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Originally Posted by After Shock Media
Niccole can we still send in some cash to that epass account?
I have had more accumulate and wanted to send you some more anyways.
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Absolutely.... thank you so much. I'm already on the schools for depression screening and my ass is boiling at the ignorance and cruelty me and my girl face every day in public. Everyone I know has been there.. or close.. or known someone.
I just noticed I said earlier 4 weeks... but see here's where I can't work anymore etc... I meant months.. I'm mental mush and simply fucked up.
I look at fhgs and good bought traffic spots etc etc and just go.... "Who the fuck cares?"
I just know that this can happen to anyone and it happens more than anyone might think. I went to this compassionate friends support group a month ago.. just once... every single chick there got fired! Cuz of extreme grieving and being nuts... that's what this does. I've never ever experienced such devestation... followed my blame, rudeness and ignorance. You wouldn't believe some of the stuff that's been said to me.
I just know that I gotta work to get more studies on this... Monday is my birthday which is also the 1st anniversary of my birth mother killing herself. I only was around her like 10 times in my twenties... 5 siblings of mine are getting together this weekend.. the strongest people you'll meet... but they all have attempted this incluing myself. There's alot to this that needs attention and research.
Taylor was loved and supported... but he felt... well no one knows what he felt those final moments. But I do know it destroyed so many lives that there's no way I'm gonna shut up about it. All of those who slam me.. the day this might happen to you, you know where I am. You will be seeking me out cuz you know that I'll be the only one that understands.
Other than that, I'm so done.