What the fuck is it with fucking psycho ass fucking bitches?
I spent FOUR DAYS in Vegas with this chick 3 weeks ago, four fucking days. Here is this evenings email log:
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Recieved 4/30 5:45pm
Subject: *myname* PLEASE!
Hey.....I just tried calling and didn't get an answer from you but I know you were there, PLEASE, PLEASE sign onto IM for a moment. Now I really am begging you.
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Recieved 4/30 6:12pm
Subject: I can't continue living like this
I'm miserable here knowing that something is definately wrong. I'm assuming you just don't want anything to do with me anymore. I'm not saying I can understand why.....I thought I treated you well...I thought we got along...I thought we enjoyed spending time with eachother. Whatever is wrong I don't understand why you can't tell me about it. Even if it's bad news, I need to know. No one has ever meant as much to me before as you do and this is breaking my heart. I look at all the pictures I took of you and just cry, because I fear that's the last I'll ever see of you. I want to be with you, I want to hear from you - I don't want to be overbearing but you are really driving me nuts. It's been a full week now since we've spoken...last wednesday. And you know, even if this is it? I need to talk to you one last time, ok? I can't handle this otherwise. You might just think I overreact about everything but one of my biggest fears right now is losing you and I believe that it's coming true. I'm sorry but I can't see anything else that I've done to piss you off enough to stop talking to me altogether. I care about you tremendously and this just isn't right. If the time spent with me meant ANYTHING to you, you should have it in you to at least tell me what's going on. The pain doesn't go away as days pass, it just gets worse. I thought the feelings between us were real, I honestly did.....this is unbelievable. PLEASE call me, or PLEASE sign onto IM...I must talk to you.
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Recieved 4/30 7:30pm
Subject: Holy FUCK
What more can I do to see/talk to you, buy myself a short notice plane ticket? Will you *then* talk to me? I'm really scared over here and I'm reaching my limit. I can't go on like this not knowing what's up. It's fine to take breaks from people. You don't have to see or talk to me every single day....but it's also really helpful to tell the person before hand so they don't feel like the happiest part of their life is collapsing
Look, I'm not going to argue with you but I really do need to know what's going on or I'm going to go insane and end up checking myself in somewhere.
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Recieved: 4/30 8:21pm
Subject: SING ON NOW!!
You mean so much to me and I can't handle not knowing what is happening. I don't know what I can say to make you talk to me. I am asking you NOT to do this because things ARE great when we're together....I need to know if whatever's going on is something that can be fixed or if it's time to try to move on..... Please call me tonight at 8pm. I am going to be waiting for you. I'm really freaking out over here, I wish I wasn't...but it's hard not to because I care. It would be easy to tell myself that my reaction to not hearing from you is what's keeping you away, but somehow I can't even buy that. If I didn't care I could be out with any of the guys I met on saturday night. Those places aren't great for meeting worthwhile people - hookups for dinner and sex is about as far as it goes there, but you know I'm not like that and I don't want any of them. What I want is you, I don't know if I'm going to get what I want, but that's it. You need to let me know. I've gone over my plan minutes so please, please give me a call tonight at 8pm. Time to visit southwest.com? I hope not. I don't want to resort to that. Yes I want to visit you but not under these circumstances. If I was being a bit too forceful about visiting you, I apologise for that too. I wish you would tell me if and when things that I say and do bother you so we don't have to get to this point...if it's something that I've done, I'm sorry. If it's something that's bothering you, please open up and tell me what it is. I'm sure we can work something out, and if not, life goes on....but I need to know these things so MY life can go on. I will be waiting at 8.
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Recieved: 4/30 9:12pm
Subject: Open NOW. read TOP TO BOTTOM
Ok now I demand to know what the fuck is going on ****; You're really hurting me. Just let me know WHY this is happening and what's next for us. Are we over with? After 4 wonderful days? Just like that? You told me you wouldn't do this to me after we'd met and after certain things occured between us. Is that all it was to you? Sex? WHERE THE HELL IS ALL OF THIS COMING FROM NOW? Did you not enjoy yourself? Are you SO different in your home environment for this not to work? Leading 2 lives? Don't want something this serious? Enjoy having fun away from home and then going back and living girlfriend free?
(me: I think shes catching on...)
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Recieved: 4/30 9:35pm
Subject: us FUCKER!
I asked YOU what I was to you, not the other way around. Am I so much of a burden to be around? I feel GOOD around you, I thought you felt the same...you appeared that way anyway. I can't believe this is even happening...it shouldn't be happening, I don't see a cause or reason for this to be happening. Everything was so wonderful between us and now I'm in tears again. Do I really have to fly up there for you to talk to me? Why can't you be a man and tell me the truth? I'm not taking silence for an answer. You don't DO this to people and get away with it without even giving an explanation! I need to know what's wrong. You have 2 days to contact me or I'm going to have to come up with other arrangements.
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recieved: 4/30 10:02pm
Subject: I love you
I'm sorry if at times it seemed like I was rushing things.......I had no intentions of scaring you off....just trying to say I wanted to see you again soon. All I wanted to do was take things one step at a time... I can't imagine what effects our stay had on you. Does that have something to do with why we're ...why *you're* not talking to me? I've always felt I've been able to tell you anything.....and this seems too strange after all the excellent time we spent together...I don't know what to think about this situation. You've seen all of my GUESSES in the emails, but I don't know the truth. Whether it's a combination of all or none...I don't know the actual truth behind your silence.
I'm sorry!!!!
Love Always,
*****
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Recieved: 4/30 10:25pm
Subject: :'(
I'm very concerned about you now. as the woman who loves you for who you are and how great you make me feel, please find it in yourself to tell me what on earth is going on between us. I would really like to remain together...whatever has happened, I would like to try to work through it...I believe what we have together is worth that much to give it a try. At the end of the trip, you told me I would see you again........I would really like to.
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Recieved 4/30 5:45pm
Subject: *myname* PLEASE!
Hey.....I just tried calling and didn't get an answer from you but I know you were there, PLEASE, PLEASE sign onto IM for a moment. Now I really am begging you.
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Recieved 4/30 6:12pm
Subject: I can't continue living like this
I'm miserable here knowing that something is definately wrong. I'm assuming you just don't want anything to do with me anymore. I'm not saying I can understand why.....I thought I treated you well...I thought we got along...I thought we enjoyed spending time with eachother. Whatever is wrong I don't understand why you can't tell me about it. Even if it's bad news, I need to know. No one has ever meant as much to me before as you do and this is breaking my heart. I look at all the pictures I took of you and just cry, because I fear that's the last I'll ever see of you. I want to be with you, I want to hear from you - I don't want to be overbearing but you are really driving me nuts. It's been a full week now since we've spoken...last wednesday. And you know, even if this is it? I need to talk to you one last time, ok? I can't handle this otherwise. You might just think I overreact about everything but one of my biggest fears right now is losing you and I believe that it's coming true. I'm sorry but I can't see anything else that I've done to piss you off enough to stop talking to me altogether. I care about you tremendously and this just isn't right. If the time spent with me meant ANYTHING to you, you should have it in you to at least tell me what's going on. The pain doesn't go away as days pass, it just gets worse. I thought the feelings between us were real, I honestly did.....this is unbelievable. PLEASE call me, or PLEASE sign onto IM...I must talk to you.
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Recieved 4/30 7:30pm
Subject: Holy FUCK
What more can I do to see/talk to you, buy myself a short notice plane ticket? Will you *then* talk to me? I'm really scared over here and I'm reaching my limit. I can't go on like this not knowing what's up. It's fine to take breaks from people. You don't have to see or talk to me every single day....but it's also really helpful to tell the person before hand so they don't feel like the happiest part of their life is collapsing
Look, I'm not going to argue with you but I really do need to know what's going on or I'm going to go insane and end up checking myself in somewhere. -----------------
Recieved: 4/30 8:21pm
Subject: SING ON NOW!!
You mean so much to me and I can't handle not knowing what is happening. I don't know what I can say to make you talk to me. I am asking you NOT to do this because things ARE great when we're together....I need to know if whatever's going on is something that can be fixed or if it's time to try to move on..... Please call me tonight at 8pm. I am going to be waiting for you. I'm really freaking out over here, I wish I wasn't...but it's hard not to because I care. It would be easy to tell myself that my reaction to not hearing from you is what's keeping you away, but somehow I can't even buy that. If I didn't care I could be out with any of the guys I met on saturday night. Those places aren't great for meeting worthwhile people - hookups for dinner and sex is about as far as it goes there, but you know I'm not like that and I don't want any of them. What I want is you, I don't know if I'm going to get what I want, but that's it. You need to let me know. I've gone over my plan minutes so please, please give me a call tonight at 8pm. Time to visit southwest.com? I hope not. I don't want to resort to that. Yes I want to visit you but not under these circumstances. If I was being a bit too forceful about visiting you, I apologise for that too. I wish you would tell me if and when things that I say and do bother you so we don't have to get to this point...if it's something that I've done, I'm sorry. If it's something that's bothering you, please open up and tell me what it is. I'm sure we can work something out, and if not, life goes on....but I need to know these things so MY life can go on. I will be waiting at 8.
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Recieved: 4/30 9:12pm
Subject: Open NOW. read TOP TO BOTTOM
Ok now I demand to know what the fuck is going on ****; You're really hurting me. Just let me know WHY this is happening and what's next for us. Are we over with? After 4 wonderful days? Just like that? You told me you wouldn't do this to me after we'd met and after certain things occured between us. Is that all it was to you? Sex? WHERE THE HELL IS ALL OF THIS COMING FROM NOW? Did you not enjoy yourself? Are you SO different in your home environment for this not to work? Leading 2 lives? Don't want something this serious? Enjoy having fun away from home and then going back and living girlfriend free?
(me: I think shes catching on...)
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Recieved: 4/30 9:35pm
Subject: us FUCKER!
I asked YOU what I was to you, not the other way around. Am I so much of a burden to be around? I feel GOOD around you, I thought you felt the same...you appeared that way anyway. I can't believe this is even happening...it shouldn't be happening, I don't see a cause or reason for this to be happening. Everything was so wonderful between us and now I'm in tears again. Do I really have to fly up there for you to talk to me? Why can't you be a man and tell me the truth? I'm not taking silence for an answer. You don't DO this to people and get away with it without even giving an explanation! I need to know what's wrong. You have 2 days to contact me or I'm going to have to come up with other arrangements.
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recieved: 4/30 10:02pm
Subject: I love you
I'm sorry if at times it seemed like I was rushing things.......I had no intentions of scaring you off....just trying to say I wanted to see you again soon. All I wanted to do was take things one step at a time... I can't imagine what effects our stay had on you. Does that have something to do with why we're ...why *you're* not talking to me? I've always felt I've been able to tell you anything.....and this seems too strange after all the excellent time we spent together...I don't know what to think about this situation. You've seen all of my GUESSES in the emails, but I don't know the truth. Whether it's a combination of all or none...I don't know the actual truth behind your silence.
I'm sorry!!!!
Love Always,
*****
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Recieved: 4/30 10:25pm
Subject: :'(
I'm very concerned about you now. as the woman who loves you for who you are and how great you make me feel, please find it in yourself to tell me what on earth is going on between us. I would really like to remain together...whatever has happened, I would like to try to work through it...I believe what we have together is worth that much to give it a try. At the end of the trip, you told me I would see you again........I would really like to.
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