Let's Get Personal

I'm a miserable SOB without my morning coffee

I got married once.. that kinda killed most emotions.

Then I got divorced and that finished off the rest of them

And you have stayed that way?

yeah... I'm still divorced.

I have emotions, but most people walk right over it. Hence, I remain single
WG

I am happy and it's not fake

I see you chill.. but other then that.. happy go lucky

if people are walking all over them.. you must lose a little something along the way. after all that i'm sure it makes being single real lonely and depressing..

I prefer to be as fake and ingenuine as humanly possible

I want to believe most women are like this.

Thanks for reminding me. I do try to keep myself busy by travelling and work though but I'll be the first to admit its been a long time since I've been in a relationship but then again the last 2 ended up rather badly.
WG

ever see Boiler Room? Motion creates Emotion.

if i'm at my computer working all day not breathing a word to anyone and someone calls or I go out, i'm very quiet and emotionless. However when I'm at clients locations or trying to close a deal, i'm very emotional, very passionate, and very active. I walk around when I am on the phone and I think that people can tell the difference. It also increases circulation and keeps the brain on edge.

So I'm only emotionless when I'm alone.

and has any of the emotions you had before hand coming back or are you still the same?

I'm 100% real all the time, no faking here.

I cry at the least little thing.

Like the other day I got my left nut caught in a bench vise. I bawled my eyes out.

I'm such a girly man.

well they saw their was nothing in SEO

not trying to be an ass.. just not sugercoating anything tonight

pussy.

I'm very jaded in biz and with woman... but thats life so I do whatever the fuck i want when I want

Oh I came to that conclusion long ago...
WG

To RogerV:

yeah.. but i know the real you..

I know that at lease one girl in your life will tear you up for years to come but you have that unconditional love.

You fucked with different woman or just your girl? (just asked)

Me? I got so down when we ended our relationship to my guy...
i thought he was my man... things are not the same now...

I try and tell myself and others that "I don't care, I just don't care at all" but in my head, I can't NOT care about things that are around me, things that happen to those I care about, things that happen to those I do NOT "care" about..... I try and play the hardball route and be all straight faced, hard and so on, but somehow it never works that way in my head and in my heart. Seems the more I try and convince myself that I don't care, the more things around me effect me in ways I don't like to even think about.

NOW, having said this, I like to walk thru my days happy, not fake, but happy, I laugh a LOT, and I do mean a lot, it's what keeps me sane in the insane world I live in. I don't watch the news on a daily thing, (exception being keeping up with this happening to these people in this hurricane), and I don't pay a lot of attention to things going on around me that some think are news worthy, simply because each and every single time I turn on the news, there is something depressing on there, and if I can't do anything about it, I prefer not to set myself up to be depressed.

This is not to say I don't get involved, I DO, in things that are important to me and those I care about.... but as a whole, I tend to steer clear of as much depression as I can possibly steer away from, simply because I don't like being depressed. I have this thing in me that tells me if I am laughing and not depressed then all is right in my world. I don't put too much emphasis on money, no more than I need to just survive, rather I put emphasis on my family and my friends and the things that money cannot buy, so I don't live beyond my means so if something happens, I am not killing myself trying to pay what is necessary..... may sound funny to some, but it keeps me sane.

Basically I don't fret the small things and therefore the bigger things, as they happen, have more of my attention and less of my depression.

Personal enough for you, dammit? LOL

So what your telling me is that you force yourself to be happy?

no please tell us more..need a couch?

I care about everything too, but I don't show it all the time.

Nope, I don't force it, I just don't play into things that I know are depressing. LOL Why the hell should I watch the news if I know damn well it's just going to depress me? DUH!! That's not forcing happiness, that's conttolling it.....

BlueMoon, I don't either, or I TRY not to... I can play hardass as good as the next person, but I do care, about just about everything.

I think if I HAD to pick one thing to be jaded about is the all around "trust" factor, unlike most, I don't trust until I have a reason to, I don't just walk into a relationship trusting it. Which I guess might be bad. lol

bro i can assure you, living in thailand... that being single is the single most happiest thing a man will ever do in his life...

Man, I have my ups and downs - my life has been a fuckin' roller coaster and I've always been an emotional and passionate person!

Fact is, NOW - I am mostly happy every day. I have good friends, a great lady, fun kids, a loving family, a sweet house and basically a good life ... when I look at other peoples lives ... I know that I'm a very fortunate person!

Anything could happen - and those variables could change ... and it would make my life miserable in a heartbeat.

It's easy to let problems in your life take you down. You can't force yourself to be happy, but you can force yourself to look at the good things in your life, look at the people around you, the opportunities you have & spend your time on the things that WILL make your life happier. Sometimes that involves cutting the negative people out of your life.

Life is too fucking short.

Very well said!



As I get older my "inner circle" gets smaller AND TIGHTER ... negativity and small minded people are draining - I just don't have the time nor the patience anymore.