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Old 03-23-2006, 09:59 PM  
jackie1
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I'm also anti-social but it doesn't affect me a lot and I don't feel I need therapy or drugs cause I function fine. I hate people, but I work from home and make a very good living (a better living than I would make if I had a regular job interacting with people) so it works out for the best.

I also have a boyfriend so I guess I'm not THAT bad. I hate to leave my house as well, I always send my boyfriend out to get food, so I think I end up leaving the house only once a month, other than that to be honest I don't like to socialize or go out at all. I like to go shopping and go to the mall but I don't like going out and socializing like restaurants/bars or any of that.

But even though I'm anti-social I feel that my life is good and I can function fine, I don't feel like I need a lot of human interaction to be happy. I make a good living and can support myself just fine and that's all that matters I guess. So I can still speak up and stuff, but the one thing that is really hard for me is public speaking, I would get so anxious if I had to make a presentation that I would physically feel ill and feel knots in my stomach afterwards, but I have no problem speaking up in class.

I think my social anxiety or whatever you want to call it also started when I was young. When I was in kindergarten I already had few friends. Same in elementary. In high school I also didn't have any barely. I'm just not the type that ever made "friends", I never figured out how strangers just start talking to each other out of nowhere, it just always seemed weird to me.
In college it's even less important to make friends, as theire's less "cliques" and less of a need to be cool and fit in.

Even though I'm anti-social in one of my college English classes class participation counted and I was always the only one who raised my hand and spoke up even though I'm anti social, I'm still competitive as hell and was always "competing" for the best grade so I guess my competitiveness was so intense that it overruled my shyness.

That's why I like being a webmaster cause I dont need to socialize with anyone.

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