|
Dating while working in Porn
So sometimes i blog ... here is a recent entry from me. I am kinda coming out of the closet a little with this. Here is a modified version of my blog entry.
So this is something that has plagued me for several years. I am quite certain it plagues most people who work in the wondrous world of Adult Entertainment. Although I am fairly certain it plagues the small percentage of the industry that is female and happens to work behind the camera more. You see, my usual first encounter with a new hottie goes something like this:
Hottie: Hey There! What’s your name?
Me: Hey .. bad pick up .. but I am still willing to give you a chance because your cute. My name is Megan.
Hottie: Well Megan, I come here often and havn’t seen you before. I come here every Friday after work with my co-workers. We work in the Financial industry… you know stocks, bonds, loans. .:: right about now he winks, because for some reason I am supposed to be impressed:: What do you do?
Megan: I work in Porn. Not as a Porn Star, but as a VP of a well known studio.
Hottie: ::: his face just lit up thinking about what a dirty whore I must be ::: Oh really?!?!? That must be a very interesting job!
By this point the Hottie stops actually listening to anything I have to say because he is replaying every good part from any porno he has ever seen in his mind.
And this is exactly how quickly my introductions go wrong. I am not ashamed of what I do, so I don’t lie about it. I also don’t downplay it.. because it is my job, which I love and i happen to be damn good at. I am a successful young female in world’s oldest and biggest boys club. I am actually pretty damn proud of how far I made it. Enough about me, let’s talk about me…
I have one of two choices, hope hottie takes the time to get to know me and realizes I am not some sort of nympho maniac who gets gangbanged on her desk at work or date people who are in my business and get it. So far the hoping and praying thing hasn’t panned out. It will last a few months sometimes, but once I have to go away for 4 days with a group of porn stars and an all male crew … it’s over.
Option two hasn’t panned out so much either. I have dated two people in the biz and hung out with two. Both of my EX's work in my business. Let me explain why it doesn’t work out. You see, if you break up with someone in this biz you will inevitably continue seeing them on a regular basis until one of you leave the business. In fact I see one of my Ex's 5 days a week, 8 hours a day. Yeah, our companies merged this year and now we get to be broken up and work about 15ft from each other everyday! Can you say awesome?!?! It’s not that bad now but it has had it’s want to claw his eyes out moments.
I see one of the guys I used to hang out with every once in awhile. It’s never comfortable to run into Ex’s especially when they have new people and your meeting the new people..it’s just down right awkward. Now I get to see these blasts from the pasts for the rest of my life!!! Oh hey, how ya been? It’s so awesome that you’ve seen me naked and we are forced to interact on a social level. Luckily I have dated or hung out with fairly decent people, so it’s not that bad. But this leads me back to ground zero…
Since my choices are small minded hottie or making sure I want to deal with someone for the rest of my life I choose … oh god! I need another choice. Fuck! Now, I am back to option two. This is like world’s most fucked up circle jerk.
Tell me i am not the only one who sees this? LOL
xoxo,
Megan
|