Originally posted by keyDet79
I am 19 and I have no friends, at all.
A little life story here:
Me and my parents moved from Russia to Holland when I was about 6, and I basically grew up in poor neighbourhoods there, in afghanistan (dad was in the red army), and here in the Netherlands. We moved a lot, so last time I had really close friends was probably at age 12 or so.
One of them once stole my house key and robbed our house (stole a few computer games, wrecked our phone/fax machine, nothing serious), trust me I knew who it was right away. My dad went over his place (cuz mom didn't know, she was away for months) and their folks compensated for all the damage. Then a year or so later me and my mother started to notice someone been in our house regularly. Candy started to disappear, things were misplaced, etcetera. So I once stayed at home and didn't open the door when he rang the bell. Guess what, I caught him in action. Blackmailed him for about $15 and told him he owes me. I never told my mother, and dad didn't even know. I'm no rat and I know for sure he would have done the same thing.
And this was a guy I used to hang out with every day, played games with him, slept over, etc.
So now I'm damaged goods and I don't mind having no friends.
Well I have one from elementary school, but we both are totally different people. Plus he's homosexual. He calls me a few times a year or so, sometimes we go get a drink.
But whenever someone calls me I feel like they want something from me. I don't want anything from anyone, I never call the people I know, I never try to meet new people.
I probably don't have a healthy psyche because I don't mind. I smoke a lot of pot too, maybe it helps.
Just saying, you're not alone and it could be worse. At least you are still able to make friends.
I am 19 and I have no friends, at all.
A little life story here:
Me and my parents moved from Russia to Holland when I was about 6, and I basically grew up in poor neighbourhoods there, in afghanistan (dad was in the red army), and here in the Netherlands. We moved a lot, so last time I had really close friends was probably at age 12 or so.
One of them once stole my house key and robbed our house (stole a few computer games, wrecked our phone/fax machine, nothing serious), trust me I knew who it was right away. My dad went over his place (cuz mom didn't know, she was away for months) and their folks compensated for all the damage. Then a year or so later me and my mother started to notice someone been in our house regularly. Candy started to disappear, things were misplaced, etcetera. So I once stayed at home and didn't open the door when he rang the bell. Guess what, I caught him in action. Blackmailed him for about $15 and told him he owes me. I never told my mother, and dad didn't even know. I'm no rat and I know for sure he would have done the same thing.
And this was a guy I used to hang out with every day, played games with him, slept over, etc.
So now I'm damaged goods and I don't mind having no friends.
Well I have one from elementary school, but we both are totally different people. Plus he's homosexual. He calls me a few times a year or so, sometimes we go get a drink.
But whenever someone calls me I feel like they want something from me. I don't want anything from anyone, I never call the people I know, I never try to meet new people.
I probably don't have a healthy psyche because I don't mind. I smoke a lot of pot too, maybe it helps.
Just saying, you're not alone and it could be worse. At least you are still able to make friends.
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