i've been anti social since i was kid, and it only gets worse with age. started when i was in like Kindegarten and my teacher asked us all a question and i raised my hand and my answer was wrong and she MOCKED me in front of the class to the point of humialiation. ever since then, i've been "shy" (aka anti-social) all my life....afraid i'll say something wrong and be laughed at...then came high school, i was still *HIGHLY* anti social but then fell into doing Speed (snorting) and so the popular chicks would snort up with me in the bathroom...that helped actually (the whole acceptance by "cool people" thing).
anyways, now as a sober adult working from home, I'm even that much more anti-social. Unfortuantly, the only "cure" for me in situations where i get anxiety attacks/fear of being social is to take a few shots or drink about 4 beers to calm down. I need to seek some counsling or something. Just dont know where to start.
