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yes its true, i have been much much much much much more sober since the death of my grandmother two years ago,. When that happened I was living in Los Angeles, partying everyday and had done so for almost a decade, I didnt see my family for years, distanced myself etc..... it shook me up, i needed change, needed direction... without going into it, I just buried my grandfather this week. So I guess i am a bit conscious of my moves at this moment.
I am 31 and i feel like i wasted a lot of my time on earth basically just "getting fucked up drunk" - More than entire decade spent just partying hard nonstop. I am done.
My late night days are done. Now I enjoy laying next to my wife and thinking about the future, planning for the future, instead of living in the past and trying to obliterate myself daily with intoxicants.
Its weird to think about all the crap I went through in the past 5 years to get where I am, and then look back on myself, my behavior etc...
I am not the same person I was years ago, thats for sure.
My life and family mean more than the other crap that clouds our vision as we progress through life.
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