I hope things work out for you, but with that many bills & kids to feed, I'd be looking for at least a part time job to bring in some steady money. Then work on growing your business & putting at least 3 months living expenses in the bank.
In any small business, shit happens. Processors go tits up, sponsors fold & you need to be prepared to handle the blows. Whether you love the industry or not is irrelevant. I would suck it up & get a job ASAP to make sure my kids were taken care of.
