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I also think mine comes partly from not growing up with money so I never had the cool clothes and good haircuts or whatever in school, so it made me have bad self-esteem so I didn't have the courage and confidence to be more sociable, it sounds superficial but things like that matter when you're young, if you are different somehow it's harder to fit in and make friends. And growing up I never had the "right" designer clothes or the means to make myself over. And now that I'm older I know it's so easy, all it takes is a little money to give you the right look and help you fit in more. And even though I'm old now, that insecurity still stayed with me. No matter how successful I become or how many designer clothes I'll buy I will always feel insecure and like I don't quite fit in. I'm also constantly worried about what others are thinking/saying about me.
But I think some is also a chemical imbalance or genetics somehow. I know I'm a product of my environment but I also know some part of it is mental as well, and both combined made me really anti social.
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