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Look, I fucked up by allowing his addiction to affect my family, but i fixed it. i did what thousands of women across the world don't have the balls to do-I stood up and said NO MORE! I refused to let drugs be a part of my kids' lives...so how can you throw what I allowed before in my face as a reason to let him do it now??
It's not about the child support. I keep telling you that but some of you are not seeing past the cliche of a money-grubbing mom using the kids to hear what I am saying. i want objective opinions, and I am getting a few, but some of you are telling me to send my kids with someone who is likely a coke-head..and then if something happened, you'd be telling me it's my fault for sending them, wouldn't you?
i'm scared, and maybe i did post because i wanted reassurance, but what I consciously hoped for was a compromise. I am not telling him he can't see the kids. i wouldn't mind if he stayed here from the moment they woke up til the moment they went to bed, in fact I have encouraged him to see them as much as he possibly can. HE has chosen not to. He has chosen not to call. Had he not been able to pay the support, but had still been interested in the kids, I wouldn't be so afraid, because I wouldn't feel he is trying to hide a relapse from me.
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