I wrote this over 8 years ago in a pile of tears

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  • seeric
    ..........
    • Aug 2004
    • 41917

    #1

    I wrote this over 8 years ago in a pile of tears

    abandoned by a woman, wow how life changes. it seemed like it was all over. decisions to make. see if you can name what i'm talking about. it saved me. this is pretty personal to me but i don't have a prob showing any of my sides to anyone. i am what i am.


    sometimes I'm lonely but i just don't mind
    can't stop feeling empty but i just can't cry
    a lot of things change day in and day out
    you make me feel good and help me stay proud
    the worlds on my shoulder will they please let me be
    alone to my thoughts why can't they just see
    my mind is your temple you'll always live there
    to ever see you gone would leave me in fear
    i know its the best and its not like i mind
    stay with me in my prayers in my mind till i die
    why do we do the things that we do
    the people we see the things that we prove
    leave me today alone to my thoughts
    you'll see me tomorrow kiss my ears in the dark
    you live your life inside my chest
    my arms tight the pressure is great
    we'll bring down the walls until night turns to light
    i have a good feeling this thing that we've created
    sometimes it works out i'll never try to replace it
    you're now in my life it's you that i needed
    you stayed by my side you kept me patient
    i'll always be there for you till life turns to death
    if you're not in my life they can have my last breath
    in my heart i'll always have everything you gave
    and with me you'll go someday to my grave
    airek


    what am i?

    for the whole story see

    http://www.superstarfreaks.com/blog/


    damn life is freaky.
    Last edited by seeric; 04-11-2007, 08:12 PM.
  • Shakula
    So Fucking Banned
    • Nov 2006
    • 948

    #2
    If you dont know what pain is, then you wont know what happiness is.
    You have to face pain in your life so you can appreciate the good times in your life.

    Yin & Yang , One cannot exist without the other.

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    • Sly
      Let's do some business!
      • Sep 2004
      • 31380

      #3
      Life goes on my friend. Always.

      Well... unless you die.
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      • seeric
        ..........
        • Aug 2004
        • 41917

        #4
        I agree. It is amazing how despair seems so unconquerable at the moment it is staring you in the face. Some crazy shit. Compared to some of the things people go through, what I experienced aint shit, just thought I'd share. The work never ends and like you say Sly, life will ALWAYS go on. With or without you. Stick around and make a difference. Piss off the world that they still have to deal with you .

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        • Shakula
          So Fucking Banned
          • Nov 2006
          • 948

          #5
          Originally posted by A1R3K
          I agree. It is amazing how despair seems so unconquerable at the moment it is staring you in the face. Some crazy shit. Compared to some of the things people go through, what I experienced aint shit, just thought I'd share. The work never ends and like you say Sly, life will ALWAYS go on. With or without you. Stick around and make a difference. Piss off the world that they still have to deal with you .
          I want to share something with you Airek.
          Last year I started working as intern in a hospital (i study MD).

          So after my lunch, I go back to the clinic and the doctor who is my supervisor gives me a chart of a girl who is 11 years old.

          He looks into my eyes without saying something, so I knew something was wrong. Anyway, I go to the girl and talk to her while reading her chart.

          She had been to the hospital so many times the past year.
          She had a brain tumor. Unfortently there was nothing we could do to help her.
          Brain tumor has different scales , from I to IV. She had IV.

          She looks at me after a while and says "Im scared, please dont give me a shoot, can you just give me tablets so i become healthy."

          What can I do? Telling a 11 year old that she is going to die, there is no medicin on this planet that can help her.

          After that, life really changed.

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          • seeric
            ..........
            • Aug 2004
            • 41917

            #6
            Originally posted by Shakula
            I want to share something with you Airek.
            Last year I started working as intern in a hospital (i study MD).

            So after my lunch, I go back to the clinic and the doctor who is my supervisor gives me a chart of a girl who is 11 years old.

            He looks into my eyes without saying something, so I knew something was wrong. Anyway, I go to the girl and talk to her while reading her chart.

            She had been to the hospital so many times the past year.
            She had a brain tumor. Unfortently there was nothing we could do to help her.
            Brain tumor has different scales , from I to IV. She had IV.

            She looks at me after a while and says "Im scared, please dont give me a shoot, can you just give me tablets so i become healthy."

            What can I do? Telling a 11 year old that she is going to die, there is no medicin on this planet that can help her.

            After that, life really changed.

            tragic. makes you really pissed off at the ones who do have a chance that just don't want to go on. makes you wish that you can shake em and snap em out of the false reality they are living in. thank god i made it through and didn't check out. for that i am still thankful. even if i don't give myself happiness i have given others some.

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            • nico-t
              emperor of my world
              • Aug 2004
              • 29901

              #7
              Originally posted by A1R3K
              sometimes I'm lonely but i just don't mind
              can't stop feeling empty but i just can't cry
              a lot of things change day in and day out
              you make me feel good and help me stay proud
              the worlds on my shoulder will they please let me be
              alone to my thoughts why can't they just see
              my mind is your temple you'll always live there
              to ever see you gone would leave me in fear
              i know its the best and its not like i mind
              stay with me in my prayers in my mind till i die
              why do we do the things that we do
              the people we see the things that we prove
              leave me today alone to my thoughts
              you'll see me tomorrow kiss my ears in the dark
              you live your life inside my chest
              my arms tight the pressure is great
              we'll bring down the walls until night turns to light
              i have a good feeling this thing that we've created
              sometimes it works out i'll never try to replace it
              you're now in my life it's you that i needed
              you stayed by my side you kept me patient
              i'll always be there for you till life turns to death
              if you're not in my life they can have my last breath
              in my heart i'll always have everything you gave
              and with me you'll go someday to my grave
              airek


              what am i?
              you're gay

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              • havengr
                Registered User
                • Apr 2007
                • 38

                #8
                lovely well done
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