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Originally Posted by $5 submissions
You seem to be in a very existential state of mind. Everything seems meaningless. We've all been there at some time and at some place. Whoever says otherwise either isn't introspective enough, in denial (due to pride), or oblivious. Look at this as an opportunity to stare the "problem" in the face. What makes it a "problem" as opposed to something else is some sort of fear. Name that fear. Stare it down. Instead of an inconvenience to be avoided.... it's actually the key.
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My problem is deeper then a simple fear. I am in no way fearing for anything happening. Its the fact that things are not happening that makes my problem what it is. I have just decided to cut all ties and hope that the blockage of my thought will reach its destination and i can see what I want. Which is results.
I spit on humanity and i spit on anyone saying im to rash or anyone saying they have been through what i have been through. Im not mad that you think i am just ailed from a simple problem but its not simple. This problem revolves around everything my life has been for and every thing i could ever want with what time i have left.
I have a reasoning about life that shows that no one ever needs to die. With my path no one whould have but as I am here and not where i want to be which is right were i am but at the same time away from everyone real I want them to leave me alone and I want to be free of this horrable title of being a human being.
I have created a path to a world of no problems and no worrys and it makes it so much simpler now that I am no longer going to bring real people with me. I whould be good if this blockage of my attempts to succed whould stop. I whould make my million like i have done a few times but never spent any of it and it all gets tucked away from me and i continue on this journey.
Im not in bad shape mentaly of physically its just my love can not be filled and I cant love a real thing no longer. It has to be perfect and nothing living is. It never will be and that is all i want. I want to be left alone so i can begin to live and start to train myself in the way I have built to come back and destroy everything in my way like i do now just with my army that i have met and talked with unlike now just whispers and fractured info on what i have built.