Thank you. I wish I would have had better news for everyone. I know this is all kind of tough to read.

Sorry to hear about your cat. You are from MN right? In August I lost 2 outdoor cats to coyotes. Are they in your area? The fuckers are really starting to come through now that fall is approaching. I even set up a bunch of deer meat in my backyard with a crossbow one night in hopes of killing them.

I am sooo very sorry to hear about Lucky's fate! :( I am sure you made him happy and comfortable the last moments of his life, heck for his whole like, and for that he is grateful. :)

Thanks MP, I will. About to wrap it up. The music as always helps. Thanks buddy.

Mutt, thanks. Lets go back to 2000 and listen to rogue Stern again. Ahh but alas we can only go forward.

Cyberhustler, I take what you say seriously. I dont think I can own another cat and let it run so we'll see. Maybe I'll get a dog.

L-Pink, Thanks buddy.

And EVERYONE else thanks. OK gonna call my brother in Tampa.

Guess I will wrap it up.

It takes some time. I came home and poured out his water dish. I guess that is the first step. It will take time but this thread helped get me off on the right foot.

I am ok and could go longer but I think we all did a good thing today and you all can be proud of yourselves and of each other. The response was overwhelming.

In the future I will be there for all of you.

Thank you all again very much. I love you all.

Wow... expected some better news from last night early morning read.

Harsh news. I hate it when my animals pass.

Wish you brief mourning and I implore you to go have a beer :thumbsup

Very nicely said. Thanks :)

Yes MN. I havent heard of any around here but it is poss. My absolute best wishes. They have to be pretty bad in that area if you lost two.

Fuck, man, I'm sorry to hear that.

But man, you did what you could, you were there for him.

As cat deaths go, it's not the worst kind, he went as a warrior, a real cat, and cats like that kind of thing.

Thanks Deej, Good idea, I am about to crack one right now.

Ah ya know we do our best that is all we can do. As Tjeezers said, it is sort of our place to realize that someday we must put them to rest and then carry on. There is a day for mourning but we must carry on. We never forget. But we must also carry on.

So many cats/dogs never get a home so let's remember our pets were the "Lucky" ones. :)

It is tough but it is life. It was this way before us. It will be this way long after us. It is just nature and to everything there is a season.

It is something that is out of our hands. Let's celebrate that one lil cat in 50,000,000 strays had a good life, ate nothing but Fanci Feast. :) Let's remember, let's never forget but let's also carry on.

Well said. That was my point. He wanted to live his life that way. He killed and eventually he was killed. I hoped it wouldnt go that way but it is always a poss for an outdoor cat. Maybe not a good policy but he was a cat's cat and I am very proud of him.

So sorry for your loss. I'm a cat owner myself - all were stray kittens that needed homes. It seems like a cruel trick that we get so attached when we are destined to part company so soon.

Again, I'm sorry for your loss.

[to myself]

It's never easy tho.

I am not looking for sympathy as my mom was 95, had a good life, but I lost her also earlier this year and I learned..

the best way to slowly get over things like this, there is only one way. You have to keep your mind occupied. Read threads. Make threads. Watch stuff on TV. Talk about it as I am to friends. Go places where others maybe can relate (such as this thread for someone someday) but mainly GET your mind off of it.

But no matter how well I can explain things and as a formally educated engineer, I can think very logicly. But it's a thing of the heart, not the mind.

It takes time. And there is some real pain.

When I lost mom, the hospice people for the county started contacting me and you just talk and they are very good.

Today I got a survey for them in the mail 6 months later. I was gonna throw it but I might just give it flying good marks. They did real good for me. I cried there as I cried here.

So it takes time. The hardest thing is to be alone for some reason altho I have been alone all my life. I am a loner's loner :) (up until last few years)

And my cat was really never around. And when he did come in he was very often a pain.

But still he was there. I was not completely alone.

That is the thing. I am now completely alone around the house.

Maybe.. I leaned on him as much as he leaned on me.

Maybe I have been leaning on cats since I bought My first lil siamese Sam at age 19 in 1976. I put age 17 down but Sam made it to 18. 76-94

Sam was the man. Or cat. :) Coolest cat ever.

I think I will have to go get a new boy. :) It is the only way the heart can go on. Maybe go to the humane society. Maybe a kitten. We'll see.

I prob have to get another boy. You seen all my boys. :) I guess there is no reason to stop now. :)

Thank you for checking in. :) Yes I brought em all in. Each time you have hope. The others were for old age but you always hope you can take em back home. It is tough. Each one tough.

Stray kittens - that is a very nice way to do things. Maybe I'll just get a kitten that needs a home.

My first two cats were siamese kittens, all the rest were strays or from the humane society.

But a kitten really is the way and I think I will return to a kitten. Then he can grow up here rather than somewhere else. That is a big factor.

Thanks and best wishes to you and all your little gibbys. :)

that is your problem. you are a man with a mind and no heart. you try and avoid emotional pain.

don't be afraid. let emotions crush you. you will be free and liberated as a result.

When you started saying you weren't gonna get another cat, I had a feeling you'd get a new cat,

go get a new cat

cat.

I'm very sorry for your loss :(

oh Vjo sorry to hear, looks like you knows and love cats, so time to get a new kitty to fill the hole ... hope all is well as well it can be ... :winkwink:

Ok, as a new Yorker, THIS is what i LOVE about you rural folk. LOL I was actually born in the mountains, in a small town, with famrs and chickens and horses, and played in the woods as a kid all day and night, like a freaky mountain man (again, explains everything, I know). So I love crossbows and deers and such. LOL

Vho: Let me know when you're ready for my cute kitty gif collection, I'll post them all here for you, to make you smile and remember why you need to find a new friend when you're ready. Even Teencat will appreciate them (maybe, he ignores me lately. I believe this is due to my creepy admiration for him...)

Music is always a healer - maybe something LOUD and CRANKING to get your extreme feelings out....:)

Man that's rough.

Don't give up on having pets. Buried 3 cats already but wouldn't give up loving more, have 2 right now

sad thread, sounds like your cat was loved at least and that is more than most people and animals ever had

I'm in MN too, down by the Mall of America, and we have coyotes around our neighborhood. Police have even warned people to keep smaller dogs inside. I saw one jogging down the street at 3am one night.


My sincere condolences for your loss.

You may be right PJ. Sometimes others can see us better than we can see ourselves.

I always think maybe I am being too emotional but maybe not.

Just got off the phone with my brother. He was very supportive. We are real close.

I read him a couple posts incl the one by porno jew. I said this is by a guy named pornojew and we both laughed a little. I mean at the username. Kind of funny. i told him, "this is a really smart guy who tells it like it is and is totally anon, his name is pornojew" hehe :)

The first thing he told me is what you are all telling me. I have to get another cat. It is who i am. So think I will go down to the humane society and get a kitten before too long. I will let you know :)

Good one. If I call myself Catman I pretty much better have a cat.

Thank you.

thanks TC, very nice.

I read my brother your post too. I said, "this guy is all the way from Czech. He says i should get another cat too." :)

My brother is 10 years older than me so he doesnt really get the net.

Go save the life of a cat/kitten that isn't going to get adopted.

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We're you really? :) I always fig you as a city boy all the way. :)

Hit me baby with the cutie cats. :) Life goes on. As I said we must not forget but we must go on.

I need to unwind anyhow.

We're you really into crossbows and did you play in the woods? :) I love the woods.

MP, there is nothing more peaceful than the quiet and peace of the woods. Sit on a log. Feel complete freedom and of course burn one. :)

I did NOT read my bro this post. :)

Nope, Teencat does not take to direct attempts to win his love. He's a cat's cat. Very aloof. :)

Very good idea and what I am gonna do. :thumbsup Humane society I am thinking as that is pretty much where all the kittens end up. I am looking forward to it. Kitten will be a bundle of fun. :)

But yeah, if one isnt going to be adopted I would lean towards that.

I havent had a kitten since Rascal in 1979, Actually I was doing purty purty good with the ladies when I had the two siamese. hehe

Maybe chg my luck around. :)

Of course I was 80 times better looking then and about 22. :winkwink:

Thank you. That's pretty crazy. I havnt heard of any up around central MN but then again I don't hear much. :)

Tend to get a lot of wildlife around the suburbs of Mpls and St Paul tho it seems. Always something weird running around it seems.

Thanks. I guess you cant let the burying part stop you. It is going to happen.

It was a sad day. Still hard to come to grips with.

Well I havn't been to sleep for about 28 hours.

Catch you all later. Thank you everyone.

Sorry for your loss.

Still up 30 hours+ now.

I just cant believe it happened. I know it happened but I find myself in a bit of shock over what I seen today. I guess after 11 years I feel like he should still be around.

I never thought he would die. I guess I miss him. And I feel bad for him.

This is harder than I thought.

I nodded off a couple times for a moment while reading GFY. If I go to my bed. I cant lay down. I feel like a parent who needs to do something. TV helps and maybe I will take some Nyquil. Think I have some.

I know he aint coming back. He was prob my best friend really and it is tough.

I keep wondering what the hell happened. I wonder if it could of been a pellet gun or a bullet. But it wasnt. The hole was the size of a cat fang initially.

Why is there only one puncture wound? If he got bit why are there not 2 fang marks. Poss he only was punctured by one fang.

I did what I could do. Too bad he could not have been more concious or in less agony so I could have said goodbye.

Would have getting him to the emerg vet 5-6 hours earlier made a diff. I don't think so. I didnt realize he was that bad. The emerg nurse told me to wait till morning if he was breathing ok and getting his air which he was.

I guess there are a lot of questions that will never be answered.

I think the pus build up may have killed him. He had a lot of pus in his mouth and it kept getting worse. Did he suffocate or just die. I think he just died as he did not really seem like he was struggling for air at the very end.

One sec he is wheezing. The next he jumps around for just one second. Then he is completly still and no more wheezing. His paws moved just a tinch one time 2 seconds later. That was all he moved. He did not seem to suffocate. But you wonder.

Maybe the trip to the vet was a lot of stress and that put him over the edge.

These are the things that go thru my head. I guess this is normal. I think maybe I have some trauma.

I dont expect an answer. I just need to say these things. Then I can read this and maybe feel better.

Maybe I'll post some pics. Prob not now tho. My body is too tired. But my mind wont let go.

Then I think of those damn Aleister Crowley pics I posted.

Since I posted them, I had (1) the sudden artery behind the nose go. I posted about this. A life threatening arterial nosebleed altho I never even came close to picking hard. And have never had a nosebleed like this before. I lost about a cup to a pint and it was coming out fast. Luckily I stopped it.

Then I never mentioned it but (2) I had a weird cooking accident where I was browning ground beef a couple days ago (done a thousand times) and somehow with the spatula hot grease suddenly splattered across my glasses and burnt my right eye. I mean like 3/4 cup came out of the pan instantly when the spatula slipped a tinch and the meat rolled. 3/4 cup right across the glasses. They were covered in hot grease. Glasses saved me. Did get some burns around the glasses.

Then (3) this happened.

So I wonder about that. Did I screw up by messing with him? Or his ghost. We all know AC was into some crazy stuff.

I have deleted those pics from my server.

Anyhow I just need to air it all out. Surely means nothing.

Ok I am going back to bed and watch some tv. I just needed to say these things.

Sorry to read it passed mate.

Condolences

Thanks CS. I appreciate it. Ill be ok. Just a process of letting go I guess.

I know the last two posts seem a little crazy but it helped. I feel better and more tired :)

Prob being awake over 30 hours has me a little nutty too.

Your a good guy CS. You ever need anything, let me know. I got your back. :)

Ok going to go watch some MMA or maybe Stern (HSOD) I recorded. I think I am ready to sleep now. :)

Sorry to hear that, buddy.

At least you can take some solace in the fact that the cat lived a long and fruitful life. I'm not much of a cat person but what i've noticed about cats is that they live violent lives and often die bloody deaths. I used to see these stray cats in a field near me stalk birds and tear them to shreds. Violent lives, violent deaths. Either a dog gets them and rips them open instead of just chasing them like the bumbling, easily fooled dogs in the TV cartoons, or another tom gets them, or a poisoned bait, or a passing car. Cats are the gangsters of the animal world, living outside the law and often dying there. There are a great many of them that never grow old by the fire.

I know how you feel though. I had a bluetick coonhound a couple years back that I was training and she ran a deer out on the road and got hit by a car right in front of me. Only eight months old. Without going into gory details I will say that it was quite possibly one of the worst days of my life, but time heals all wounds. Best thing to do is to get another one as soon as you feel ready, like some other people mentioned.

Very sorry to hear of your loss. I was hoping your little guy would make it. :(

What he said.

Life sucks sometimes. But you sound like the perfect person to provide a kick ass life for some homeless kitty out there.