After a long battle with sickness my step fathers mother, my grandmother Isabel passed away.. She had a terribly long battle with old age, she kept getting sick, and she kept getting a little better, but then progressively getting sicker and sicker. She died in her sleep, at a nursing home, not in her own house with her husband or family. I only find peace knowing that it was in her sleep and that she is no longer suffering.
I have had to deal with a bit of anger and sadness this weekend, because she could have gotten better but she chose to leave her health only in gods hands. She did not believe that she should take the pills and listen to the doctor, because this was the devils work and the drugs were not gods way.
I feel a great sadness over this and even more of a sadness for my step father (who I consider my real father)
In addition to a hard weekend dealing with this, I went to the veterans cemetery for Memorial Day which I do every year to honor my grandfather and grandmother who were in service during WWII and Korea, It's hard to deal with sometimes when you think about the loss that we go through and the lives that people live changing the world and how much they change us when they spend time with us.
I loved my grandparents, I've now lost 3 our of 6, I am sure that the rest will follow soon.. I can only hope that they feel peace when they go and know that they've had a positive influence in my life.
I won't be able to make it to Iowa to see her buried, which makes me angry, but I have to keep up with my life, and make sure that things go forward rather than getting stuck..
Things have also been a bit difficult with my girl, but she's worth it, her issues lately are getting better and I see her making positive steps and that makes me very proud that she is helping her self and she is allowing me to help her use the tools available to her.
Ok.. alot going on this weekend, I just needed to have some emotional vomit right now.. Because as some of you who know me very personally know I care a great deal about family, friends, and love.. Thanks for the concern!
I have had to deal with a bit of anger and sadness this weekend, because she could have gotten better but she chose to leave her health only in gods hands. She did not believe that she should take the pills and listen to the doctor, because this was the devils work and the drugs were not gods way.
I feel a great sadness over this and even more of a sadness for my step father (who I consider my real father)
In addition to a hard weekend dealing with this, I went to the veterans cemetery for Memorial Day which I do every year to honor my grandfather and grandmother who were in service during WWII and Korea, It's hard to deal with sometimes when you think about the loss that we go through and the lives that people live changing the world and how much they change us when they spend time with us.
I loved my grandparents, I've now lost 3 our of 6, I am sure that the rest will follow soon.. I can only hope that they feel peace when they go and know that they've had a positive influence in my life.
I won't be able to make it to Iowa to see her buried, which makes me angry, but I have to keep up with my life, and make sure that things go forward rather than getting stuck..
Things have also been a bit difficult with my girl, but she's worth it, her issues lately are getting better and I see her making positive steps and that makes me very proud that she is helping her self and she is allowing me to help her use the tools available to her.
Ok.. alot going on this weekend, I just needed to have some emotional vomit right now.. Because as some of you who know me very personally know I care a great deal about family, friends, and love.. Thanks for the concern!
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