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Originally posted by SilverTab
he was fine when taking his medication...but this all happened so suddently...he decided to stop taking them...went psycho again...but like I said..he was still very lucid....he couldn't accept the fact that he was not in control anymore...he didn't know what was real and what was not....
still I find it real hard to understand and accept what he did...he was a really close friend...
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I also lost a friend like that, only he was never on meds, so when he did it it was a complete shock. To this day some of our friends that couldn't deal with it call it an "accident". He was never depressed in the classical sense, he was getting progressively more insane, to the point where he was indeed a danger to other people and himself, but I never imagined he would die by his own hand.
He knew he was crazy and was pretty comfortable with it. I think if anything he had a fear of growing up and knowing he would never cut it as an adult. He lived a real peter pan life. He was really violent, but he was always good to me. I miss him sometimes, but I know that he wasn't meant for this world. If he was here now he would either be in jail or in the mental ward, probably comatose on meds. I don't know if it helps you, but at least in my case, after I got over the pain looking back it made sense. His future would have only contained suffering.
