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05-20-2004, 10:26 PM

Originally posted by sexyclicks
it will take time, but you will heal. Right now you feel like nobody can understand your pain, but a lot of people have been through this, including myself. I never saw it coming either. I spent countless nights thinking what went wrong and how things could have been different. But at the end nobody can help you except yourself. Stay focused, stay strong. Don't hate her for what she did. Don't hate yourslef for what happened. Maybe it was meant to be this way. I hope you find your way fast. Because you WILL find your way sooner or later. And one day you will look back and remember the good parts and the beautiful memories.

Don't look at this as an ending, but as a beginning to something new. I know its hard but you need to see it this way.

Can't say it better than this. I am truly sorry for your pain, but it is part of life, and it will go away. Don't try to hide from it; you have to experience it. It will fade, slowly at first, and then you'll wonder how it ever hurt at all. Trust me, it will get better. In the mean time, my heart goes out to you.

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05-20-2004, 10:28 PM

Be gone by the time she gets back on Monday. Get a room at one of those weekly motel places until you find a new place to live.

or

You can stay living with her and CRINGE each time her new boyfriend calls or "visits".

You gotta let her go... just like she did to you.

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05-20-2004, 10:29 PM

Originally posted by KRL
One of the hardest things in life is coming to the brute realization that Love is not forever.

Love can take us to the heights of joy and also to the sadness and emptiness of a broken heart.

Just know SpaceAce that somewhere out there right now there is a girl breaking up with her guy and she's your next love to be. You might not meet her tomorrow, you might not meet her this month, maybe not even this year. Hearts need time to heal and mend before they are ready to fall in love again.

But your next love is out there, and the hands of destiny will guide her to you and you to her.

As hard as it is, you have to let go. You have to know what was is no more and can never be again.

Love has a beginning and unfortunately also an ending.

Smile and cherish the memories. She can never take those from your heart. Those you can keep forever.

Everything is meant to be and one day you'll look back and be able to understand why it had to be.

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05-20-2004, 10:31 PM

SpaceAce: congrats on taking the step to make connections with other people and let them know how you're feeling. Most guys have a harder time with breakups than most women because you don't have as many intimate friendships so no support network. Cultivating your friendships with other people will make getting through this LOTS easier. She is not the only partner you'll ever have, and she's not the only FRIEND you'll ever have, either.

Here's a guy who has gone through a similar situation with his wife falling out of love with him (you have to read from the beginning to understand it):

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05-20-2004, 10:31 PM

whoa...that really sucks man

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05-20-2004, 10:32 PM

Originally posted by sexyclicks
it will take time, but you will heal. Right now you feel like nobody can understand your pain, but a lot of people have been through this, including myself. I never saw it coming either. I spent countless nights thinking what went wrong and how things could have been different. But at the end nobody can help you except yourself. Stay focused, stay strong. Don't hate her for what she did. Don't hate yourslef for what happened. Maybe it was meant to be this way. I hope you find your way fast. Because you WILL find your way sooner or later. And one day you will look back and remember the good parts and the beautiful memories.

Don't look at this as an ending, but as a beginning to something new. I know its hard but you need to see it this way.

Having been through exactly the same thing as you and sexyclicks I'm not even going to give you placations because I know how little they meant to me and how they didn't make me feel any better. As hard as it is to believe right now, and again I speak from experience, your not alone, other people have gone through this and survived. You will too. Good luck and my thoughts are with you.

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05-20-2004, 10:33 PM

What is there to be said? You are going through what most of us men have experienced. I have been there and I will not even say I know how you feel. Your hurt is your own and mine is mine.

As the days progress and the reality sets in, you start to question yourself as to who what or where and WHY she didn't tell you before you moved.

Every question has an answer - the best thing I did was use the shit I've been through from my childhood till I got into this industry as a strength - not as a weakness

- because if you didn't experience so much hell in your childhood
( to toughen your heart ) this hurt would be unbearable.

Listen, keep at this internet thing - it is the only future with a select few who know how to do this technical work.

Then, all I can tell you is pay attention to your heart - YOU DID NOTHING WRONG TO DESERVE THIS therefore this will hold good fortune for you in the future - just stick with it.

When it happened to me, I didn't quit and now I begin to see the benefits of not quitting.

You will make it through this.

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05-20-2004, 10:36 PM

Originally posted by KMR Stitch
woah dude....

A lot of words and a lot of emotion, I know.

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05-20-2004, 10:36 PM

Originally posted by TheSmutPeddlerDOTcom
Fuck man, I am really sorry to hear that. I know exactly what you're going through though, it's funny how one woman can make life so great then turn around and make it miserable.

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Thank you for the sympathy. It is amazing how one person can show you both sides of the coin.

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05-20-2004, 10:37 PM

Well damn dude, I can say that I have been in your position, but it was not nearly for as long as that. I was with a girl for 3 years, yeah its not 10 but 3 years is plenty fall in love with someone. All I can say dude, is don't try so hard. It will be the hardest thing you will ever do, but dont show so much pain. But yes do as you have and let her know you are hurt. It is not to be manly. It is not to show you are tough. It is to show her that you can live your life without her, which you can. You dont feel that way now but you can. If you were meant to be, she will realize that he is not the man for her, and she will miss all the things she had with you.. Keep that hope, but do NOT thrive on it. You don't need to go out looking for a new girl right now, you can check shit out which will make you feel better, but you do not need a new girl at the moment. But let me tell you this.. There is another girl out there for you, you dont think that, you dont want that, but its the truth. There is another girl out there that you can find love with as strong as you did with Alana, maybe even more, you just haven't experienced that yet. You will be ok dude, trust me. It's gonna take time, its gonna be painful I wont lie to you.. But you WILL pull through.

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05-20-2004, 10:39 PM

Couples meet, fall in love, and rarely stay together forever. Most break up, drift apart, divorce, or OJ each other.

Such is life. [/B]

I've been in other short relationships. I've never believed any of them would last and I never really intended them to. Afte ten years, though, I allowed myself to feel secure in our togetherness. Perhaps most relationships do come to an end but it's hard when the one that you thought ould never end does.

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05-20-2004, 10:39 PM

my first true love I felt the same as you..
we parted and I at the same time lost my new son.
Life for me was Unbearable, but with time and alot
of crying and trying to figure out what went wrong I realized
it wasnt Just me. It was life. KRL was right, dont looka t this as an ending, but a new begining. Soon after my Loss I met my
wife and My life ( Thank god ) has been nothing but wonderful since. Cetainly we have bad days, but I thank god for her every day. I respect your honesty and wish you the Best in the future.
There will be a Brighter day and a New love, its takes time.

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05-20-2004, 10:39 PM

Originally posted by Platinum/Lantern
Get well soon Space Ace

and I mean that with nothing but positivity intended

Thank you, it's kind of you to say that.

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05-20-2004, 10:41 PM

Originally posted by bdjuf
I have never yet seen a GFY post with so much emotion involved

A bit more than I am used to exposing but I felt like I was on fire with the power of it.

you really loved this girl, and she is gone

More than she will ever know.

I wish you all the best man, hit me up if you wanna talk about anything, I will give you a shoulder to cry on

my best wishes go to you...

your friend,

- Robert [/B]

Thank you, man, and thanks for ICQing me. You were the first person to contact me and until you did I had no idea that this thread was blowing up the way it was.

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05-20-2004, 10:42 PM

Originally posted by EviLGuY
Wow, that really and truly sucks. You have my deepest sympathies. Truly.

Thank you, I appreciate that.

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05-20-2004, 10:43 PM

Originally posted by imafuckingaussie
Sorry to hear about it man, hope you pull through, remember that every days a new day, and things will get better :-)
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Thanks, Justin. Every day is a new day but right now I can barely see tomorrow.

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05-20-2004, 10:46 PM

Originally posted by AMADude
Fuck man.
Just be prepared for when she comes crawling back to you. And she will do this.
It will be tough, but you need to tell her no.

I've thought about this and told myself I could never have her back. After all, I exposed myself and poured out my heart and soul to her. I told her everything I felt and everything I hoped and wished for us. I told her that nothing was more important to me than our life together and fixing what was wrong and yet she still could not make the concession of giving me a little tie to show her how much I meant it.

I told myself I won't take her back even if she wanted me to and a month ago I would have believed I was strong enough to stick to it. Now I am not so sure.

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05-20-2004, 10:46 PM

Dude, let me tell ya. Something like this can fuck you up the rest of your life, don't let it. You can choose to react to this however you like, I know right now it doesnt seem that way. After dealing with this for a few days you need to let her go and don't blame yourself or take it personally. Whatever you do DO NOT beg her back, get obsessive, or act like an asshole to her, you will only push her away more and destroy your ego. Your attitude with her should be something like "I'm sorry you decided to choose the path you did, it makes me sad but if thats what you really want then I wish you the best, will always love you" and stick to that and don't dwell on what you lost, rather be thankful for the experience. She will respect you and most likely eventually come back, if not at least your heads in the right place and you can move on and be healthy for the next woman.
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05-20-2004, 10:47 PM

First off all I must say that I am truely sorry to hear about what you are going through right now. This is the first occasion in a long time that I feel my english isn´t sufficient to express what I wanna tell.

Well, most of us will have experienced something like that.

What happened to you is only natural. Most highschool sweethearts break up at some time. Imagine you two would have been plants. You met each other when you were rather young. You were attached to each other and grew towards the direction of the sun.
The problem here is that for every human being there is a different sun. Not everybody is the same and different things make us "click". So we grow into lots of different directions.

That said. Don´t let yourself get bitter about it. I am absolutely sure that she didn´t want to betray and belie you.

Perhaps she felt way to responsible for both of you. There was not enough room for her to develop the way she wanted.

At this point in life this may be Your chance to grow up and become a Man.

Take responsibility for your actions! For your failures and for your successes!

What shocked me the most within your post is that you blame your life on other people and "Circumstances" way too much.

One day you might be able to see that tihis wasn´t the worst day in your life because it gave you a whole bunch of new opportunites. And these opportunites are not limited to the variety of girls waiting for you

Let your mind grow, work with it . Learn to understand yourself better and learn to understand women better.

Get to know, who you really are - without the adition of any other person.

I would´ve sent you a PM with some Links and reading tips but this function is disabled. I won´t post them on an overcrowded board like this.

Have a good look into NLP "NeuroLinguistic Programming", but don´t let yourself get fooled by any "gurus". Just work and play with your mind and get rid of the attachement to her.

If you feel solid enough to go on the prowl again make sure you that know what you want and that you get it.

Built yourself a system on how to pick up girls and how to judge them...

You don´t have to take the first best skanky bitch of the corner - (only If you feel like that- to get it over with)
Eventually you´ll meet a lady again that is worthy of a man like you who can develop feelings as deep as you showed us here.

All the best to you. Enjoy the summer it´ll be great!
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05-20-2004, 10:47 PM

This wont be helpfull at all, maybe, to you, but i rely too much on music to get some empathy or maybe somehow say to myself "i aint the only one going through the same thing!"

You just gotta keep hanging on...

Descendents - She Don´t Care

I get up every morning
And make a coffee like I've always done
She won't look in my eyes
What has our love become?

Try talking about it
(We talked about it)
We talk around it
And never get nowhere
I gave her everything I got..

And she don't care

She don't care...
No she don't!

Ten years before
I recognized the sacrifice she made to be with me
Said "when you want to you can leave"

It's easy to make promises
While you're dumb in love
Watch them all evaporate
Because she's had enough

Try talking about it
(We talked about it)
Talk around it
And never get nowhere

I gave her everything I got...

She made her mind
I lost my wife, my lover, my best friend
And I don't think I'll ever be right again

It's easy to make promises
While you're dumb in love
Watch them all evaporate
Because she's had enough

Try talking about it
(We talked about it)
Talk around it
And never get nowhere..

And I'm lonelier than you know...

She don't care..

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05-20-2004, 10:47 PM

Originally posted by merlin77
I am so sorry for everything that you have just been put through. I know that that is no condolence for you, but it is all that I have. I hope she realizes what she has lost. Your story truly broke my heart, and I hope you only the best while you work your way through it.

Thank you very much. I didn't set out to break anyone's heart but it makes me feel better that someone was able to feel and understand what I wrote.

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05-20-2004, 10:48 PM

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05-20-2004, 10:52 PM

Sorry to hear about your troubles, but remember
There are other fish in the sea....start living.
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05-20-2004, 10:54 PM

Sorry to hear about losing the woman you have loved for 10 years. I think it took a real man to post a story like that on gfy and I respect that. I could not imagine how you feel but hang in there. Good luck and I hope everything works out for you.

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05-20-2004, 10:54 PM

http://www.askmen.com <--- Read some articles there, dig in the archives, there is a lot of useful info on there that men just don't talk about but needs to be said.
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05-20-2004, 10:56 PM

Originally posted by zzgundamnzz
You know theres nothing you could of did to stop her from leaving you... atleast not then. It seems that she wanted to leave you for quite a while already. Its just she probably couldn't because she was still attached.

Usually when a girl leaves you. Someone you've been in a relationship for a very long time leaves you its because the bad outweighs the good. It means she wasn't happy. Even though you had your good times there were times when she wasn't happy. Its just reached a point where she couldn't take it anymore...

This other man. She's probably just using him as a reason to breakup with you. Its her way of rationalizing the breakup.

I considered all of that and she and I talked about it. The thing is, the reasons she had for wanting to leave were all things that were easily dealt with if only she would have told me about them. There are no uncrossable chasms between us. Neither one of us (from what I understand) woke up every morning thinking how unhappy we were to be together and neither one of us was sick of the other person. Almost everything that was wrong between us was a misunderstanding. She told me she thought I had gotten bored with her. To me, that's absolutely ridiculous. If she had ever told me, "I feel like you're bored with me," I could have shown her different. She thought I didn't want to be married to her but that is not even close to the truth. I always felt comitted to her and believed she was comitted to me. To me, marriage was something we would do when we got around to it but as far as I was concerned, we were husband and wife. I wasn't going anywhere. If she had told me, "I feel like you don't really want to be with me forever," or, "I know you're committed but marriage is very imortant to me," we would have been married, already. There were a lot of things like that that were WAY more important to her than she let on. She never mentioned marriage more than casually and she didn't make much of an issue out of anything else that bothered her, either, until everything became so important that she wanted out.

I really had no reasonable clues about most of it. She is usually so transparent to me that I can tell you exactly what she's thinking or feeling at any given moment but these things that were so close to her heart she kept hidden.

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05-20-2004, 10:58 PM

Originally posted by SlickRick
sorry about your brake up SpaceAce, don't know if this will help but time heals all wounds

Yes, I keep telling myself that but right now every minute without her is dragging by like a month.

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05-20-2004, 10:59 PM

Wow, how fitting.

Ten Years Gone - Zeppelin

Then as it was, then again it will be
An' though the course may change sometimes
Rivers always reach the sea
Blind stars of fortune, each have several rays
On the wings of maybe, down in birds of prey
Kind of makes me feel sometimes, didn't have to grow
But as the eagle leaves the nest, it's got so far to go

Changes fill my time, baby, that's alright with me
In the midst I think of you, and how it used to be

Did you ever really need somebody, And really need 'em bad
Did you ever really want somebody, The best love you ever had
Do you ever remember me, baby, did it feel so good
'Cause it was just the first time, And you knew you would

Through the eyes an' I sparkle, Senses growing keen
Taste your love along the way, See your feathers preen
Kind of makes makes me feel sometimes, Didn't have to grow
We are eagles of one nest, The nest is in our soul

Vixen in my dreams, with great surprise to me
Never thought I'd see your face the way it used to be
Oh darlin', oh darlin'

I'm never gonna leave you. I never gonna leave
Holdin' on, ten years gone
Ten years gone, holdin' on, ten years gone

Either that or

You don't know how much I need you.
While you're around I don't feel blue.
And when we kiss I know that you need me too.
I can't believe I found a love that's so pure and true.

But it all was bullshit.
It was a goddam joke.
And when I think of you and I,
I hope you fucking choke.

I hope you're glad with what you've done to me.
I lay in bed all day long feeling melancholy.
You left me here all alone, tears running constantly.

Oh somebody kill me please,
somebody kill me plee-ase,
I'm on my knees,
pretty pretty please kill me.

I want to die.
Put a bullet in my head.
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05-20-2004, 11:00 PM

Originally posted by spannow
Most importantly - don't follow anyone's advice! That being said, I've learned the hard way to never make a decision in the heat of the moment. Always follow your heart and you will never be disappointed. Let life unfold as it should - we can only control what we can control - nothing more...

Good luck bro, I truly hope everything works out for you!

For what it's worth, that's my

Thanks for the well-wishes. All my heart wants is to fix what I had done wrong but I will not get that chance and that's what's so hard. Losing her is bad enough but fifty times worse is losing her when I so desperately want to fix what was wrong now that I know what it was. The burden of knowing that I made mistakes that now I can never fix makes this all much worse.

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05-20-2004, 11:00 PM

Originally posted by smokingdawn
Sorry to hear that...good luck to you

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05-20-2004, 11:01 PM

Originally posted by Soul_Rebel

Yes, they don't make a frowny sad enough to express my feelings.

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05-20-2004, 11:02 PM

Originally posted by Lane
posting all that stuff was one step towards getting over her. you'll be fine soon

Thanks, this whole thing is very out of character for me but I don't know anyone here in Las Vegas. GFY is the closest thing to a community that I have access to.

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05-20-2004, 11:05 PM

Originally posted by dig420
Women are bitches and can't be trusted. Either they're fucking obsessed with you to the point you can't breathe or they could care less about you and love to torture you. There's no middle ground. I'm sure other people have had different experiences, but it seems to me that when you don't really care about a woman she'll fall terminally in love with you and turn into a psycho jealous bitch. If you really care she'll sense that and know she can get away with anything and your life will be hell until she finally loses interest and leaves you for the surfer across the street.

Another woman is the best way to get over the old woman. Don't allow yourself to sit around and get metaphysical, TRY to get out and find a new one. If you can't hook up a new one then the emotions from this one will fester and fuck you up.

I don't think all women are so bad. I don't think Alana is a bad person but I think she made bad choices. Instead of telling me what she was feeling, she let it build up until it boiled over. Part of what makes this so hard is that she really is such a good woman. She is better than I deserve and I wish I hadn't screwed things up.

I guess eventually I will feel like I want another woman but right now all I want is the lover I can't have.

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05-20-2004, 11:07 PM

Originally posted by phatzane®
jesus man i truly feel for you

i have heart my heart just virtually crushed by a girl who in turn made me not trust ANYONE in my life. but i honestly believe in the saying its better to have loved....ah u know. im sorry man, only time will heal this.

Yes, only someone you trust and love can really hurt you. Ironic, isn't it? Thanks for the reply, phatzane. When I'm feeling a little less like walking death, I will go try to cheer myself up with your latest "O" face thread.

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05-20-2004, 11:09 PM

Originally posted by MuleScrote
Of course there's nothing I can say to help the situation or change the way you feel right now, but you have my deepest sympathy.

You have demonstrated nothing but first class attitude and generosity since I met you online. Things will work out for you and you will be stronger in the end.

Keep your chin up....her loss.

Thank you, MuleScrote. I hope your uncle is doing well. I don't know if you've sent any updates lately because my mailbox is so full of spam.

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05-20-2004, 11:12 PM

Originally posted by tootie
I'm sorry you had to experience this. I've been hurt a zillion times in my life and it never gets any easier.

Dig, you've been dating the wrong women, apparently. I know several women who are neither obsessively clingy or totally uncaring. There is a middle ground if you find a sane woman.

I've been hurt before but I have never been hurt by someone who was so deeply a part of my life. I do not believe it is possible to be closer to anyone than I was to Alana. She was the first thing I thought of in the morning and the last thing I thought of before bed. Everything between us collapsed in the course of a week. This guy came to town, she was smitten, all these issues that she never let on about came to the surface and I was buried under it all, unable to do anything.

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05-20-2004, 11:12 PM

"She is better than I deserve"

Congratulations dude.

Would you truely wan´t to be with a guy like that?

Stop picturing yourself smaller and less worthy than you are.

Good luck.
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05-20-2004, 11:13 PM

Originally posted by WarChild
I know what you're going through, sort of.

I'd like to tell you that things will get better. But they won't. They're going to get worse first.

Hang in there though .. There is life after love. It's just going to take you some time to get there.

I hope you're wrong about things getting worse. I can't imagine sinking much lower. I'm sure life does go one but at the moment I don't particularly want it to.

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05-20-2004, 11:14 PM

Originally posted by robfantasy
sorry dude

Thanks, I'm pretty sorry, myself.

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05-20-2004, 11:14 PM

Originally posted by Mr.Fiction
Sorry.

The only thing that will make it get better is time. It sounds like a stupid cliche, but it's true.

Yes, time is my only hope.

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05-20-2004, 11:16 PM

Originally posted by Blinky
Every cloud has a silver lining.

I thought my last break up would kill me, but now I'm with someone even better. Unfortunately, we're now heading towards breakup anyway. As long as you move on, you'll be fine.

I've broken up, before, but I've never loved anyone in the way I love this girl who has left me. I would have given or done anything for her and it hurts to have that total devotion thrown back in your face.

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05-20-2004, 11:21 PM

Originally posted by KRL
One of the hardest things in life is coming to the brute realization that Love is not forever.
Smile and cherish the memories. She can never take those from your heart. Those you can keep forever.

Everything is meant to be and one day you'll look back and be able to understand why it had to be.

Thanks, KRL, although I don't necessarily believe that love always has to end. I do believe that two people can be together for their entire lives and be happy. I would have been happy to be with Alana forever. Ten years together didn't diminish that feeling in me and I believe that she would have continued to feel that way as well if she had been able to express to me the things that were hurting her before we reached this point. She keeps professing to love me but it's not enough.

The memories are the most paainful thing of all. I remember things like her sneaking food out of her school's cafateria then riding the bus for an hour or more just to bring me a cold cafateria hamburger. I remember her sleeping next to me in my car, enduring cold which she hates, and then taking the long bus ride to school in the morning without enough sleep just so I wouldn't have to be alone. I remember her as a teenager, a very poor swimmer, shivering in my arms while I held her at the end of the pier and waves crashed over us. I felt strong and useful and needed then but now that is all gone.

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05-20-2004, 11:21 PM

Dang SpaceAce! You're hitting home REALLY HARD THERE BRO!! If you need to talk, hit me up on ICQ (in my location)! I got an ear for you bro!

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05-20-2004, 11:21 PM

Originally posted by ajpiii
sorry to hear about this man

shit like that is hard to get through, but someone it always works out for the best

Thanks, I hope things work out for the best.

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05-20-2004, 11:22 PM

Originally posted by Soul_Rebel
Keep your head up and remember what Tupac taught us:

Bitches ain't shit.

Now if only I could make myself believe that.

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05-20-2004, 11:25 PM

Originally posted by sexyclicks
it will take time, but you will heal. Right now you feel like nobody can understand your pain, but a lot of people have been through this, including myself. I never saw it coming either. I spent countless nights thinking what went wrong and how things could have been different. But at the end nobody can help you except yourself. Stay focused, stay strong. Don't hate her for what she did. Don't hate yourslef for what happened. Maybe it was meant to be this way. I hope you find your way fast. Because you WILL find your way sooner or later. And one day you will look back and remember the good parts and the beautiful memories.

Don't look at this as an ending, but as a beginning to something new. I know its hard but you need to see it this way.

I understand that other people have experienced loss but I also know the depth of my feelings.

Alana was my focus. I'm motivated mostly by comfort. I just want to have enough to get by and be comfortable. All of my higher goals and my desires to have more than I have now were because I wanted her to have those things. She was my focus and my reason for wanting to do things.

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05-20-2004, 11:28 PM

Wow. I am also in a 10-year relationship and don't know how I would cope with such a situation. I once had a nightmare similar to your story. While horrible, it was only a nightmare. I can't really offer words of encouragement other than you're going to have to take each day at a time, and focus on the fact that it was not a result of your actions. My only other advice is to try to emerse yourself in work, and get near some friends or family as soon as possible. It's not a time to be alone.

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05-20-2004, 11:28 PM

Originally posted by Babagirls
you're not alone sweety! but you can sleep well knowing that she will NEVER find a man HALF as good and loyal and faithful as you. why girls dump the best men for assholes or morons, i will never know.

just let the hurt "burn" . its going to be a rough ride for a while, but the only thing that will make you feel better is time.....TIME!!!!! Give it time!!!!! sounds like BS right now, but after some time passes, you will be okay. you probably will always love her; 10 yrs is a lot to throw away.

I wish you nothing but the best!!

Sincerly,
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xoxoxo's!!!!!!

I know she will never find anyone as loyal as me because no one could ever be more loyal than me. I am completely loyal to the few friends I make and the people I love. Aside from my feelings for Alana, there is nothing more important to me than loyalty and trustworthiness. I cannot imagine betraying a lover's trust by cheating on her or lying to her. I hope she's happy wherever she ends up. I don't want her to find out how many assholes there really are out there because she is sweet girl and doesn't deserve mistreatment.

Ten years is a lot to throw away.

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05-20-2004, 11:29 PM

Originally posted by maxdaname
damn... I'm sorry to hear about this...

Thank you for the reply and the sympathy.

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05-20-2004, 11:30 PM

Originally posted by RP Fade
Man that sucks..having your heart ripped out and stomped on like that is at times unbarable. But, if it's any consolation and you can forgive the cliche, time does heal all wounds and it WILL make you a better person..trust me.

Yes, so I keep hearing. It may even be true but it's hard to imagine a long enough period of time to heal this.

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