me ... me ... ME!
serious ... at about 4°° in the morn i felt a rush of rage (instead of the depression i get every now and then) and jumped up - still holding my keyboard and tearing the wire apart ... i then smashed it against the wall, on furniture ... damn it, i didnt think - that bugger was expensive ($50) and had a tin plate in it which i didnt know ... rats, when it broke the tin flipped out and cut my thumb DEEPLY ... dgamn! now i was kinda outrageous ... but, when pouring water over my hand i saw white matter *shruk* and thought it might be better to see a doc ... alright, ass on bike and down the road - next hospital is only 10 mins from here ... ok, i got my few stitches and got back on the bike ... but - the pain made me feel sick and since i had only one hand for stearing- IT HAD TO HAPPEN - i crashed ... right hand swollen, left leg bruised, left anckle thick as fuck ... can a day start any worse?
lol, depression and anger are so close to each other
sometimes i hate myself for my uncontrollable temper ... hehe, but never when i get into a fight
