..i just found out this moment my grandmother from my mothers side of the family has cancer
she had some fluid in her lungs and they extracted it and put her on oxygen and they tested the fluid and it came back positive for cancer. we dont know what kind of cancer, its being tested now so i will hear what kind it is soon, my heart is broken, i love my grandmother so fucking much.
she hasnt smoked in over 18 years, i dont know exactly how long, but i know she quit before i was born.
why the hell does life do us like this, why the fuck must there be such an illness that just slowly eats you away. I have lost my favorite aunt awhile ago due to cancer, why take another loved one from me. god i wish this was a bad dream but its not
i am going to go have a quiet dinner now, ill talk to you guys later.