I recently started smoking again BIG TIME, more than I ever have in my life. I started doing it right before I left Adult.com at the age of around 33. I had always been some what of a social smoker, when I went out drinking and partying and that was it. But now I noticed I was smoking a pack of fucking cigarettes in two days. I do not smoke in my house, car or anything and when I can't smoke I don't think about it. It doesn't bother me at all. I went to visit family for 2 days with no cigarettes, didn't bother me and I didn't even think about them. But when I am at home, working and doing school work, I have started smoking like crazy. It's to the point where my lungs fucking hurt, if I start to have a conversation and I get excited, which if anyone has had a conversation with me I can get very passionate with that I am saying, I lose my fucking breath. I put them down today. I told myself it's fucking stupid and ridiculous to do this to yourself, but my question is, will my lungs stop hurting, will I catch my breath again? To anyone who smoked a lot and then quit what was it like? How long before you felt better, if you did feel better? I have only been doing it this much for about 3 months and I am already dying.
at myself!