remember that life can take you anywhere and the only thing for certain is that it will end. So no matter how bad it gets hang on tight. It will pass. Never fast forward to the end of your own story. Ten years ago in the course of a single year I experienced a failed business, bankruptcy and a bitter divorce. I was so devastated and depressed I drove a cab for about a year hoping someone would blow my brains out and save me (and my son) the stigma. But it never happened. And I have experienced and learned so much since then I'm glad it didn't. __________________ Unvaxxed, still alive.

09-30-2003, 05:22 AM	#37
Ross Ik ben een aap Industry Role: Join Date: Sep 2002 Location: Traffic Force Towers, Canada! Posts: 18,874	I am so sorry to hear that. I can't even begin to imagine what you must be feeling right now..... This will bring a lot of things into perspective in your own life and hopefully you will come out a very strong person! Good luck and may your friend rest in peace.

09-30-2003, 05:24 AM	#38
GTS Mark Vrume Mark Industry Role: Join Date: Jan 2001 Location: Toronto, Canada Posts: 20,912	I'm sorry to hear that dude, my condolences... DH