what the fuck

Why can't chicks see beyond my business. My business is my fucking business, not me. I shoot porn, I don't kill people. I don't force people to do anything they aren't seeking. I don't understand the controversy behind why pornographers are so baaaaaad.

Went out with a chick tonight, everything was cool. I had two beers at dinner, and what the hell... I'm going to tell a chick about my greatest accomplishment. I have no reason to hide it. Here's the conversation we had online when I got home.

xenigo: so was I anything like what you expected?
girl: i am actually trying to finish up on line so i can get to sleep
girl: yes and no
girl: was i
xenigo: no in a good way? lol
xenigo: yeah you were totally what I expected
girl: is that good
girl: i never really know what to expect
xenigo: so, you said yes and no... no in what way?
girl: i am suprised at your job
xenigo: I bet...
xenigo: it's a hard decision when I tell people, I just don't know how people will react. I don't think it reflects on who I am as a person though... I'm not my job or business
xenigo: I hope you can see beyond that
girl: i don't know
xenigo: :-\
girl: i am trying to be honest
xenigo: yeah, I know... I appreciate honesty. I try to be honest about my life... but it's hard when people can't see beyond what they think I'm about... public perception isn't usually correct
girl: i know
xenigo: and I've had many friendships go bad because of that... it makes me sad
girl: i can imagine. i know you would like to talk more but i should finish my email and go to sleep.
xenigo: ok, I'll let you sleep