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Hey... Don't let this die so quick lol

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Originally Posted by SleazyDream View Post
9. You were once a hardcore druggie but you've been clean since you turned twenty-one. How

did you quit, and what was your worst moment doing drugs?
Ahh The infamous "Drug Questions" Long story short, from 12 y/s to 21 I was a straight up JUNKIE, I did pretty much

anything I could get my hands on, and unknown to me it was killing me, I lost everything for the pursuit of my

highs, and due to that I went through a shitload of lows...

My best trick was hiding (and I mean HIDING) my use from everyone, people I lived with never even knew I did anything

other then smoke pot here and there, it was actually pretty easy, cause during that entire timeframe I was never sober

at all, so if you knew me, that's just me, I acted like that 24 / 7 there was no drastic changes in my actions, moods,

etc I was for lack of a better term a fully functioning junkie.

I held jobs, made GREAT money... blew it all on more drugs lol... even ran my own companies for a few years

(landscaping and print work)

My breaking point / worst moment came around the time I was about 20 or so, I was living in the garage of a drug house

/ gang house and we were flat broke and out of drugs, I "drunk dialed" my father at 3am and left a very confusing /

funny message on his machine......

"ummmm hello dad... it's me.... your son..... jason..... (shut up... wait) um yeah... I need some money for um...

the... light bill (giggle) yeah the light bill, if you can help me out and bring over (hey how much we need for that

shit.....aha....ok...cool) Like $400.00 that would be cool (I dunno if he's buying it it's the fucking machine) Ok

(giggle) I'll see you in the morning bye.

The next morning I was woken up (I had passed out in the hallway of the house in my own puke) by the sound of knocking

and guns cocking and ppl whispering.... it's the fucking 5-0 man... lets shoot this mutha-fucka" They open the door...

10 guys with guns pointing at the door... it was like a fucking movie for real lol I look up and see it's my father

and I say... "Nooooo maaaaaaan, that aint no cop, that's my dad maaaaaaan he's an opt... optomi..... he's an eye guy"

My dad busts through the two ppl in front of the door and grabs me, and carries me out of the house, I woke up in a

motel room 2 days later, not able to remember much of anything at all, (I know the prior parts thanks to the saved

answering machine tape, and my dad's recount of the morning)

It turns out that on top of somewhat detoxing from being sober for the first 3 days in 6 years (no shit) I also had

double walking pneumonia and had my dad not gotten me to the ER I would have died within the next day or two

That was my wake-up call, my dad and I talked it over and we both agreed, IF I stayed in Detroit I would most likely

end up dead, so I packed up my shit and a pound of weed (lol) and I headed north to our family cottage, I've been here

ever since and I'm happy to say I've stayed sober too, I DO smoke the herb here and there for pain (no really lol) but

even that it's been since Dec since I last hit my bat lol

My quitting was an adventure all in itself, I got up here in the middle of summer, the cottage was about 30 miles from

the nearest town and surrounded by miles and miles of woods and lakes (small and big) I grabbed a tent, bug spray, and

misc supplies and went out to a friend of mine's property (500 acres of woods and a pond) I set up camp for 2 weeks

and pretty much went TRIBAL lol

I ran through the property like an animal, I chopped wood, stacked wood, anything to fight the detox my body was going

through, I CONVINCED myself that IF I even did 1 more line, 1 more pill, 1 more anything that it would kill me, hands

down. at the end of the two weeks, I felt better then I had in years, I went back to the family cottage and the rest

they say is history

The aftereffects of my drug use would not manifest till a few years later though, hindsight is as they say 20/20, but

that's all part of Question #25 so I'll get back to that then.

If I had it to do all over again would I change anything? I'll be honest I really don't know lol, as fucked up as

that sounds, I do believe EVERYTHING happens for a reason, and if I had done ONE THING diff back then WOULD I even be

sitting here typing this today?

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