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Well here lemme explain why it's a wrong choice. I can really relate to this quote I got off another site:
?That?s the thing, suicide has a way of only hurting the people who liked you. The people who hated you will forget your name in a month and, in fact, the evil bastards who tormented you and drove you to this will actually be a little happier with you gone. Suicide is like a bunch of your friends saving up money to buy you a car and then you taking the car and running them over with it.?
To me, that sums it up right there. Do I forgive him for basically destroying our lives? Of course. We all stood by him as we watched him slowly die day by day. There was an underlying but maintainable depression he had since Middle school.
The last 6 months were insanely worse and it was more of a sudden triggered incident. Very impulsive which was a trait he always carried. We knew he was getting desperately more tired and the pain was getting so bad that he begged for a chest ex ray and wanted to see the counselors as much as humanly possible. He was very open with us and he was very aware that he was completely maxed out the night before.
I kept doing the "sleep on it" and "wait 3-4 days and you won't see this as being the end of the world". He didn't threaten at all to do it though. He lied right to my face and to the last two friends he spoke with on the phone the night before. The fact he told his friends he was totally fine was the reason we searched the house. I knew he was NOT fine. Not even close.
When they're at the breaking point where that instinct to survive numbs or deadens, the decision had been made. There are many complex factors that contribute to this and they're only beginning to properly screen and know what to look for physically and emotionally.
I know many people have been "almost" there.
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