I can tell you what is different.. Normal for you, is no adrenaline, and when you have it you have learned to control it.
Normal for me, or once was, was almost max adrenaline all the time, so that was normal, it was under control in my mind as I didn't know it wasn't normal. A "fix" for me, was to do extreme sports, or just extremely stupid shit. It would bring me back up to the peak, making me feel calm, like I just got a fix from a drug.
I'm very different than you, you have the luxury of being able to be social, do what you want in public, fight, train... I can't do that anymore, I don't respond the same way. Days afterwards my mind is just twisted for the rush of the drug, I'm fine to train, just not fine to be social afterwards, I can't come down from the high like you..
Normal for me, or once was, was almost max adrenaline all the time, so that was normal, it was under control in my mind as I didn't know it wasn't normal. A "fix" for me, was to do extreme sports, or just extremely stupid shit. It would bring me back up to the peak, making me feel calm, like I just got a fix from a drug.
I'm very different than you, you have the luxury of being able to be social, do what you want in public, fight, train... I can't do that anymore, I don't respond the same way. Days afterwards my mind is just twisted for the rush of the drug, I'm fine to train, just not fine to be social afterwards, I can't come down from the high like you..





you must really really have the fight in you, and then you can maybe not bleed out and get cut too much if you commit to breaking his leg or gouging his eye out real early...you do not want to dance around against a knife for too long LOL 

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