AlienQ is melting down again lol - copied from another board

50 meltdowns...

I didn't know that he is banned here :P But it's even worse: he does not have the chance to reply at all.. This thread is like kicking in the head of a dying man lying on the ground already.

all you guys making fun of him are fucked up

oh please.. You ever read that dudes posts?

if this was written by someone he didn't like, he'd be all over it..
Fuck him

You can't go around lighting fires all around you for years, and expect not to get burned.

no shit.

AlienQ, pain is a powerful force that will guide you to a destination where it cannot be sustained, for better or for worse. You can make the better of it. Learn, earn, and all of this will soon be a memory. Good luck to you, sir.

Don't feel so bad, he's not replying on the "other" board either..
He's likely sitting on ICQ waiting for the work and donations to come in so he can get back to being the big pimp he says he is.

that design looked to me like someone trapped in a corner
you have to be free to design, happy

That is a great quote, regardless of relevance

well this guy is a designer, right?.. nowdays every kid can do that laundry.
with all the free available tools and outstanding tutorials many desingners will be out of job.

alienQ invented designing

I disagree.

If you take your profession serious there's no way you can go out of business when it comes to designing. You can always learn new things, like coding/script integration to offer that extra service that almost every client wants. You can improve your skills by using new technology, practicing and always being up-to-date when it comes to designing industry news.

Even if you read a lot of tutorials it will take a lot of practice before you can become a serious designer and satisfy the clients needs.

The only way to fail as a designer is by not adapting and having a big mouth like AlienQ. If you want to make money you gotta stop clowning around.

I think you missed the point. You can't cure a destructive addiction with just another injection. Unless you are of course the heartless dealer he is referring to. Paul, you are a cheap motherfucker and most of you fucks really do not appreciate the talent some of these designers bring to your business and you really don't deserve their services..

And you are another one of those douche bags that thinks the Mona Lisa can be painted with the touch of a button. Here, I'll spell it for you: GOFUCKYOURSELF! But since you're dense or slow you'll probably be more responsive to this

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Alien, let me add this, don't believe this shit I've been hearing for years and it's been keeping you in this smagma. There are people and companies out there that will appreciate your talent, sure you may not be looking at titties every day, you may even have to wear a shirt and tie but fuckit you will get a regular salary, benefits and most important: RESPECT and self-dignity!

a succesfull porn site doens't need mona lisa designs.

Great idea, blame everyone but yourself for being a fucking loser.

Why does he think anyone even cares? He is just some random moron.

This is what I see as the single reason why he keeps failing. I dont like his designs, but he knows how to use photoshop. If he had someone to manage the front and make sure he got the money - when he completed the job, he would not have to run around acting like a clown on the boards.

I have never met him as a person - chattet on ICQ twice i think. Offered him work, but he dident have time. But he did have time to fuck around on the boards. That experiance was what founded my opinin of Mark. I know a few people that stoped giving him work, because it always took forever to get it done.

When you start walking down the cookiecutter path, every step you take down that path makes the chances of landing great full designjobs smaller. Just like a musician, you are only as good as your last record/design.

It's simple math. If you ONLY do design, and you turn out cookiecutter design, you need to live in a country where you can pay your bill doing those lowpaying jobs.

You are a bloody idiot and completely clueless about the relevance of design when making sales.. ESPECIALLY in porn.

There is a difference between DESIGN and photoshop skills

waiting for alienq to make a fake nic.... very disapointed here.

there is no need to be so rude.

i know these two diffrences, but actually what i was trying to say is it fairy easy and cheap to develop your skills as designer (if you have a feeling for it of cource) trough the free tips and tricks.

took my self as example where first i learned the tools and then started learning to design.
not the greatest one but it takes me where i want.

of cource design is important, but from my pov it doesn't have to be extravaganza art.

depression, helplessness and withdrawal symptoms are very bad combination. I hope Christmas Season put some light for alienQ

i dont like to kick someone when he is down already

While your generousity is commendable, you're not doing him a favour. What you're doing is strengthen his belief that he's a victim and that someone else should help bail him out every time he pulls one of these. He needs to take responsibility for his own actions, he's been around for a long time and he's pissed away more chances that most people here get in a lifetime. If he's hungry, let him starve, until he figures out that it's HIS responsibility to take himself out of the deep shit HE has single-handedly put himself in. NOBODY owes him anything and if he's too weak to prevail than you're even doing humanity a disservice by helping weak specimens survive through no merit of their own.

I just made another sale....So, whats happening?

you're all talking about him

thread after thread

Nice to see a few people here get it. Let this fucker finally crumble. It's no one else's job to bail him out.

Here's one of similar "Christmas Time" posts, same time two years ago:

What is the meaning of life?

My thoughts on it's meaning has changed through the years.

When I was broke ( 18-30 ) all I thought about was the meaning of life is to make lot's of money get fucked often by different girls and get the things I want through the mastery of my knowledge, I lived what I can best describe as the "art of living" finding happiness in what I created. I always took any money I could for my stock investments and once there it would never leave PERIOD, I always took a larger part to buy into veritable stocks GOOGLE, Microsoft, SIRUS and XM Radio. I got my ass beat on some stocks while excelling in others such as Energy CONOCO, BP and bits of technology. It did not really make me much in liquid cash through those years as I attempted to impress folks for nothing other than being a "Good dog".

When I was middle of the vein ( 31-35 ) I thought of simple things are what would make me happy, and for some time simple things did make me happy though I was still struggling to master my skills money was not the problem. I lied about many things always hiding my ace knowing that I can leave my profession at anytime and be OK. I even made threads saying how broke I was and most the time I was indeed broke though I was never willing to ever break my investments or liquidate a dime during those times not even for a simple electicity bill which I was able to usually handle with a few banner order's under desperate circumstances.

( 36 to present ) I took the step and went hard and over a few months found new ways to make money threw better Investments. Some of you would not be happy about how some of it was done, many of you would not even have an idea how it started and really I am not going into how it came about but it happened none the less and it was not even entirelly in adult entertainment with exception to the very beginning of the process of investments as I always filtered monies into investments. A simple design bringing in 800 bucks enabled me to score a number shares of GOOGLE or BP here and there while Energy Companies went hands over fist from time to time. Of all things though... Real estate proved the pathway to some success that broke larger amounts of cash flow converting some of my investements in NASDAQ companies for some buy outs on commercial lots...

Not big things really, maybe 80K here and in 1 case 220K in North Carolina on a 20 Acre area.

Now that I have retired more or less and spent my savings of over 10 years for my first home ( Paid in Full ) I am beginning to think that the meaning of life is rather trivial. It means nothing. My skills are takin for granted by not only myself but my clients and even my wife. It's not a bad thing I suppose but now I pace around my house wondering what I can do to feel something other than the drawning feeling of a passing life.
Alot has changed since I percieved what success was and is...

Yet success is not about money I am comming to learn, nor is it on simple things. I recall a day when Cyberage Dave rolled over to my house in his Lambo to pick up some photo's I shot for him, he was and is a great guy and of all things very human and dignified in his life. I can say I found the same quality things on other wealthy people of this industry such as DS of GVA, R Levi, Brian Schuster, and maybe even Kremen. I respected them all immensely though my eyes on the Lambo that day and things that they had were great I realised that those things were not going to be the answer to my happiness or unhappiness in the future. I do not have a yacht nor a mansion per say nor would I strive for a helio pad in my back yard or a private jet.
I have no need of those things. Creating a Legacy is not on my agenda and I found that Hollywood has no more star's for me to admire. I am far from those things just within the last couple month's I made some major changes and am now almost 500 Miles away from the life of Los Angeles California.

I wonder what is next, what would make me happy and what the meaning of life would be or will be. I love picking up new clients and trying new things for people I work with and consult with always have but still I wonder...

Why?
I am not out to find god and those answer's. I always realise just how fragile and small our planet is. I have seen footage of awesome things and still...

I wonder...
Why is life so meaningless? It seems as though it should be so much richer with things and experiences...

Yet it does not yield the happiness I see such as what the winners on the show The Price Is Right getting a new Mini Van or small boat. In short I am not excited anymore and bored...

I do not know why...

Did I miss something?

Yeah everybody is a designer alright but well.. there's a difference between "professional" design and amateur. Otherwise, I'd never have trouble hiring designers for my non-adult business or as the matter of fact get any business at all since everybody would be designing their own sites.

Jason Berardi, you owe me money.

You scammed GYERS reselling my product and pocketed the money, when you plan on paying me?

qft

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That's a little harsh, don't you think

I don't know the guy but it seems obvious he has some issues with depression. He also seems like someone who may be too sensitive to be successful in a very cutthroat business like this one. He seems like a typical artist who is sensitive, emotional, and lacking in practical business sense. There is nothing wrong with that. That is part of what makes someone an artist. He just needs to embrace his strengths and find a business slightly less vicious than this one. Anyway I wish him the best.

Like I've said, prove your case legally and I will pay if required to do so. If you think you're owed money, do something about it. Wasn't your wife threatening Namecheap with lawyers over an $8 domain? It shouldn't be to difficult.

Until then, you will get nothing from me aside from the same response.

And now back to our original programming

LIke I am going to waste money chasing you for what I am owed?

Youre the one being tarnished and proven to be a scammer daily on GFY.

Fact is, you stole from me, you know you owe me, and I am not going to court over it. For $1k? Gimme a break kid, I just like seeing you jump, scammer.

Jason berardi is a scammer, a crook, a thief, and anyone who posts here knows it.

Whether he takes you to court or not changes nothing about the fact that you took HIS designs and resold them without permission.

Can't believe i have just spend 10 minutes of my life to this guy o_O.
What is wrong with that dude put him in rehab or something.

While that may be what he wants you to think, that is not what happened.

This has been posted elsewhere, I'm not hiding from it. So feel free to comment there

Sad thing about Alien is that he still sees himself as the victim and refuses to accept himself as the cause of his situation.

I hope he does better in life and learns to accept responsibility for his actions. More likely to bring him some success than blaming everyone else and feeling like he's owed something.

he'll be back in no time

Actually, I happened to be around and catch the original drama so I have enough facts to form an independent opinion. Not going to flog a dead horse though.

Are you kidding me? You must be young or just like him... All he did in that letter was blame everyone for him failing, wrote a giant whoa is me thread about how he tried his best and how broke he is and how it is everyone else's fault.

While I feel sorry for the guy, he did himself no favors by posting that. I know he didn't post it here, and I do find that a little heartless, but this isn't his first rant of this nature nor will it likely be the last.

What is so harsh about telling him to get a job? When does personal responsibility kick in? 20? 30? 40? When you see trouble coming you don't ignore it... and if you do and find yourself broke there are other options than just accepting it.

He may be going through some shit right now but only he can pull himself out of it... Go get a job or two to make ends meet until things turn around. Tell me why that is so harsh?

It is called LIFE.

If anyone has failed him it is his family for a multitude of reasons, his reaction to the life he is leading is just one example.

Here is a word of advice... If you stumble and fall, you can't always rely on others to pick you back up. Somewhere, someone failed to teach him this and everytime he gets what he wants through these rants he isn't learning anything because people are just enabling him.

I feel sorry for the guy, I do, but if he really is almost 40 or older, he should have left these childish, foot stomping, look what you made me do, temper tantrums long ago.

how about you get off his nuts for a minute

Sometimes I might come across harsh with my responses in most threads, but I completely agree with this statement. Life sucks, and I never got anything handed to me on a silver platter, which is why I have trouble relating to those who feel "entitled" to anything. You want something, you figure out a way to go and get it, whining on a board about your plight doesn't really do anything to get you closer to the goal.

I was going to say, damn he's going through it, then he writes this....


No wonder his life is fucked.

Nothing funny about someone hitting rock bottom, but when times get tough you need to bite the bullet and get busy. Best of luck to ya Alien.

Cheese and rice

Cliff notes?

Never did biz with Mark but always paid attention.
I dont care if he's an over rated ass or just an ass. He's still a fucking human to me, and if he really wrote that and really ment it, then that really sucks-on a human level.
I'm sure he is far from done with the biz. Sometimes it just takes a damn good kick in the ass and some soul searching to get your head in the game.
I wish the same for Mark as I do for all of you. I only wish the best. I really hope everything works out for everyone.

All the great geniuses, talents and artists are a little "off."